do my bruises make me beautiful?

alter in a system | personal account | may be used to vent | 21y/o | not the host

[bruises-and-glitter]

Hi!

I'm Emma. I'm part of a system. Our host body is 21 years old. I am also 21 years old. I like to think of my role as that of a knowledge holder. I consider myself in charge of things such as knowing all there is to know about my system, as well as ensuring the body is taken care of.

Separate from this, I enjoy learning about other identities, such as xenogenders and microlabels. This blog is mostly for that!

We as a system are pro-endo. I am not open to syscourse of any form, and any attempt to bring it to me will result in an immediate block.

I would love to meet with other systems, however I will not give out personal contact information. If we become friends, the friendship is tumblr-only.

I may occasionally share information about my system if approved by other headmates, but I will never share another headmate's name or information. Do not ask.

As for basic info about me, my pronouns are she/her. My favorite color is grey. I am still figuring myself out from there!

If you want to chat, let's chat! 🫰

[campbenji]

"um this character isn't canonically aroace" TO YOU. i know them personally

[salute-desire]

@funnier-as-a-system

[landmineblogging]

sometimes dissociation is like "i don't trust myself on this level, i'm out of lives and didn't save state so my best bet is handing the controls over to a better player" but then the other player also doesn't know what the shit they're doing

[landmineblogging]

OFFERING REDUCED MUSIC COMMISSIONS!!

$30 for a 0-2 minute song!

$60 for 2-3!

$90 for 3+ minutes!

Hello, I'm Joan! I am a musician with both self training and classical training influences and just about two decades under my belt.

I got my start playing live instruments, many of which I consider myself excellent at now, and made the transition into digital music production about 9 years ago! I still live record as well.

MUSIC I CAN MAKE FOR YOU:

Theme songs for OCs!

Theme songs for DND sessions!

Theme songs for just about any story or idea you have!

Background/AFK/Intro & Outro music for streamers and youtubers!8-16 bit retro sounds for game projects!

Battle songs! Calm lofi! From breakcore and triphop to even classical!

And everything in-between!

Here is my KOFI for any support.

You can message me for any questions!

Anything helps! I am struggling to afford bills and food.

Visit Original Link

[kaijuno]

[keeplivingsystems]

If you’re struggling to stay alive, please don’t feel pressured to keep up with the news or current events.

You’re allowed to prioritize your own health and safety. You’re allowed to step back from social media or news sources in order to keep yourself from spiraling. You’re allowed to avoid certain topics which may trigger you or make you feel worse.

You’re not wrong or bad for doing this. You’re a person, and you’re allowed to do whatever it takes to keep yourself safe. Please don’t let others judge you for your decision to look after your own mental health. We promise, you’re doing nothing wrong by avoiding the news while you’re suffering.

[drill-teeth-art]

I Like Sharing Hands With You

Actually, we did want to make a little something appreciative of our plural identity for disability pride month.

[dykevotions]

shirt idea who would buy

[trupowieszcz-moved-deactivated2]

does anyone know if i can like block sites from appearing in my google images searches??? i keep getting those awful ai generated things with a hand coming out of a man's neck and just straight up not what i was looking for, because this was in a search for "curly hair in medieval paintings". it happens every time i search for anything vaguely art-reference-like and it's so fucking annoying and it clutters my search results so much. i don't wanna add specific commands to the query every time too, what i need is like a browser extension or something

[trupowieszcz-moved-deactivated2]

uBlacklist – Get this Extension for 🦊 Firefox (en-US)

Download uBlacklist for Firefox. Blocks sites you specify from appearing in Google search results

okay i found one! it works! everyone come get your blacklist 👍👍👍

[cutabello]

I made a list of as many ai sites i could find to block with ublacklist, just copy and paste them in ublacklist's options menu

[the-chaotic-crossover]

[ilovegayvampires-og]

Collection of images and memes for anyone who doesn’t know what to draw

[ilovegayvampires-og]

[melonfurblet]

My second long furby, her name is red velvet! She's a faeby!

[xrollthedicex]

oo i’ve never seen a long furby with the newer models!

[bruises-and-glitter]

happy late one years birthday to our system tumblr blog - turned Emma's personal blog lol

[suzuki-left-hand-method-deactiv]

hey there LGBTQ kids who are also Christian/Jewish! If you feel like you’re disobeying God, questioning your faith, or feel wrong and dirty for loving who you love, there’s this fantastic site I found today called hoperemains that accurately and thoroughly combs through scripture and its (many) mistranslations, validates your orientation, and basically let’s you know that you’re not pissing off God. It’s insanely thorough and after reading through every page on the entire site it’s super helpful. Go check it out!

[wearyewe]

No no no! Jewish LGBTQ kinderlach! Go to Keshet! 

hoperemains is completely from a Christian perspective, and not pluralistic or interfaith at all.

[metallikato]

If you reblogged the first post from me please reblog this amendment so the Jewish peeps can access this resource too! 

[peppermintfeminist]

Trans Jewish kids, you can go to TransTorah as well!

[fuckyeahsexpositivity]

Muslim LGBTQ kids, you can go to iamnotharaam! It’s run by a mod squad of different genders and orientations, and they take submissions from everybody!

–BB

[sacred-portal]

[shadespheresystem]

….@funnier-as-a-system

[funnier-as-a-system]

[ID: black text on a hot pink background that reads: when u realize that what happened to u wasn't just a silly little thing & it actually altered your personality forever. / end ID]

[collectivewarmth]

one of the most important things about dissociative identity disorder and generally being a system that i wish people would understand is that it truly isn’t as cut and dry as it may seem for member count.

you’ll see people who say they have “six alters” and then immediately assume it’s six fully fleshed out equal individuals with no confusion or fuzziness regarding identity. that’s simply not true in a majority of cases, as i have seen.

most systems still VERY much deal with confusion regarding potential splits, go through dissociative episodes where they’re unsure of who they are, sometimes feel no attachment towards any identities, feel like they might have split and then suddenly that person is gone, unsure if alters they haven’t heard from often have gone dormant, not sure how to react when alters do come out of dormancy, etc.

it’s not a fun feeling and it’s genuinely unfair in certain situations to force systems to list every single alter to you with full certainty, as if it will never change. because it will. for so many different reasons, systems will grow, they will shrink, they will fuse, they will develop. you can’t expect the person with the dissociative disorder and lack of core identity to be able to keep up a perfected list of forever, it’s simply impossible. you may have alters who stick with you, but that doesn’t mean changes won’t happen.

and systems who may be reading this — please don’t feel bad. you are not a hassle, you are not a headache, and you are not an inconvenience for simply coping with something like this. it’s out of your control and the only thing you can do is continue to cope to find ways to help yourself retrain from these reactions. please don’t allow yourself to be harmed by others who don’t understand what you are going through. there are people who will accept and love you for who you are, all of you.

past, present, and future.

[bruises-and-glitter]

If you've ever spoken to me, this is who you're talking to, by the way

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