I often feel like my life is spiraling out of control. It’s strange, sometimes I even get a feeling associated with it, but it’s hard to actually describe. I vaguely remember last year that I felt I had dug myself into a pretty deep hole. It felt like I hit rock bottom, but there was hope that I could climb back out of it. Now, it feels like I’ve fallen even deeper and everyday the hole keeps sinking and sinking. Over and over I’ve thought maybe I’m just not cut out for this life. That I never developed the skills needed to live a functional, successful life. Maybe they’re all dilemmas that I constructed myself, but how to dismantle them? I’ve tried a lot to change in the last year and half, but I find myself even worse off than when I began that journey. That undoubtedly contributes to this feeling of despair. I’m not sure where to go from here. I simply scrape by, day to day, with this looming feeling of helplessness.
