DOWNSTAIRS !

TELL ME YOUR LOVE IS STILL ONLY MINE!

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* STARTER CALL !   I’ll be knocking these out later tonight. 

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* SHIPPING PLOT CALL !   I’m gonna make icons, finish his perks and bio, and a bunch of other stuff .... come talk plot in general with me but I’d like to find people interested in shipping please and thank you 

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calldropped​:

𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐀 𝐍𝐄𝐖 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐌 𝐎𝐑 𝐊𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐑 appeared within the fog they were only too eager to investigate. the portion of what danny could only assume was a rather large asylum that made it into the fog held his attention. from the sewing machines to the the bodies swinging from the ceiling. he wanted to know what had happened there. 

the ghostface glances over at the occupant of said realm before hoping up to sit on one of the dusty desks. a gloved hand reached up, taking off their mask & lowering their hood. tired blue eyes stared at the larger man, watching him carefully. for the moment, he didn’t seem hostile but danny had learned quickly from the other killers that could change in a matter of seconds. some weren’t always hostile, others it was best to avoid them all together. at least this one seems willing to talk. 

❝had it made for me.❞ he appreciates that the other noticed, his always been rather proud of his work. ❝it wasn’t easy finding something that fit, i’m a bit on the small side.❞ he’s lucky he found someone who was willing to make what he needed & not ask questions. ❝did you make those dresses? the ones on the mannequins?❞ 

He looks around the dilapidated room— damage and debris and filth that had always been here. The staff at mount massive didn’t care about the living conditions of their make believe patients. It was all just a game of house to them. ( they played father. They played mother. They played the monsters in the closet, under the beds— they played punishment, more than anything else. )

He asks about the dresses. The ones Eddie made and clothed the forms in, with hushed whispers of how lovely his blushing bride would be in them.

They aren’t the best quality work he’s ever done, to be frank.

“I did.” He nods, meeting blue eyes for only the barest of moments before he breaks eye contact. ( You only look a man in the eye when you got beef with him, Eddie, you got beef with me? What, you wanna square up because I hit you Ma? Think I won’t hit you too you little brat? ) Eddie squeezes his eyes shut, and the voice of his father fades away to the back of his skull, where it buzzes— still there, but muted.

Mother had been a tailor, before she married him. Father was a carpenter. Eddie learned both trades, but he was only allowed to sew when Father wasn’t home. ( he called it a woman’s job. Called him a sissy for enjoying it. )

“They’re not the best...but to be fair, I did make most of them out of old patient uniforms and drapes...so I suppose they’re alright.” He looks at the mask, rather than the mans eyes, and then at the hems of Danny’s sleeves.  “Your cloak is well made, though.  Leather can be difficult to work with, and this looks supple ... it is amazing you’re able to hunt anyone in it though.  It seems ... hot. “ 

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@adagaium​ / lyric sc.  ↳ i’m gonna win / rob cantor

“ Sometimes it can seem like a merciless dream and I'm falling with nothing to hold.  sometimes I get flustered and beaten and blistered -- Abandoned outside in the cold. “ 

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@karmasession / sc.

Lucas makes him uncomfortable.   He’s the only survivor who actively seeks him out in their downtime -- and Eddie has no idea how to respond to it.  He’s uncomfortable with the heat that flushes up the back of his neck, turning pallid cheeks scarlet when Lucas plops down beside him on the log and begins to quiz him on things -- and asking personal questions intermittently. 

At some point, Eddie stops really listening -- there’s a spiral of self - loathing that occurs in his head and all he can say, interrupting lucas mid-question is: “ Does my face not frighten you ... ? “

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* LYRICAL STARTER CALL.   taking a lil break from the para starters for a bit.  hit that heart for a lyric starter off eddies playlist

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@calldropped / sc. 

Eddie can’t decide how he feels about Danny.  To be fair, they haven’t actually spoken.  There’s just something about the premeditated nature of his power and his crimes that settles ill and heavy in Eddie’s gut.  He doesn’t really ... fit in with them, does he ?  Eddie, that is.  He doesn’t LIKE what he does.  He doesn’t derive any pleasure from the knowledge of what he’s done -- there’s no satisfaction found.  

He doesn’t even remember most of it.  

What he does remember makes him sick. 

But his mother raised him with manners and he isn’t going to ignore someone just because he disagrees with them.  Besides, the survivors aren’t exactly the most willing to spend time with him. ( Not that Eddie blames them. ) 

“ Your cloak is so nicely made ... did you buy it, or make it yourself ? “ 

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@yamamori / sc. 

Looking at her makes him uncomfortable.  There is a static in his head, a fuzzy image, and he sees these ... these faces.  Women, muddled and brutalized.  How did they get that way?  Her VIOLENCE causes him to shrink away.  She’s like him, though, she can’t control it.

He finds himself sympathetic to that notion. 

Eddie approaches her with great caution.  It’s not fear, exactly -- he just wants to test the water carefully, avoid catching her in a foul mood.  ( It’s like avoiding his mother.  Tip-toeing around the hall, peeking around the corner into the kitchen just as a cabinet SLAMS and he jumps, shrinking away from the sound and heart racing in his ear when he realizes -- )  

He shakes the memory, and the impression, from his head but the static remains.

When Eddie finally finds her, he turns on the most charming smile he can manage.  Half his mouth doesn’t smile right anymore.  ( He tries not to be shy about it. )  She’s barely wearing any clothes, so he’s careful not to let his eyes wander away from her face.   

“ You know, I bet I could make something fashionable out of some drapes in one of these realms. “ He gestures proudly to the suit, stitched and patched, but fashionable all things considered.  “ I made this from scraps ... I could make you something. “ 

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@kvzan / sc. 

Eddie swings wildly between getting along well with other killers, and finding himself unable to remember spending any time with them at all.  He’s unstable, the fog making it more difficult to find his way out of the morphogenic engines trauma fueled dissociative states -- and he doesn’t know enough about the science behind it to offer himself any helpful advice.  

He’s seen this one in passing -- a hulking figure who, in trials, exhibits a brutality that makes Eddie’s skin crawl.  ( It makes the memory of his father surface.  Makes him want to PUKE.  His stomach rolls and his guts clench and then Eddie is gone and the Groom is here and it doesn’t matter anymore -- ) 

Today, though, the nerves and the sickness settle in his gut but he clenches his jaw and holds onto reality.  The Oni, who Eddie has no other name to call, sits beside the fire.  Eddie clears his throat as he approaches, not wanting to catch him off guard.  

His smile is nervous, but genuine.  Eddie is self conscious about his speech -- between his accent that just never would fade away even after he moved to america, to the newly acquired lisp that the scars have caused.  He hates it all. 

“ It’s hard to find anything entertaining to pass the time here.  The other ... “  He doesn’t want to say killers.  Something about looping himself in with a group with that particular title makes his guts squeeze.  “The others don’t really seem to hang around in the light ... what do you usually do? “ 

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LET’S TALK ABOUT EDDIE AND HIS DISORDERS

TRIGGERING CONTENT AHEAD.       the most obvious of which, though not being directly addressed in canon and mentioned only in his file being his PTSD.  The abuse of his childhood does not stop at the sexual assault experienced -- his mother was complicit, having been aware of the abuse and doing nothing, later choosing to put the blame for it on Eddie rather than on her husband and his brother.  His family, mother especially, being very religious.  

The extensive abuse imbedded him with an inherent guilt over his sexuality, his inability to be attracted to women and the wrath that it incurred from his mother stuck with him.  It would later manifest as the aggressive murders and mutilations mentioned in Eddie’s file.  

The second disorder that bears mentioning is a DISSOCIATIVE DISORDER called DISSOCIATIVE FUGUE.  Formerly known as psychogenic fugue, it manifests in Eddie as the inability to acknowledge that he committed the acts that he’s accused of.  That he insists that the dead women are only sleeping and cannot acknowledge reality.   In the same way he can’t  admit or accept the abuse he underwent even when confronted with evidence of it, responding with aggression and confusion.  

Eddie does not REMEMBER the abuse, not on a whole, though he is aware of it by proxy.  He’s repressed the majority of the events, but he knows that they happened.  The Fugue becomes relevant here.  He’s unable to reconcile the knowledge with his current identity and it causes agitation and rage.  

The employees of Mount Massive RETRAUMATIZED Eddie pretty severely -- forcing him to acknowledge the events of his childhood in an unsafe and hostile environment just scratching the surface of what they did to him.   The physical abuse causing PTSD episodes and flashbacks on a regular basis, causing him to unearth and relive memories he would rather forget.  of course, this was intentional on Murkoff’s part, as they have to bring Eddie to the worst possible state mentally in order for him to be ready for The MORPHOGENIC ENGINE --

The events resulted in the change in his pattern that we see in game:  killing men instead of women.  This is a reflection of his internalized homophobia, much like killing women was, but in a completely different level.  He isn’t completely present mentally for a majority of these events, at some points even taking on the personality of his father as a shield.  He’s incapable of acknowledging what he’s done because that state of existence is separate from his conscious mind.  

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i still have to finish eddie’s doc but here’s a quick reminder that Eddie’s mental illnesses are severe and he was found not guilty by reason of insanity for the actual murders he did commit and was sent to mount massive -- where the murkoff corporation consistently and intentionally retraumatized him, inadvertently reinforcing his dissociative state. 

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TAG DROP pt 2 !

♡ 〉HC ⇀ take his sadness / throw it away / he is still left with his hands ♡ 〉DESIRES ⇀ sorry about the blood in your mouth / wish it was mine ♡ 〉THOUGHTS ⇀ because you want to die for love / you always have ♡ 〉AES ⇀ tell me how all this / and love too / will ruin us ♡ 〉STUDY ⇀ you always fall in love / like having your throat cut ♡ 〉TRINKETS ⇀ remember tonight for it is the beginning of always ♡ 〉SELF ⇀ love for you is larger than romantic love / it is like religion ♡〉SH. WAYLON ⇀ if you love me / you dont love me in a way i understand

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TAG DROP pt 1 !

verse. 〉??? ⇀ undecided verse. 〉main ⇀ like you’ve discovered something you didn’t even have a name for verse. 〉outlast ⇀ tell me about the dream where we pull the bodies out of the lake ♡ 〉LETTERS ♡ 〉ANONS ♡ 〉Q ♡ 〉PROMPTS ♡ 〉OOC ♡ 〉DASH COMM ♡ 〉CRACK ♡ 〉PROMO ♡ 〉PSA ♡ 〉WISHLIST ♡ 〉REF

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* STARTER CALL !   I’ll be knocking these out later tonight.