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[buuuuggggggggggg]

Yknow i be livin my life n suddenly my brain’s like. Hey. Hey. Hey. You have ptsd. Its incurable. You'll live with it forever, you'll be traumatised and scared forever. You have cptsd, you're fucked up for life.

Like goddamn its 7am and im eating cereal can you not

[empowered-together]

Growing up undiagnosed autistic in an unsafe household was wild. 

It took me so long after escaping to be able to realize that I was autistic simply because I didn’t have any of the telltale symptoms due to my trauma. For example, a difficulty to read social cues is one of the biggest things that people see and say ‘autism.’ Growing up in a place where even a slight misstep on my part could lead to severe punishment based on how cranky my parent was, I learned real quick to read every single person in that room to keep myself safe. In addition, I was constantly masking my neurodivergence without even realizing it. What were simply autistic traits led to me being called a bad child and given consequences, so obviously I hid them in an act of self preservation. This certainly did not help in getting a diagnosis since I seemingly displayed so little symptoms as a child. 

This may seem like a really niche subject, but I’ve met a lot of other people who  had the same experience and it needs to be talked about more. Even after diagnosis my father was terrible and told me I made it all up, I have to be faking this, I never acted autistic as a kid. This is the sad reality for way too many people, and it needs way more attention than it gets.

[sicksadstar]

miserable

[nairel-system]

Comic about amnesia

[nagichi-boop]

My three mental ages: a defenceless kid, an adult who’s had enough and [static noise]

[forever-garden-deactivated20231]

You sure?

[bilbopaggins]

[openblogtomyabusivemother]

Hahahahaha. This is way too accurate.

[fly-cypher]

PFFFTTHAHAHA

[hel7l7]

[screaming-static]

[brainflys]

i feel so alone and so fucking childish and stupid. i hate my intrusive thoughts and i hate being afraid to communicate. i hate the parts of myself that i cant get rid  of i hate my brain and i hate scaring people

[exodusx]

Imagine being loved and appreciated by somebody for who you are.

Can’t relate.

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[fr0stb1te]

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[azaroteu-deactivated20230113]

wish i haven't been.

[furiousgoldfish]

who else naively thought their parents would acknowledge something is wrong if you spent days locked in your room, doing hunger strikes, openly said you’re suicidal or refused to speak to anyone… our child selves were really out there crying desperately for help in any way available and our parents couldn’t care less