had some shit to say.

she/they needed an outlet.

[brokenroomba]

feeling really beautiful recently while also being the largest i’ve ever been is truly an interesting and new experience for me. overall positive though~

[brokenroomba]

why do i feel such a hole left by people who were bad to me, when i chose to cut ties?

[brokenroomba]

i don’t want to be someone that kills themself, but i don’t want to be me at all anymore either.

i wish someone would tell me what to do, or even care how i feel.

i’m so fucking embarrassed of myself it’s a humiliation ritual every time i step outside or look in a mirror.

at least if i died young it’d be a tragedy and people would wonder what i could’ve been. i’ve been alive *just* long enough to know the answer is nothing, and no one, AND alone.

where the fuck do you go from there?

[brokenroomba]

how do you express how painfully lonely you are without coming across as needy and pathetic

asking for me, myself, and i, because i don't have a friend.

[brokenroomba]

do i not feel like a girl, or do i feel like i'm not allowed to be a girl because i'm not comfortable or successful at presenting the way i'm shown a girl is supposed to be, even though by birth i am a girl?

is it a neurodivergent/trans/body image problem- or is it a societal problem that wouldn't exist if women were allowed to exist without alterations.

why is it radical to have body hair, not wear makeup or do your hair everyday, and wear clothes for comfort over style? why does NOT doing those things detract from femininity, but the performance solidifies it?

none of this is inherently original or groundbreaking, but it sure does bother me. like- i'm in a different category because i don't have the energy to perform being feminine every single day? i still like to get cute and done up, but i don't feel the NEED to all the time?

[brokenroomba]

sometimes you feel completely alone and then someone texts you something innocuous and you’re right back in it all again

[allsadnshit]

tumblr is for putting your stuff somewhere that's not secret but also not for anyone particular to see so it's true neutral in a really nice way

[brokenroomba]

being forced to walk around with sand in your shoes and clothes for an indefinite amount of time would be an effective form of low level torture. maybe moreso psychologically than anything else.