(Yes, sex positive aces exist. Aces who get married and have kids exist. I'm just so tired of this heteronormative crap about dating=sex all the time. If you want to meet someone on an app, dating does not equal sex. You do not owe anyone sex if you meet for coffee once. Or romance. Sincerely, a millennial 1992 biromantic asexual/aroace nerd woman who's never held hands even when I thought I was straight since 2005.)
And yeah, especially if the cute bi and lesbian girls ghost you within two days of talking and explaining you're ace but open to date. Even just to check. I know I'm a boring arse straight edge nerd with no life.
Seriously, it was heck to be the shy straight edge nerd and secretly being freaked out by having sex with a man and being confused about how other girls got bfs all the time when you've literally never experienced a guy say "hi." To you. If I even could reciprocate even back then.
Now, of course, I'd be totally cool dating women too, even if I'm not "technically gay enough." I would just like to have cute dates and maybe hold hands sometime.
"So, what's your sexuality?"
"I'm Asexual, but I'm open to date men and women! I've never actually been in a relationship, even when I thought I was straight."
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Again, if being an emotionally abused child wasn't already a thing.
See, I feel either this, or completely uncaring and empty about romance and I'm perfectly okay dying alone. It's just sometimes it feels invalidating.
The two wolves inside every writer: "this is genuinely the best thing i have ever written. i am gifted. i am changed. this paragraph alone justifies my entire existence on this planet." and then five minutes later, same paragraph: "who wrote this. who allowed this. this reads like a golden retriever trying to describe grief. i need to lie down and reconsider everything." both wolves are always wrong. the paragraph is fine. you need a snack.
Note: We need more Guy-Man going Dad Mode in the high school AU. (First draft.)
Everyone thinks Guy-Man is the sullen emo punk boi, but he's actually a huge softie underneath. He tries to act all manly and uncaring but he blushes and gets nervous around girls and smiles so cutely. Also he's a surrogate big brother figure to his sidekick he has to train.
Examples:
Guy-Man is a hard taskmaster. He'll get you to do 50 push ups.
Guy-Man stood, as cold as a marble statue beside her. Staring broodingly into the distance.
Rain still pattered relentlessly through the leaves of the trees above him. Spattering his hair and clothes. But Guy-Manuel did not move, or show any sign of discomfort at all.
Beside him, his protege gasped in exhertion as she finally finished her grueling set.
She sat up, trembling with fatigue. Her muscles ached.
Guy-Man observed her out of the corner of his eye. Taking a drag and exhaling a cloud of smoke into the damp air before him.
Suddenly, Phoebe looked up as he wordlessly flung his own jacket across her shoulders.
"Get up. You'll catch your death out here." He told her stoically, beginning to walk off without looking at her.
"Get inside. I'll make tea or something." He said as he walked away.
Phoebe smiled as she watched him leave, then rose to follow him.
(Yeah, Guy-Man is definitely taking the whole stoic martial arts master thing too seriously. In comparison to goofy Mum Dad Sensei Pedro.)
Also: Guy-Man gets annoyed at self doubting sidekick.
Guy-Man furrowed his brow, finally letting his irritation show. Crushing his unlit cigarette in his hand, he suddenly whirled to face her, uncharacteristically angry.
"Will you just stop?!" He snapped, stalking over to her to stand imperiously above her.
"That's the stupidest thing I've ever heard you say, and that's saying something. Are you even listening to yourself?!"
He knelt down in front of her to fix her with his determined azure gaze.
("Wtf are you doubting yourself for?! Think!! Meme.)
"Phoebe, you are the strongest, most caring and amazing person I have ever met, and now you're questioning yourself?? After what you've done for me and Thomas?! This thing isn't anywhere near over, and you're flagging now?! We haven't even begun to unlock our true potential!"
Suddenly realising how passionate he had become, Guy-Man suddenly gathered himself, stood up and stalked away, running a hand through his hair nervously.
He took a deep breath to compose himself, staring up into the sky to distract himself. Embarrassed by his sudden outburst.
"If Thomas wants me to train you, I will. I don't know if I can, and if I do sometime in the future, then I will. I don't know how much help it will be, but... If it's meant to be, it's meant to be."
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