Our IVF Journey

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After multiple failed ICSI procedures with our first clinic and a failed egg retrieval from our new clinic we are finally on our way to doing another medication round to do another egg retrieval. We have collected our new medication cycle and our medications and begin our stimulation cycle on Friday… fingers and everything are crossed 🤞🏻

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Today we have an ultrasound with our new clinic.

We did bloods not Friday just fine but the Friday before and are now getting ready to travel the 2.5 hours to the new clinic to get an ultrasound done and hopefully get some answers as to what is next in this cycle. Hopefully we can have an egg collection and embryo transfer done before the wedding otherwise if not we will be waiting until August to do those as we are going on honeymoon for 2-3 weeks and I don’t know if I am patient enough to wait until August 🤣

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We have officially started with a new IVF clinic, this one seems more patient oriented and willing to answer any questions we may have.

We were waiting for them to get all our test results back from the last clinic, now I just got off the phone to the doctor about 15 minutes ago, to which he said the following:

“I have to call on Tuesday morning to book in an ultrasound at their clinic and then on day 2/3 of my next period he wasn’t me to do blood tests.

When we are there getting the ultrasound done he’s going to explain the tests he wants and why he wants them before we move to the next stage.”

It’s all starting to happen again and my partner and I are both over the moon that everything is starting to fall into place, now just to get the ultrasound done and get all tests he requires done and then we can start our medication cycle.

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I am seriously thinking about getting a tattoo in memory of the two babies we lost…

Why is there so many different designs and ideas?

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Our IVF Journey

Hello and welcome to my tumblr, this will be a space where I can talk about my IVF journey, full of hope, love, medications and heartbreak. I am using this platform as most of my family and friends don’t know that my partner and I have been going through IVF and I needed a space where I can tell my story without having to outright tell my story to my entire world.

I am 27 years old and my partner is 50, he already has two children from a previous marriage and had a vasectomy about 24 years ago. And before you ask, yes I knew all about the fact that he had a vasectomy, we had discussed the possibility of him wanting children in the future and yes he wants them too, we discussed the fact that he would need to have either a vasectomy reversal which would take 6 months to fully heal and still might have the possibility of not being able to conceive naturally, or we could go through a fertility clinic and the specialist could stick a needle in to retrieve the sperm, we both decided that using an IVF clinic was the best way to go for our current situation.

We started our IVF journey in October of 2021, we had all the needles and ultrasounds to prepare for the egg retrieval, we managed to collect 17 eggs, 13 had fertilized by the next day but only 5 made it to the blastocyst stage to be frozen to wait for embryo transfer. We had our first embryo transfer in November 2021, we had the dreaded “two week wait” to find out that our HCG level was at 136 on our first blood test, we were over the moon... two days later we had to do another blood test to make sure the levels had at least doubled... they hadn’t... our world came crumbling down around us and I miscarried our first child at 5 weeks pregnant just before Christmas, now I know a lot of people will say “but it wasn’t really a baby at the point in the pregnancy” but in actual fact at 5 weeks pregnant your baby’s heart is forming. This left us with 4 embryos in the freezer to try again.

We had our second embryo transfer on 2nd February 2022, unfortunately while the clinic was thawing our embryo for the next transfer three did not survive leaving us with one little embryo, we were left with our last chance to conceive a child on this IVF cycle, we endured the dreaded “two week wait”, we had our first blood test on 14th February 2022 which found our levels sitting at 42, we had our next blood test on 16th February 2022 which saw our levels triple exactly up to 126, I was then asked to do another blood test on 18th February 2022 which saw our levels more than triple up to 406... during this week of blood tests we noticed some bleeding but there was no pain, no cramping and no discomfort to go with the bleeding... I went to our local emergency department three days ago, they took bloods and asked me to come back the next morning to do an ultrasound as they were worried that I was experiencing an ectopic pregnancy, I went in the next morning for the ultrasound to which the sonographer didn’t give anything away... I then sat for another two hours at the emergency department waiting to see the doctor, I finally got through and the doctor showed me the ultrasound and explained to me that there was no sign of pregnancy inside or outside of the uterus, my heart broke and I absolutely lost it... we had lost our last embryo at 5 weeks again... the doctor put it down as a missed miscarriage because yes there was bleeding but there was no cramping, no pain, no discomfort and no nausea.

We have not given up hope, we will get back on the IVF train, we are actually looking to swap IVF clinics as we are not 100% happy with the way our current clinic has handled things.

It may take some time to update you all again but watch this space.

I pray that every person who wishes to be a parent gets their chance and doesn’t have to experience the loss and heartache that we have experienced.