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G || 18 || BPD+Other Mental Health || About || Taurus || INTJ || Chaotic Evil ||

[threeyearsrecovered]

I’ve never worried about what my ED will do to my body because I never planned on living long

[a-road-of-self-destruction]

People think this is a game.

But if you look hard enough online, you can play the game too.

Thinspo.

Meanspo.

Pro ana.

Low cal recipies.

ABC diets.

Green tea.

Group chats.

Forums.

Rewards.

Punishments.

We are all playing the game and the only way to win is if you’re dead.

But you’d better be skinny.

Iced coffee is a meal replacement and a handful of pretzels with peanut butter is now a binge.

1 meal a day if you’re lucky and 500 calories feels like 5,000.

There’s a strong correlation with intake and weight. As one goes down, so does the other.

25 lbs since August.

Not enough.

It’s not noticeable yet.

25 more to go.

That’s the ticket.

This isn’t a coping skill anymore.

It’s a lifestyle.

It’s a challenge.

It’s a game.

I’m tired 24/7 but the hunger in my stomach is exhilarating.

My clothes are getting bigger but it’s hiding my body for the big reveal.

I’m shivering all the time but the green tea warms my shaking hands.

My motivation to live my life is dropping but so is the number of concerned people.

I’m lonely but the numbers are comforting and can fill the void.

This isn’t something we choose to play, however, it is a deadly game.

Michaela Switzer//Clean Room Messy Human

[asking-the-death]

You need a private talk? Just send me an ask!:)

[bpdline]

This song sums up my life

[wastedwaves]

me flirting: hey wanna date a fucking failure?

[fraeuleinrabenschwarz]

Being sober and awake at the same time is clearly not my thing

[bpdline]

I’m back and worse than ever

[ashzxlla]

And I’m back, by popular demand.

[tastemyvalidation]

When your disorder makes you crave a romantic relationship but also makes it incredibly difficult to maintain those relationships once you’re in them.

[cenkrett]

Half of the people on tumblr:  “I talk pretty tough for someone with a soft, fluffy bunny heart full of feelings.” Me, unable to relate:  “I talk a lot about tolerance and understanding for someone who is always 2 seconds away from serious violence.”

[vexingdelusions]

friend: don't do that it's a bad idea!!!

my impulsive ass: that's the point.

[siickangel]

[theemotionalkiwi]

being abandoned literally feels like your heart is being ripped out of your chest and you can’t breathe lol thx for coming to my ted talk

[bpdline]

My favourite person ghosted me and now I want to jump off a cliff this is f .in e.

[vegyta-deactivated20181007]

God making me

[heavensghost]

[asoftwrongness]