With everything going on, Iâm making it official: so long and thanks for all the fish! Iâll be back once more to update with a pillowfort once my code comes through.
Iâm absolutely thrilled to share this commission from @jimmymm-ilustra! In addition to knocking it out of the part, sheâs an absolute delight to work with.
Commentary below the cut!
One of the things that stuck out for me from the War of the Chosen expansion was that, at least for periods, the Commander was conscious within the tank, or perhaps, more accurately within the network. Thereâs a very particular kind of horror endemic in that, especially as itâs not just the Elders who are aware of that fact. Even if the scientists donât know whoâs in the suit, theyâre very much complicit in the ongoing imprisonment and torture of another human being. The fact that itâs a person in there very much drove the underlying idea.
So, the original visual concept came from Madame Leotaâs tombstone at Walt Disney Worldâs Haunted Mansion (her tombstone may be as cool on the west coast, but Iâve never been). If youâve never seen it in action, check out a video here; the effect is pretty unsettling when youâre not expecting it. In the case of the original, itâs literally just a spooky effect. Leotaâs important to the house lore, but more in the sense that sheâs keeping an eye on the visitors. In the creation of this piece, I wanted there to be a certain confrontation between subject and viewer.
The suit, obviously, had to go. The obstruction of the face aside, the suit helps to obscure that itâs a person âfragile flesh and bloodâ encased within. Â Though the dehumanization is important, I had a bigger thing I wanted to get at, which was, in this case, depersonalization.
The choice of a hospital gown was very much intentional: the ties to medical procedures and the mechanics of being tanked aside, thereâs a stripping to it. An XCOM uniform retains some sense of who Lizzie is or was; thereâs an element of individuality still to it. A hospital gown removes that. Sheâs no longer a Commander; sheâs a subject â albeit a valuable one. She does not exist in a position of power, but is a victim of the power of others.
The blink, then, becomes affirmation and accusation: Iâm still here and I see you. It becomes a way to highlight the agency thatâs been taken from her, and a quiet promise that she isnât passive in her containment.
There are two (and only two) possibilities: either she led XCOM to victory and they are now engaged in a clean up operation of alien forces, or XCOM was overrun, clearing the way for an alien-controlled puppet government to seize control of the planet.
Sheâd really like to figure out which it is, but asking hardly seems the prudent option.
Sheâs not entirely sure why she was given this posting in the first place. Sheâs a battlefield strategist, not a scientist. She likes General Hayden, yes, and the rest of the staff. She just wonders if she wouldnât be better used as something âanythingâ more suited to her skillset than a liaison.
She pinches the bridge of her nose; at least the so-called coffee shop has a respectable selection of teas.
She stares at her laptop, attempting to find something meaningful to write in the report. The farther from the field she has moved, the more onerous paperwork has become. She minimizes the window, resolved to take a break to clear head, and finds herself distracted by the image that greets her: Cecily sitting on Johnâs shoulders outside of her parentsâ place in Pilsen, bundled in her winter best.
Sheâll be glad to be back with them on Friday night, even if it means sitting through tourist traffic.
Her phone buzzes, snapping her from her thoughts.
Johnâs caller ID photo smiles up at her; she hadnât realized sheâd been at it so long. âMilĂĄÄku?â
âMaminka!â A happy voice chirps.
âCecilka, zlatĂÄko! Whereâs Daddy?â
âHeâs coming. He made NahĂ˝ angry again.â
Tanya shakes her head; she canât imagine the cause of tonightâs skirmish.
âWere you a good girl for him?â
Her daughter giggles. âYes, Maminka. Oh, wait---â
There is the sound of something on the other end and Cecilyâs voice is somehow distant, but now distinctly joined by another. âTanya?â
âJohn? Are you alright?â
âIâm fine. More importantly, the kids are too. How ---â
âKids?â
âCess, LibuĹĄe, NahĂ˝ ---â
âJohn --- Â LibuĹĄe, NahĂ˝, and the others are cats. And not even our cats.â
âNahĂ˝ sleeps in Cessâs bed. LibuĹĄe sleeps on you when youâre home, and on me when you arenât. Theyâre certainly ours.â
She sighs, exasperated, though itâs more by her absence around the house than by her husbandâs incomprehensible insistence that the four cats who happen to hang around are somehow theirs.Â
âAre you alright? Cess mentioned something about NahĂ˝ being upset.â
âHe jumped into the tub again.â
âWith Cess?â
âAnd started trying to groom her. As she was taking a bath.â
Tanya laughs. The cats arenât theirs and certainly arenât hers, but the persnickety sphinx had taken a shine to her daughter. Heâd curled up at the floor of her crib when theyâd first brought her home, and slept at the foot of her bed ever since sheâd outgrown her crib.
Heâd even taught her to meow, a fact which still occasionally gives her pause.
âWhat happened?â
âI went to take him out, and he took offense. Iâve got a nice chunk missing from one of my sleeves.â
âI donât know why he gets so upset with you. He lets me take him out of the tub every time. Did you scare him?â
âItâs because heâs your cat,â her husband insists. âHe lets me stay because you like me.â
She shakes her head, though the gesture is lost over the phone.
âLook, Iâm just finishing up, and Iâm about to head back to my place. Iâll Skype you when Iâm there?â
âWeâll see you soon. Be safe getting back.â
She hangs up, and begins to gather up her things. She doesnât know where John gets these crazy ideas.
There are two (and only two) possibilities: either she led XCOM to victory and they are now engaged in a clean up operation of alien forces, or XCOM was overrun, clearing the way for an alien-controlled puppet government to seize control of the planet.
Sheâd really like to figure out which it is, but asking hardly seems the prudent option.
There are two (and only two) possibilities: either she led XCOM to victory and they are now engaged in a clean up operation of alien forces, or XCOM was overrun, clearing the way for an alien-controlled puppet government to seize control of the planet.
Sheâd really like to figure out which it is, but asking hardly seems the prudent option.
There are two (and only two) possibilities: either she led XCOM to victory and they are now engaged in a clean up operation of alien forces, or XCOM was overrun, clearing the way for an alien-controlled puppet government to seize control of the planet.
Sheâd really like to figure out which it is, but asking hardly seems the prudent option.
But to give them her work, to hand over the kind of secrets she has striven to keep, is unthinkable.
(AN: I grew up in the Potter fandom and, as such, have some overly developed headcanons about how things work --- complete with a slapdash of influence from Wheel of Time. That all seeps in here. If you read something and are left going ???, itâs probably from a headcanon.)
She hadnât considered the consequences when sheâd selected her specialty. Sheâd simply let the whims and curiosities of her own insatiable need for answers guide her choice. Cognitive magic was intricate and complex; it required a certain kind of tenacity, a willingness to venture into the more theoretical aspects of healing magic.
It was not for those faint of heart.
But the results could be incredible. Memory charms undone; damage reversed. If sheâd meant to heal, then returning people to themselves was the truest application of the art form.
People didnât often think of Slytherins as healers; they heard cunning and ambition, and found them incompatible with nurture and care. They fell easily into the trap of failing to see past the stereotype, failing to understand that it took ambition to solve daunting challenges, that it took cunning to work your way past otherwise impassable blocks. It was about power, yes, but the power to know, to do, to reverse the unthinkable.
Idealism was a fantastic blinder; passion was, perhaps, an even better one.
The trick in reversing the magic lay in understanding the fundamentals of the damage and its cause, in knowing how to rip the threads of curses and charms from a mind without causing harm in the process.
Of course, the corollary was that her knowledge of just how to inflict that damage, how to manipulate a mind through magic, how to bend and break, was substantial. In finding new ways to heal, sheâd come up with new ways to harm.
New, very effective ways.
She reads over the letter once more, a summons from within the Department of Mysteries. Sheâs never had much detail on their work; even the few times she and their agents have crossed paths, securing any information about the work was virtually impossible --- even if it would have made a difference in treating one of their own.
A notice of recruitment does not fill her with confidence. She sinks into her chair and scrubs a hand over her face.
Sheâll need to think through this carefully.
She could report as ordered, learn the secrets of the Department and finally get some answers. She dismisses the possibility almost immediately; she wonât stand by and watch her work be misappropriated, let alone participate in its perversion.
Not reporting, of course, presents its own challenges. She doesnât relish the idea of running; she suspects theyâd find her eventually, and drag her back. Sheâd be left at their mercy, and out of options.
UnlessâŚ
The idea is madness. She didnât work this long and this hard to simply cede her healerâs license. She did not spend an apprenticeship in agony to simply give up.
But to give them her work, to hand over the kind of secrets she has striven to keep, is unthinkable.
If she does this, she will have nothing. Yes, she could find work in a shop somewhere, brew potions for an apothecary, or oversee the rarer editions in some shop, but she knows there will be questions, whispers, implications that her own work had backfired upon her, stories only inflamed by the Ministry.
Lizzie Regan from @trbl-will-find-meâs âEvery Entrance, An Exitâ and her daemon, Turlough! Lizzie is the bigfoot from the âtypes of people: cryptidâ meme. More experimenting, this time with using multiple layers with the multiply blending option to create shadows, as well opaque strokes for details. Itâs hard to break out of using strokes to build up layers, but Iâm working on it. Iâm still looking for Photoshop brushes that work well with my style, but Iâm getting somewhere!
Palette is âCreationsâ, from askthestargazers palette challenge.
Time taken: 3 h, references used. Used multiply blending option to get different colors and strokes to build up light on Turloughâs chest.
June 7th, 1942: Edward Hopper completes his best known painting, the seminal Nighthawks. When asked by a Chicago Tribute reporter about the philosophical meaning behind the diner having no clearly visible exits Hopper responded, âShit. Fuck. I did it again. Goddamnit. Fuck. Not again. I did it again. Shit.â and slammed his hat on his leg.
Something about the Templar HQ puts her off. Not in the same way the Skirmishers did, being ex-ADVENT, and not in the same way the Reapers did, with Volk constantly trying to recruit her, it was something else entirely. Maybe it was the Templars themselves, too friendly for an alien apocalypse. More likely, Tatiana thought, it was just the sheer psionic energy in the air that set her nerves off.
Either way, she knows better than to say anything. They need allies where they can get them, and even she cannot deny that Geist and his followers would be good.
Of course, itâs also nice to indulge in some comforts, when they can get them. Elizabeth perks up the moment Geist mentions the hot springs and it takes all of Tatianaâs effort not to laugh.
She forgets about her friendâs reaction quickly enough. Tatiana has other things to deal with first before she can so much as consider a hot bath, as enjoyable as it would be.
One of the Templars points her in the right direction when she finds a break at last.
Maybe itâs the general unease that the Templars bring, or perhaps itâs the psionics in the air, but she forgets to make her presence known.
Elizabeth yelps when Tatiana suddenly appears, making her leap back in surprise. A ridiculous amount of soap bubbles fortunately cover the entire surface of the water, not that either of them are uncomfortable with nudity.
âHave you been here all day?â Tatiana asks after the shock passes.
Elizabeth pops up from the foam like some sort of strange water nymph. âThey have soap, Tanya. Soap. Of course Iâve been here all day,â she retorts.
Tatiana stares at her friend incredulously. âAll day?â
âI grabbed plenty of soap, if you want to use some instead of just hopping in the nearest river.â
Tatiana hesitates a moment longer, then shrugs and jumps into the water with a splash. She surfaces again a second later, bubbles clinging to her hair.
Elizabeth blows some of the suds her way. âBetter than the river?â she asks smugly.
âHmm, maybe,â Tatiana retorts, even as she leans back to enjoy the warm water. âIt is rather fun to hear you grumble.â
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