Breathing but Drowning

Brianna. U.S. I come here on the dark days. But always trying to recover. Though it often feels impossible. But I know it's not. #StayStrongFriends

[kayleyshimmin-blog]

Zzz

[breathing-but-drowning]

I’ve been gone for a long time. 4 years. The depression has gone up and down. I’ve been on so many medications trying to get it right. The anxiety gets worse when the depression gets better. It makes no sense. I’ve self medicated. Struggled with abusing substances including my meds. My mom died. She was 54 years old. My 23 year old brother died 15 months later. Fucking cancer. I stopped taking my meds again.

I’m worse than I’ve ever been. My mom was my rock through this. My reason for fighting. Staying alive. I’ve been fighting for almost two years without her. And I’m running on fumes. I’m so tired. It would be so easy. I’m on blood thinners. It would be so easy.

[imjustascaredlilgirl]

[mitten]

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[breathing-but-drowning]

[breathing-but-drowning]

So tired

[breathing-but-drowning]

More accurate now than when I first posted it.

[breathing-but-drowning]

I’ve never taken a picture of it before. But for some fucked up reason, I just kept staring at them. Usually I do it to release the pressure and anxiety, but tonight was different. I just feel numb. I done even know what to think. Just had to vent.

[champgn]

This is so accurate that it almost hurts to look at.

[blackandwh0te-deactivated201911]

Slowly disappearing.

[riffatmatinpoetry]

“I will outlast this. This pain will not haunt me forever. I will make it through this.”

— Affirmation of the day.

[breathing-but-drowning]

[breathing-but-drowning]

So tired

[alltheworld-willbeyours]

Do you ever notice yourself getting bad again…like, you know you’re not doing work that needs to be done, you know you’re not cleaning, you know you’re not taking care of yourself…you know all the things you need to do to start trying to feel better. But you just can’t. And you’re left feeling like shit bc you thought you were getting better but here we are

[jonnygordo-blog]

Rain cold day / Dia frio e chuvoso

[the-perfect-aesthetic]

[wonting]

[factly]

[cabinetteofcuriosities]