Broken Babes

“Buy me a fake ID so I can go to clubs, drink vodka, and take pot.”

[poems-and-word]

“Sometimes you are going to miss a person who was an almost to you. And feel sad because there is no name for that feeling. You just feel it in a way that makes you tired to your very bones.”

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[neckkiss]

Love always hurts.

[bruisednbleeding]

I hate who I’ve become

[ratking713]

so you just self harmed

and you’re probably feeling pretty worthless

like you’ve let everyone down

but you didn’t

and you’re probably wishing you cut deeper

because the pain in your brain

had more to gain on the flesh

so you just self harmed

and you’re probably wanting to go back online

search up triggering posts for you to scroll through

and ask strangers how they do it

because no one loves anything more

than a vicious circle

and you’re fighting with your mind

knowing this is not the time

but all common sense has been left behind

so you just self harmed

and now you’re probably imaging death

romanticizing the images and glossing over details

while drowning you are at peace

not war

while cutting, you are calm

not crying

when you’re mother finds you, she is quiet

not screaming.

[ishedysfucktional]

I'm just childishly in love.

Hopelessly and haphazardly left craving you.

Like a drug I tasted for the first time that couldn't quit.

You stick with me forever through thick and thin.

The pleasures you give to me are abundant and inescapable.

I want to write you the world.

But I fear all the love in it couldn't care for you like I do.

So I sever my soul and send it to you like van Gogh.

I share this romanticism and pain with him.

So in my admiration of you I try to be him.

You are an impossibility.

A goddess hiding in a human dress.

Sharing her unending beauty with me.

I should worship the ground you walk on.

But in your benvolent majesty you instead walk with me.

I'm trapped in your mind.

I can't see my life if it's not intertwined with yours.

I feel like a puppet in your presence.

Every movement or thought of mine lives to serve you.

You are the only reason I could need to live.

I'm tethered to this earth by your unknowing allure.

You push me ever so slightly over the edge.

But even if I end up dead I'm still glad I met you.

Your inhuman grace could never cease.

But it's not your face I adore it's your mind full of the holy and impure.

I've become greedy.

Preying on every perfect thing you make.

It seems all the pleasure in my world comes from your hands.

If not them then it hides behind your sinnister eyes.

I find more than I could ever want in you but some how it's all I need.

How many souls did the devil steal to make yours.

You are more than me or any other human I've ever seen.

You are the perfect dream and it trully scares me that you are real.

I want to serve your will, wether it be right or unjust.

I want to bend the knee and give you every piece of me.

(This poem is called "Everything I need")

[poems-and-word]

[mostdreamiest]

[bruisednbleeding]

Imagine having a girlfriend who loves you

[adrenaline]

girls

[bruisednbleeding]

Damn, I really want a gf right now

[kaasbolletje]

[bruisednbleeding]

I’m too sensitive

[bruisednbleeding]

The first time I’ve ever told anyone this

I’ve thought this moment over for most of my life but I’ve never told another person out of fear for them dismissing it as unimportant.

It was when I was about 6-7, I was at my brothers Boy Scout camping trip but the younger siblings were alowed to come so I was there and this other little girl who was one of the boys younger sister was there (about a year older than me but held back so we were in the same grade and a family friend).

So we played around and she invited me to sleep in her tent for the second night and I obviously said yes because it’s a sleepover. So I went to her tent and we fell asleep after playing for a bit. At some point in the middle of the night we woke up and started playing again.

When we were getting ready to go back to sleep she starting touching me in places that I didn’t like but you can probably assume and telling me that this is what the older kids do and to just do it. I remember asking her to stop multiple times and her calling me names for it which was completely out of character for her. I eventually just went along with it hoping she would stop quicker.

After a little bit she told me to do it to her and I listened because I was scared. After a while we went to sleep and that was it, she never brought it up after that and it left me confused and hurt. I kept thinking about this for the rest of my life just trying to process what happened.

I’m 15 now and I still don’t know what to think of it. It hasn’t turned me away from porn/ masturbation and it hasn’t shut me down sexually but I left me hurt in a weird way. We haven’t seen her or her family in years but it just feels bad and I need to say something. I can’t tell my mom or my friends but I needed to tell someone.

Thank you if you read this whole thing for actually considering my feelings and not dismissing them. Also, sorry if how I did my paragraphs don’t make sense to you. I just did every couple of sentences so it would be easier to read, I didn’t really pay attention to how I did it.

[bruisednbleeding]

Its just so fucking bizarre. I don’t understand how I made it to 2020, I barely survived. I can remember taking a handful of random pills in my middle school bathroom hoping it would end everything but instead nothing happened except I got a little dizzy. I tried to commit suicide multiple times and I would burn my own skin everyday. So much shit happened to me in my life and I survived it all. It’s been a crazy decade but I’m ready to make this next one mine.

[bruisednbleeding]

‪“I have great news,it’s called I’m flirting with a girl and it makes my heart happy. I wanna live in this moment forever”‬

[knowtherealcost]

If you vape, listen to your body. It could be telling you that you’re being exposed to harmful chemicals.

[bruisednbleeding]

Not my theme but I’m losing my mind right now

[rageagainststormy-deactivated20]

these would be so dope if it was makeup and not a filter 🤪

[battybaby666-deactivated2023021]

[sttyks]

[x-my-dark-paradise-x]

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