so I’m having a slight issue that I've never really encountered before and its kind of fucking me up.
a little over a month ago when I was in NYC I matched with an older guy on tinder (we’ll call him Paul). Paul is 50+ years old, which makes him substantially older than all of the other guys I've been involved with (the oldest being 44) BUT he is head over heels obsessed with me and I am all for it. we’ve gone out on numerous dates and get along like a dream, but heres the issue. in the past month I've only kissed him once, besides that one time we have had no other physical interaction (besides a hug at the end of each date).
well, its because this is the first time that I have EVER felt absolutely no physical attraction to a man I'm seeing.
those of you who know me know that I have a middle aged white man kink, its my thing, thats what I'm into. so fucking a 30-40 year old man is like a cake walk to me, plus all of my current and previous man puppets have been reasonably attractive, but for some reason I cannot fathom the idea of Paul touching me ANYWHERE. and whats odd is that he's not even particularly unattractive, he looks younger than he really is and theres really nothing wrong with him
I JUST CANNOT BRING MYSELF TO THINK OF A DAY WHERE WE WOULD PARTAKE IN SEXUAL ACTIVITY!! even thinking about it makes me cringe
I really need to get my shit together soon because after our last date he text me the next morning and brought up my lack of physical interest and I had to play It off like “oh, I didn't really notice, I tend to show my interest in people by connection with them mentally, blah blah blah” knowing damn well I'm a literal sexual deviant
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