* 𝐒𝐔𝐑𝐕𝐈𝐕𝐎𝐑 ៸ 𝐒𝐀𝐕𝐈𝐎𝐑.

𝐒𝐔𝐑𝐕𝐈𝐕𝐎𝐑 ៸ 𝐒𝐀𝐕𝐈𝐎𝐑.

[brokenmedic]

Desirée  ❛ Desi ❜   Martin  is  a  fandomless  paramedic  original character,  developed  by  Ri  ❲ they, them ❳.   i  am  british  &  over  twenty - one,  so  minors  do  not  interact, you will be blocked.

#BROKENMEDIC ⸺ an exploration in the tragic effects of gun violence, unexpected loss, working through severe trauma, and the inevitable hardships in trying to start over.

trigger  warnings for mentions of  mass  shooting,  spousal  death,  suicidal ideation, drug  abuse & overdose,  and infertility. i'd advise not to read if you find any of that triggering. any and all mentions of those themes will be tagged accordingly.

this blog is mutually exclusive, highly selective, and plot driven, with medium to low activity. i have several other blogs and work two jobs, so please bear with me. discord  is  probably  the  best  place  to  reach  me,  so  if  we’re  mutuals  then  just  slide  into  the  ims  and  ask  for  it.  

[brokenmedic]

i’ve been gone for like a week because covid,, and came back to my followers list overtaken by p0rn bots.

[recklessbarbieklaus]

friendly reminder that even if i take ages to reply, i still want to roleplay with you

[leneemusing]

STAYING THE NIGHT PROMPTS

❝  don’t be ridiculous,  there’s enough room on this bed for both of us. ❞ 

❝  please stay.  i don’t think i can be alone tonight.  ❞

❝  i’m staying,  okay?  you don’t have to be alone tonight. ❞

❝  you shouldn’t be alone right now.  i’ll take the couch,  it’ll be fine.  ❞

❝  will you sleep with me?  i know how that sounds i just mean—  i feel safe when you’re there.  ❞

❝  i’ll be here the whole night okay?  nothing will get to you while i’m here.  ❞

❝  wait— have you been here all night?  ❞

❝  i thought you went home after i went to bed.  you didn’t have to do that— you could’ve at least joined me in bed that couch is shit for sleeping on.  ❞

❝  can i stay with you tonight?  i don’t wanna go home yet.  ❞

❝  it’s late,  you might as well just stay here.  ❞

❝  can you just…stay here?  and hold me.  ❞

❝  i know this might sound weird but,  do you wanna stay over?  i guess ‘sleepover’ sounds kind of childish but.  i think it’d be nice.  ❞

❝  i’m not expecting anything,  i just,  thought it’d be nice to keep you company tonight. ❞

❝  i don’t have nightmares when you’re there.  ❞

❝  i get you’re doing the whole protective thing— and i appreciate it.  i do,  but there’s no reason for you to stay awake all night.  might as well come to bed.  ❞

❝  thank you for staying.  it just gets so lonely at night sometimes.  ❞

❝  i don’t want you to be alone tonight and honestly,  i don’t really wanna be alone either.  ❞

❝  do you wanna stay with me tonight?  ❞

❝  stay,  please.  ❞

❝  i’ll stay.  ❞

❝  i’m staying.  ❞

❝  i’m staying.  end of discussion.  you gotta learn to let people take care of you.  ❞

❝  i’m not ready to say goodbye yet.  ❞

❝  i don’t wanna have to say goodnight.  ❞

❝  honestly i can’t sleep,  so if you wanna stay up with me?  ❞

❝  i don’t sleep a lot either these days.  we can be insomniacs together.  ❞

❝  well,  i can think of some ways to wear you out.  ❞

❝  if you can’t sleep,  there are other things we could do.  ❞

❝  i’d rather fuck than stare at the ceiling counting sheep to be honest.  ❞

❝  it doesn’t have to mean anything,  i just don’t wanna feel lonely tonight.  and i want to feel good for once.  ❞

❝  please don’t go—  i need.  i need someone—  i need you.  ❞

❝  the night doesn’t have to end here,  you know.  ❞

❝  i like it when you’re here.  so stay.  please?  ❞

❝  you’re just as lonely as i am.  might as well be lonely together.  ❞

❝  you can stay but i’m not letting you sleep on that couch.  ❞

❝  chivalry is overrated,  get in my bed.  ❞

❝  you’re clearly exhausted.  you can go in the morning.  ❞

❝  you don’t have to pretend to be fine,  if you need me to stay i will.  ❞

❝  when i said i wanted everyone to leave me alone i didn’t mean you.  i can’t handle everyone else right now but you…you’re different.  ❞

❝  you need someone right now.  and i’m the one that’s here.  let me be what you need.  ❞

SCENARIOS

[ GUARDED ]  sender insists on staying the night to keep watch over receiver who has been in some kind of danger. 

[ GUARDING ]  receiver insists on staying the night to keep watch over sender who has been in some kind of danger. 

[ UNEXPECTED ]  one muse stays the night to keep an eye on the other after something traumatic and they end up having comfort sex.

[ CONSOLE ]  sender asks receiver to stay the night because they don’t want to be alone and they end up cuddling.  

[ CONSOLED ]  receiver asks sender to stay the night because they don’t want to be alone and they end up cuddling. 

[ ACCIDENT ]  sender winds up staying at receiver’s house all night because receiver fell asleep against them/in their lap and they didn’t have the heart to wake them. 

[ UNPLANNED ]  receiver winds up staying at sender’s house all night because sender fell asleep against them/in their lap and they didn’t have the heart to wake them. 

[ STAY ]  sender is carrying receiver to bed because they fell asleep somewhere else but when they start to walk away,  receiver grabs their hand so sender joins them in bed. 

[ STAYING ]  receiver is carrying sender to bed because they fell asleep somewhere else but when they start to walk away,  sender grabs their hand so receiver joins them in bed. 

[ APPROACHED ]  sender is staying with receiver for safety and asks if they can sleep in their bed with them. 

[ APPROACH ]  receiver is staying with sender for safety and asks if they can sleep in their bed with them. 

[ SHARE ]  sender is unexpectedly staying with receiver overnight,  receiver insisted sender sleep on the bed while they take the floor but sender winds up insisting they join them in bed. 

[ SHARED ]  receiver is unexpectedly staying with sender overnight,  sender insisted receiver sleep on the bed while they take the floor but receiver winds up insisting they join them in bed. 

[ FOUND ]  sender is staying with receiver who had them take the bed while receiver takes the couch.  in the middle of the night,  sender goes out to join receiver on the couch because they don’t want to sleep alone. 

[ FIND ]  receiver is staying with sender who had them take the bed while sender takes the couch.  in the middle of the night,  receiver goes out to join sender on the couch because they don’t want to sleep alone. 

[ DISCOVERED ]  receiver wakes up in the morning to find sender asleep on their couch because sender was watching over them. 

[ HAVEN ]  receiver wakes up in the morning to find sender asleep on their couch because sender felt safer with them. 

[ WEARY ]  sender cries themselves to sleep in receiver’s arms. 

[ TIRED ]  receiver cries themselves to sleep in sender’s arms. 

[ PROPOSITION ]  one or both muse(s) are having trouble sleeping so they have sex to pass the time. 

[ PURPOSE ]  one muse can’t sleep so the other initiates sex to wear them out. 

[ TRAPPED ]  one muse ends up staying the night with the other due to a storm. 

[ KEEP ]  sender fell asleep on receiver and when receiver tries to get up,  sender whines so they stay put.  

[brokenmedic]

“and whether they’re heroes or villains really depends on your perspective.”

[rpmemes-galore]

💘  Valentine’s Day Prompts!   💘

send me  ‘ 💖 ‘  for your muse to ask mine out

send me  ‘ 💖+ ‘  for my muse to ask yours out

send me  ‘ 💍 ‘  for your muse to propose to mine

send me  ‘ 💍+ ‘  for my muse to propose to yours

send me  ‘ 😢 ‘  for your muse to breakup with mine

send me  ‘ 😢+ ‘  for my muse to breakup with yours

send me  ‘ 💋 ‘  for your muse to kiss mine on the lips

send m e ‘ 💋+ ‘  for my muse to kiss yours on the lips

send me  ‘ 💐 ‘  for your muse to give mine a bouquet

send me  ‘ 💐+ ‘  for my muse to give yours a bouquet

send me  ‘ 💌 ‘  for my muse to write yours a love letter

send me  ‘ 🧸 ‘  for your muse to give mine a stuffed toy

send me  ‘ 🧸+ ‘  for my muse to give yours a stuffed toy

send me  ‘ 🍫 ‘  for your muse to give mine a box of chocolate

send me  ‘ 🍫+ ‘  for my muse to give yours a box of chocolate 

send me  ‘ 💛 ‘  for our muses to go on an expensive, fancy date

send me  ‘ 🖤 ‘  for our muses to go on an inexpensive, simple date

send me  ‘ 🕯️ ‘  for our muses to have a romantic, candlelit dinner at home

[brokenmedic]

what’s your literary archetype?

the caregiver ⸺ you've spent so long taking care of others, you don't know what to do with yourself if you aren't. you probably suck at taking care of yourself though, maybe you feel like you aren't worthy or deserving. but deep down, i know you wish to be cared for too. you want someone to show you that you are worth even just half the effort you put into caring for other people. don't neglect yourself.

TAGGED BY. @untwined 💚 TAGGING. @jurati, @evcryopeneye ( lucy ), @dadukos, @dustserpent ( yes, do both ), @detmisty, @izstevns, and anyone else who hasn't done it and wants to, feel free to steal.

[ohisms]

↪     𝑴𝑶𝑹𝑩𝑰𝑫 ᶜᵘʳᶤᵒˢᶤᵗʸ .    (  a  collection  of  various unsorted question prompts .  adjust  phrasing  as  necessary .   will  be  updated  frequently .  )

are you kidding me ?

[ name ] ,  what just happened ?

hey !  what’d you do that for ?

did you plan on ever telling me ?

do you want to tell me the truth ,  this time ?

you seriously think i could’ve done this ?

did you know about this ?

[ name ] ,  what were you thinking ?!

can we talk ?  alone ?

why are you doing all of this ?

it can’t be that bad ,  right ?

haven’t you heard the stories ?

who did this to you ?

what are you insinuating ?

what did you think was gonna happen ?!

you think i could do something like that ?

who do you think you are ?

why won’t you let me help you ?

do you have any evidence of that ?

can we put away our differences for a second ?

where have you been ? 

is that  …  blood ?

what’s your problem ?

are you real ?

where’s your sense of adventure ?

would you kill for me ?

you’re  [ name ] ,  aren’t you ?

why can’t you just let it go ?

do you want me to stay ?

what if we left  …  ran away ?

what else was i supposed to do ?

how did you get this scar ?

could you give me a hand with this ?

do you ever stop talking ?

you’ve never done this before ,  have you ?

where do you think you’re going ?

how many fingers am i holding up ?

what can i say to make it better ?

why can’t we all just get along ?

can i stay the night ?

what’s that supposed to mean ?

where did your common sense go ?

you seriously don’t believe me ?

what aren’t you telling me ?

do you have a minute ?

why are you lying ?

you’re gonna walk away from this ?

where am i supposed to go ?

can we stop and think about this rationally ?

how long has it been since you’ve slept ?

why can’t we be civil about this ?

what makes you so special ?

where is all of this coming from ?

how are we gonna get out of here ?

you’ll never leave me ,  right ?

were you in on this ?

care to join me for a bit ?

shows what you know ,  doesn’t it ?

do you want to get out of here ?

what were you expecting to happen ?

what are you working on ?

i can tell you’re upset ,  what happened ?

when can i see you again ?

where do we go from here ?

can you sit up for me ?

how long have you been awake ?

what are you getting out of this ?

can we put this behind us ?

where are you ?  nobody’s heard from you .

how can i make this go away ?

were you following me ?

where does it hurt ?  show me .

[ name ] ,  what the hell ?

hey  …  can i ask you something ?

you’re not gonna tell me where we’re going ?

really ?  you’re gonna do that right here ?

are you even listening to me ?

we can help each other ,  right ?

hey  …  did you hear that ?

you have no idea who i am ,  do you ?

how long have you known ?

what exactly are you asking me to do ?

how was i supposed to know that ?

are you new around here ?

can you stop and listen to me for a second ?

do you think there’s something wrong with me ?

what ,  you think i’m not qualified ?

why did you help me ?

can you just look at me ,  please ?

what can i do to convince you ?

where did we go wrong ?

oh my god ,  are you bleeding ?

why the long face ?

are you trying to get yourself killed ?

what do you make of this ?

how much do you wanna bet ?

you’re sure this will work ?

why are you so concerned about me ?

what are you trying to prove ?

did you ever care about me ?

are you drunk ?

isn’t this amazing ?

how long have you been standing there ?

what are you suggesting ?

why are you such a pessimist ?

did you know them ?

can we call it a day ?

where did you come from ?

[brokenmedic]

they’d been living together for a year — to the day. Desi had left that morning with @jurati believing she was headed to another 24 hour shift. but in fact, Desi was just hoping to surprise Agnes with something she’d been planning for a short time. a small celebration of their one year anniversary of living together. she wasn't sure if it was normal to celebrate that, but she didn't overthink it. she just wanted to do something sweet for Agnes.

it was well past lunch time when she let herself back into their home, after cautiously checking in on Agnes to make sure she was still working and hadn't snuck away early for whatever reason. Desi then got to work herself ; setting everything up. it took many trips back and forth to car ( she’d agree she may have over done it, just a little ) and several hours of building things and then shifting stuff around because it didn’t quite look right. before finally, everything was in the house and where it needed to be.

so, Desi, feeling almost as tired and as anxious as she often felt after an actual 24 hour shift, threw herself onto their couch and waited for her girlfriend to return from work. hopefully not expecting Desi, nor the two year old fluffy rescue cat still curiously exploring his new home… and the excessive amount of toys and cat furniture Desi had purchased that morning in preparation.

however, by the time Agnes should've been leaving work, Desi had been exhausted enough that she'd accidentally fallen asleep on the couch ; and unbeknownst to her, their new fur - baby had eventually curled himself up on her legs.

[poohsources]

🐝  *  ―  send 🖋 or ( ‘PLOTS’ ) for me to tell you a couple potential plot ideas i have for our muses, whether it just be certain types of dynamics or general storylines i’d like to explore.

[brokenmedic]

❛❛ somebody loses their somebody every day ; you'll never really know what it's like ( even if you think you do ), you'll never really know how it feels... until it happens to you. ❜❜

[brokenmedic]

i genuinely don’t know what’s worse about my job ; working all over the holiday season, when almost everyone else i know is off enjoying their celebrations. or the january reset, where you do 10x the work in the same amount of time, for the same amount of pay. oh, and you’re not allowed to book vacation time during those two months bc it’s “too busy”, and being off sick is frowned upon.

[brokenmedic]

i think i'm gonna bring back my tl/ou oc ahead of the explosion of blogs to that fandom,, but idk if i should make a new blog for them or add them to my multi. decisions, decisions...

[brokenmedic]

she  couldn’t  help  the  smile  that  tugged  delicately  at  her  lips  as  she  read,  and  then  reread,  @dustserpent‘s  text.   ‘ did  you  get  home  safe? ’   she  breathed,  as  she  finally  plopped  down  on  her  couch.   after  what  had  been  a  lovely  evening  spending  time  with  Mary,  Desi  had  decided  to  walk  the  long  way  home.  avoiding  the  busier  parts  of  town  and  the  endless  background  conversations  that  were  often  her  escape  from  her  own  vicious  thoughts.   

however,  lately  ( since  she’d  started  spending  more  time  with  Mary )  there  was  more  calm  inside  her  head,  that  allowed  her  to  embrace  the  peaceful  nights  and  beautiful  sunsets.   so,  on  that  particular  night,  Desi  had  gotten  so  lost  in  her  thoughts  about  Mary,  about  their  time  together  and  how  much  she  actually  enjoyed  being  around  her,  about  how  thankful  she  was  that  she  came  to  Massachusetts ;   that  she  hadn’t  realised  she  had  missed  some  texts,  until  she  stepped  back  into  her  apartment  a  good  30  minutes  later.

✉️  [ mary ] :   hey,  i  just  got  back  to  the  apartment.    ✉️  [ mary ] :   safe  and  sound  😌 ✉️  [ mary ] :   did  you  get  home  ok?

[poohsources]

🐝  *  ―  𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐄𝐒𝐘  𝐏𝐈𝐂𝐊  𝐔𝐏  𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒.   (  since  i’ve  already  made  some  dirty  pick  up  lines,  let’s  have  a  few  tame,  more  romantic  ones.  feel  free  to  adjust  to  better  fit  your  muses.  )

❛  wouldn’t it be the perfect crime if i stole your heart and you stole mine ?  ❜ ❛  i just wanted to show this rose how incredibly beautiful you are.  ❜ ❛  falling for you would be a very short trip.  ❜ ❛  do you have a map ? i’m getting lost in your eyes.  ❜ ❛  i’ll be yours forever. just tell me when to start.  ❜ ❛  if you were a tear drop i would never cry for fear of losing you.  ❜ ❛  i’m sorry, i don’t know your name. can i just call you mine ?  ❜ ❛  are you as beautiful on the outside as you are on the inside ?  ❜ ❛  i think the gaps between my fingers were meant for yours.  ❜ ❛  there isn’t a word in the dictionary for how beautiful you look.  ❜ ❛  why would i want to look at the stars when i can look in your eyes ?  ❜ ❛  if beauty were time, you would be forever.  ❜ ❛  when i think of you i smile, and when i smile i think of you. i don’t know if it’s the thinking that makes me smile or the smile that keeps me thinking. all i know is i’m always thinking of you and smiling.  ❜ ❛  my heart forgets to beat the moment i see you.  ❜ ❛  is your dad in jail ? because he stole the stars and put them in your eyes.  ❜ ❛  you’re so beautiful that you made me forget my pick up line.  ❜ ❛  i just want you to know that when i picture myself happy, it’s with you.  ❜ ❛  you are my compass. without you i’m lost.  ❜ ❛  the only flaw in your entire body is your lips ― they’re not touching mine.  ❜ ❛  excuse me, i seem to have lost my heart. i think you must have it.  ❜ ❛  you make my life easier with your disarming smiles.  ❜ ❛  perfect will be making you mine forever.  ❜ ❛  i think we are made for each other.  ❜ ❛  you are a walking art exhibit. i could study you for days.  ❜ ❛  i now believe in angels. do you believe in fate ?  ❜ ❛  i’m not a photographer but i can picture me and you together.  ❜ ❛  do you have wi-fi ? because i am really feeling a connection right now.  ❜ ❛  well, here i am. what are your other two wishes ?  ❜ ❛  are you lost ? because heaven’s a long way from here.  ❜ ❛  you spen so much time in my mind, i should charge you rent.  ❜ ❛  if you are a fruit, you would be a fineapple.  ❜ ❛  i am not drunk honey, i’m just intoxicated by you.  ❜ ❛  i am a man of few words. you are beautiful. would you like to go out ?  ❜ ❛  you know you have the most amazing smile ?  ❜ ❛  i was gonna say something really sweet about you but when i saw you i was speechless.  ❜ ❛  you are deserving of masterful poetry, not mere words.  ❜ ❛  are you a magician ? because whenever i look at you, everyone else disappears.  ❜ ❛  i am not your first love, but i would love to be the last.  ❜ ❛  i was blinded by your beauty, so i’m going to need your name and number for insurance reasons.  ❜ ❛  i know i don’t have a chance, but i just wanted to hear an angel talk.  ❜

[brokenmedic]

dustserpent​.

❛  do  you  come  here  often?  ❜  @brokenmedic  asked  handing  her  the  sketchbook  she  had  assumed  lost  forever  after  having  looked  for  it  for  nearly  thirty  minutes.  it  wasn’t  unlike  her,  leaving little  things behind:  a  scarf  on  the  train,  gloves  on  a  bench,  earrings  in  a  hotel  room.  but  unlike  those,  that  book  was  irreplaceable:  months  of  notes,  drawings  and  doodles  of  animals,  people,  places…  it  was  a  part  of  herselfshe couldn’t easily part with.  

❛  lately,  ❜  she  nodded,  pink  lips  curving  into  a  soft  smile.  ❛  i  find  it  soothing.  it’s  a  wonderful  spot  to  do  a  little  bird  watching,  and  well,  sketching—you  did  take  a  peek  at  my  book, right?  not  just  my  name  on  the  first  page?  ❜  light  laughter  as  her  eyes  met  the other woman’s,  studying  her  reaction  for  a  moment  before  she  turned  to  point  at  a  patch  of  grass  across  the  park.  ❛  that  spot  right  there  under  the  oak  tree,  looking  over  the  lagoon?  it  reminds  me  of  home.  —do  you?  frequent  this  park or  was  i  just  lucky  enough  that  someone  with  your  observational  skills  happened to be here today?  ❜

it  was  peaceful,  it  was  her  escape.   when  her  mind  was  busy  with  thoughts  about  her  late  husband–about  what  happened,  and  the  guilt  she  tried  so  hard  to  suppress  started  to  creep  back  in–she  craved  the  quiet  hum  of  the  town  surrounding  them,  she  needed  to  fill  her  mind  with  the  rumbling  sounds  of  the  bustling  city,  as  she  overlooked  the  quaint  park  outlined  by  a  thick  border  of  trees ;   perfect  for  bird  watching,  so  the  woman  said.   which  was  not  exactly  Desi’s  idea  of  fun,  but  she  gave  an  understanding  nod  anyway.

❛ oh,  yeah...  i’m  uh  sorry  about  that. ❜   she  laughed  awkwardly,  motioning  to  the  notebook.   ❛ i  am  a  little  guilty  of  that.   but,  in  my  defence,  your  stuff is  very  captivating…   and  i  was  kinda  just  tryna  get  out  of  my  own  head. ❜   Desi  explained,  tilting  her  head  ever  so  slightly  as  she  shifted  uncomfortably  at  the  thought  she  might  be  oversharing  just  a  little.   ❛ i’m  actually  pretty  new  in  town.   but,  yeah.   i’ve  come  here  a  few  times  in  the  last  couple  of  weeks.   it’s  a  great  place  to  just  sit,  clear  your  mind,  y’know? ❜

❛ —— sooo,  where  is  it  you  call  home?   because,  right  now,  i’m  imagining  somewhere  very...  green. ❜   she  teased.

[sunprompts]

TEXTING STARTERS

Let’s text! feel free to make edits to better suit your muse’s voice/typing style/contact names, but please don’t edit or add on to the original post. 💛

[ text ] are you awake?

[ text ] it’s been three days! why haven’t you been answering your phone?

[ text ] are you ignoring me?

[ text ] can you let me in? I’m out front.

[ text ] are you okay?

[ text ] I miss you.

[ text ] are you at home?

[ text ] did you get home safe?

[ text ] where are you?

[ text ] what did you do?

[ text ] how did you get this number?

[ text ] can we talk?

[ text ] hey, is this [ name/wrong name ]?

[ text ] are you drunk?

[ text ] do you also hear thunder outside?

[ text ] text me when you get home safe.

[ text ] are you in my kitchen??

[ text ] stop lying to me!

[ text ] what the hell happened?

[ text ] why do you only text me at 3am?

[ text ] okay, that’s it. I’m coming over.

[ text ] do you want to come over?

[ text ] stop shutting me out.

[ text ] come over.

[ text ] are you lost?

[ text ] do you want to talk?

[ text ] rough day, huh?

[ text ] can you bring snacks on your way here?