im suffering severly

Toko or Ruby ✂ 18 ✂ it pronouns or they ✂ im in bpd hell ✂️ im a dumb gay kinnie ✂ bpd + npd + trauma victim

[99sleepy]

i wonder

[obsessing-over-you]

YES!!

PRAISE ME!!!

TELL ME I DID GOOD

TELL ME I DID SOMETHING YOU LIKED

I'LL DO ANYTHING TO MAKE YOU PROUD OF ME!!!

[alisonzai]

[cirrates]

im going to make a “never read homestuck” pride flag

[cirrates]

here it is! the colors are the characters’ theme colors inverted and the star represents being able to read zodiac posts normally :)

[blurrymango]

This is a flag I can fucking get behind!

[deacware-deactivated20190108]

Homestucks rise up

[phony-time-traveler-deactivated]

Icarly was fucking terrifying

Sam knocked out a female heavy weight wrestler in one move, after directly asking her “Hey I’m pissed wanna throw down” and getting consent. She was 100% prepared for combat at that moment.

Freddy Hacked into a military computer, made a youtube video that could permanently damage your eyes, and also turned a toy gun into a functional laser gun.

Spencer had the gift of pyrokinesis which went off at random and this was treated as only a medium inconvenience.

Carly was able to manipulate all 3 of these people, one of them being her legal guardian. Sam and Freddy were said to be able to argue indefinitely, Sam even getting into a fight with her mom for so long the therapist who forced them into conversation nearly went insane.

Yet Carly could just say “Hey guys shut up” and they would stop talking right away.

[thenixkat]

Didn’t they have a rival who was pretty much just a straight up supervillain?

[fuckstaffposts]

His name was Neville and he controlled the government

[bpd-toko]

This is danganronpa. Chihiro who. FREDDY

[barbiesglock-deactivated2020041]

i’m black i’m trans and i broke my fucking arm

i slipped on black ice during the aftermath of the polar vortex and ended up with a distal radius fracture. it’s going to be hell for me to try and recover from this injury while in the freezing cold, and on top of that i have to take unpaid time off from my job now. i don’t have health insurance so with the money i have to spend for the cast, pain killers, doctors visits, and the ambulance – and the hours of work i’m going to miss – i’m going to need at least $4,000. i’m about to have a panic attack right now and it’s hard to type, so i’m leaving my links here if anyone can help me through this. paypal.me/eemanee venmo: @barbiesglock

[zarathustra-would-be-proud]

[hufflepuff-rave]

MY HUSBAND IS MISSING

PLEASE IF YOU KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT WHERE MY HUSBAND IS SHARE IT WITH ME OR THE MASON OHIO PD

PLEASE SHARE THIS POST TO HELP FIND MY HUSBAND

Dillon Alexander Williams went to Kings Island with me and my mother Melanie Dean but is now nowhere to be found. Last time I saw him was at the Build a Bear in Kings Island and he seemed completely fine. After hours of security searching they discovered my husband was no longer in the park and hadn’t been since 11 am. He was seen on camera walking out of the park, through the Soak City parking lot and out towards the Sunoco on the other side of the street.

He was last seen wearing black jeans, pink converse, a red and black Deadpool letterman jacket and a Marie the cat beanie like in the pictures I’ve provided.

I’ve been asking around and no one has seen him. This is legitimately the most terrifying thing I’ve ever experienced in my life, please, if you have ANY info call the Mason PD or send me a PM on here. I just want my husband home.

[divine-sovereignty]

Having a personality disorder is weird because you’re always going to extremes to try and make yourself happy but all you ever do is gradually destroy yourself and you can’t explain to anybody why you do the shitty things that you do.

[tequilamockingbird2015]

Emotional Blackouts in BPD

https://themighty.com/2017/01/borderline-personality-disorder-emotional-blackouts/

This is a thing and someone put it into words.

[pdpeaches-deactivated20160703]

I need help explaining what a FP is/how it feels to have a FP to my FP... can you maybe explain it? You probably have before so I'm sorry for asking.

I haven’t explained it yet, and I don’t mind at all!! This will just be an in-depth description of what I have written on my term page!

Favorite Person (often shortened to FP) is a term used within the BPD community to describe someone who is usually being idealized and/or imprinted on. Often, someone with BPD feels incredibly dependent on this person and will put their needs before their own. They will frequently seek validation from their FP. Personally, my FPs are the people I base my opinions off of. Since BPD causes such an unstable sense of self, I feel like I can kind of anchor myself in these people.

It is also important to remember that while it is common for someone’s FP to be a close friend, date mate, or possibly a family member, it is not impossible for it to be someone you don’t know that well. A favorite person is most likely someone being idealized and/or imprinted on, which is not always someone close to you. In my experience, a FP is someone you feel like is one of the most important people in your life. You’re dependent on and attached to them and can’t imagine what life would be like without them. 

BPD also causes “black-and-white thinking,” which essentially means something/someone is either good or bad with no gray in between. FPs are often seen as basically pure good wholesome people (even though this is not always true). This has always caused me to feel like I needed to do whatever is possible to give them everything good because they deserve only the best. A lot of people feel like they must do anything for their favorite person, even if it is detrimental to their own mental and/or physical health.

I hope this was somewhat helpful? I’m not very good at explaining things! I’m sorry!

[bpdsoundsfakebutok]

This is a very well thought out, thorough description of FPs

[allmybpdfeels]

Someone I've already split on: sorry I was busy

Me: no worries I'm past the point of panic & am now completely disassociated, you're dead to me :-)

[starry-genome]

Please reblog if you are 20+ and are mentally ill. I see so many posts by mentally ill teenagers and that’s great, but I feel like I’m too old to have depression and anxiety and other mental issues to the extent that I do.

[rottenbutrecovering]

What's the point of validation? Genuinely curious.

A big part/issue for many mentally ill people (or those who have been abused), is we often question if we are “bad” enough, if our feelings are real, and if they are, if they’re okay to feel them. Validation is a simple way of saying “you feel this way, it’s real, and it’s okay”. It is especially important in disorders which cause the person to question if they even have the disorder- and validating them lets them accept that they do, and therefore work towards improvement!

[werewolfvevo-deactivated2018031]

my bpd makes it so all day every day i’m either “!!!” or “emotion.exe not found” and it sucks

[bpdqt]

[gt-adhd]

what bpd feels like part 2

(part one can be found in my bpd tag)

- not realizing how much you have repressed until it’s forced to the surface

- being labeled as a “flirt” because you don’t know how else to make people like you without seducing them

-not being able to tell if your reaction to a situation is realistic or if the borderline is talking

- *looks at a photo of myself from a week ago* who is that ??

- knowing that you’re being irrational but you c a n t s t o p

- getting an invasive thought out of nowhere and mentally checking out for the next 20 mins

- feeling paranoid that you have to defend your diagnosis whenever you tell someone that you’re borderline

- “i wanna text this person but do they want me to text them ??? they told me to text them anytime i feel bad but did they really mean that ??? do they secretly hate me ??¿¿?

- being overly polite due to anxiety about what people think of you

- getting into new friendships really fast and then splitting a week later because you got anxiety over someone else knowing things about you