02/20/2022
can't even believe it's my little sister's 24th birthday. where has the time gone? she's a mom now, i'm still jealous. miss her like crazy.
listening to Better Days - Cam Meekins. i love this song.
i miss my pothead days, seems like i was so much more mellowed out then. fuck this being uptight 24/7 bullshit.
i dont understand some things at times. like how i'm nonstop the bad guy, ect.
and i get how i'm supposed to pitch in and TRY and WANT to more, i totally get that.
but what i don't get is why you say hardly nothing at all to those who take and take and take from you constantly with no remorse or even bat their eyes, knowing they don't care but still every time it's the same thing.
there has to be someone in the world somewhere, seriously, that sees where i am coming from.
someone that can see i'm not delusional or crazy or stupid.
there's two sides to every story right?
it's been forever since i came to tumblr to vent but i am still grateful for this platform to let out all these thoughts that are driving me insane. thankful that i'm less likely to be judged here, thankful there's gotta be someone, somewhere, who might read this and understand.
it's such a lonely world isn't it?
it'll get better... eventually.
<3 b.














