Hey everyone! Happy 4/13!! I think I’ve been stuck working every 4/13 for about six years now XP
I wanted to take a moment to genuinely say hi to you (a fan or passerby of the blog). I usually try to stay in character but I wanted to be real for a bit.
Hi!!!! I’m June!!!! I’ve been legally June for a few months now. 5 years ago, I was a cishet guy who had his whole life figured out. Now I’m a 26 year old (bisexual?) transfem. 5 years from now? I have no idea, but I’m excited to find out.
I get sort of this, imposter syndrome when I talk about being trans. My story isn’t like a lot of other people’s: I didn’t know when I was younger. I didn’t even know when I graduated high school or flunked out of college. I didn’t know because I never hated myself, I never hated ‘being a guy’.
But I never loved it either. I never loved ‘me’. When people said ‘Mr. X’, that was never me. When people talked about ‘the guy over there’ or ‘this gentleman’, that was never me. When I looked in the mirror, the person looking back was never me. I never hated him, but I never loved him either.
Fast forward a couple years and (this is a true story that all my friends know) and my friends showed me… that’s right, the SnapCube fandub of Sonic 06. Anyway, one thing lead to another and Penny Parker was sort of my trans awakening.
After that, I waited about three months before transitioning both socially and medically. I told my family, friends, and coworkers, to which I’m extremely fortunate that it’s (mostly) positive.
It was roughly four/five months after I started transitioning that I was invited on as Broadway June. It was a time where I still looked masculine and I was scared to be out in public. Broadwaystuck was the first place I could be, well, me. ‘Hi! I’m a June, and I’m a girl!’
That was, hard for me to say back then. BWS gave me a place to be, and a place to express myself to you. It was never perfect, no, but it was a place where I didn’t have to do a song and dance to explain who I was to people.
This group is full of amazing and talented and funny people who care about each other, and it was exactly what I needed then.
And now, today! It’s been 15 months since I’ve transitioned. I’m almost exclusively called ma’am at work because of how awesome I look! And I love how I look! I’ll admit that there have been a few times I may have flirted with myself in the mirror. My name is legally changed, and I’ve still got a lot more progress to make!
These days, I’ve got all sorts of little projects and endeavors I want to focus on, that I can’t give BWS June as much attention as I could before. I wanted to leave earlier, but if I’m being honest, I didn’t want people to think it was attached to the stuff that happened earlier this year. Not talking about it of course, I just wanted everyone to know it was separate, so I waited a few months to make this.
As of today, I’m officially stepping away from the blog. A big part of me doesn’t want to, of course. Part of me wants to just, delete all this and put out another song. But… I’m, growing up. It’s hard… but I have to believe I’ll be ok, and I have to believe you’ll understand. Thank you to everyone who came here, even if it was just once or twice. It meant the world to me that I could sing to you, just for a while. And hey, who knows? Maybe one day we’ll bump into each other again!
The world is a big place after all. But with that said, that’s everything I wanted to tell you. Thank you to my listeners, thank you to BWS, and thank you to all the friends I made along the way.
This is Broadway June, officially retiring the ‘Broadway’. Good day, good afternoon, good night to all,
And just so you know, for anyone that needs it: it might not always feel like it, but it gets easier.
