Surprise Iâm alive!! I feel like Iâve started too many of my posts with this comment recently-- please forgive me. The architecture course is... extremely time-consuming and stressful. Iâm having a really hard time finding the time to write :( but on that note! holidays (kind of, I still have an exam) are coming up! Iâll finally have the time to write again! Hopefully, I still have people who know I exist LOLÂ
Also! Iâm thinking of changing my url :) I havenât decided exactly to what but Iâve been wanting to change it for the longest time.Â
Thank you for all the love despite my terrible inconsistent updates đ
hi Iâm just here to let you know I am alive (maybe not entirely rn bc Iâm drowning with uni things) but physically, I still exist lmaooo :â)) Iâm so sorry for not posting guys. I really hope things clear up so I can start writing again D: for now please đ» with me and donât forget about me!Â
I noticed you had talked with an acc called scullyrunch or somethin like that and I visited it and loved Rogue but I have no idea if they are even still active... do you know? (If this isn't weird to ask)
I don't think she's active anymore unfortunately :( she hasn't posted anything since and also hasn't replied to my msg. I love Rogue too!!
LAL pt. 6~ idk what to say except that I really really feel bad for Tae... He's given the chance to confess and whether or not Y/N accepts it he should accept it and move on... But easier said than done really so i do understand him... Ahhh.... I'm glad that JK fessed up and not twisted the story to get Y/N back.. he's very honest and maybe he might just Y/N back who knows but thank you for the update~ đđđ
thanks for leaving me an ask! <3 and thank you for always supporting me :â)) yes i love both my cinnamon rolls but unfortunately only one will win y/nâs heart :(Â
oHHH MY GOSHHHH HOW DID I FORGET ABOUT LUST AND LIMERENCE AHHHH??? (it always seems like I lose your blog somehow but then remember it and come back bc all of your work is honestly so great and I love it all ajdjsj) IM GONNA CATCH UP RN!đđ
my blog is probs missing because of my lack of updates hehe :P thank you for coming back and reading it!! <3 I hope you like the series heheÂ
Ah wow glad that things are clearing up! I do feel bad for tae but at the same time, not much more? It's sad, but not tragic. He had so many years to act on his feelings and take agency for himself and never did, so that's on him. Now it's biting him in the ass which is sad, although y/n never noticing is also sad too. I wonder Jungkook and y/n will be resolved? Returning memories (but at what price) or turning over a new leaf? Can't wait!
I wonder what will happen hehe :â)) let me be honest with you and tell you straight up that I honestly havenât decided on anything yet LOL but i hope youâll be sticking around to find out, love!
Itâs probs unlikely but it lowkey sounds like tae contacted the girl in ilvermorny to like get in touch with jk about the potion thing and told her how to get him to like âcheatâ etc bc he wanted y/n to find out and break up with Jungkook bc tae liked her? Does that make sense? Probs not. And itâs probs not even true lol but it sounded like a possibility. Anyway itâs a great story I loved part 6 canât wait for part 7 đ
heheh i love reading my lovely readerâs conspiracies :))) I know exactly what you mean but our cute Gryffindor isnât that evil. Thank you so much for reading! <3 thanks for also sending me this ask! <3Â
thank god you feel bad for him!! ahh i was so worried ppl would hate him :â))) <3 thanks for always being so sweet and sending me such lovely messages my lovely ;) ofc i know who you are <3 <3 <3Â
Genre: more angst and explanations this chapter! // Harry Potter AU! Â
A/N: I had to change some of the dates in order for the story to make sense! Part 6 starts as a continuation from part 3.  (The umbrella and porch scene). Iâm sorry I took so long to update! As always, Iâm looking forward to your reactions :)
âIâm sorry Jungkook, I honestly donât know who you are.âÂ
It appeared as though he flinched from your words; his tight grip on the umbrella handle loosening. Jungkook looked so vulnerable in front of you. His hair was now damp from the snowflakes that melted into the noir strands of his head. You watched him chew on his bottom lip before he attempted to compose himself.Â
âOkay,â he whispered simply. You couldnât tell if heâd given up on what he had originally planned because he looked so defeated, unable to spare you another glance the entire walk home.Â
 The walk home was silent, and it wasnât the good kind. It was the suffocating and intense kind of silence that made you want to run away. By the time you reached the door, Jungkookâs left shoulder was wet from the melted snow as heâd tipped the umbrella to your side the entire time.Â
The realisation painted a thin line across your lips at his kindness, unsure of what to think since... he was someone you were supposedly unfamiliar with. Jungkook stood there with a forced smile, a small dimple appearing on his left cheek as he waited for you to go inside.Â
You turned the doorknob to enter but you felt like you had to say something-- do something. Somehow, something inside you was stopping you from leaving him like that, in that state, to walk back alone in the freezing cold. He caught your footsteps falter and watched as you hesitantly turned back to him.Â
âThanks for walking me home,â you said and he could barely make sense of the shy mumble. âAnd Iâm sorry that... I donât...â
âItâs fine,â he intercepted, a shy yet pained smile on his pink lips. âI promise Iâm not just a random guy insisting that I know you without reason. You should ask Taehyung if youâre curious about...â His gaze drifted elsewhere before landing on his own shoes.Â
âAbout us?â you finished his sentence and saw him nod meekly in the corner of your eye.Â
âI just think itâs strange that heâs transferring here after exams. Thereâs nothing left to do besides... graduate,â the girl whispered to her friend. âDo you think thereâs another reason as to why heâs here again? Not like Iâm complaining though, Iâve missed staring at his face,â she giggled.Â
âMaybe heâs here for someone,â her friend muttered under her breath and you walked faster to keep up with their conversation, maintaining a speedy pace behind the two girls. You kept your gaze low and pretended to look completely occupied by your book.Â
âSurely not,â she scoffed. âDidnât you know they broke up ages ago? Apparently, he dumped (Y/N) and thatâs why sheâs pretending like she doesnât know him or something. Talk about petty am I right?âÂ
And suddenly, your steps felt heavy. You were certain Taehyung was hiding something from you. And it definitely had something to do with Jungkook. Initially, you thought he was crazy for implying that you and Jungkook had history when youâd never met him before. But now, you were going crazy from becoming finally convinced that perhaps, he had something to do with you in the past.Â
But how can that be? Iâd never met him before until that day he showed up randomly and titled himself as my boyfriend.
âOh my god!â the girls in front of you squealed, causing you to whip your head in the same general direction as them. You spotted a crowd of people, all chatting up this unknown figure in the middle. The girls practically threw themselves at him and you watched his tall figure waver from the tightening circle of girls and guys around him, his noir hair dancing in time with their loud laughter.Â
He turned around and you felt your mouth drop open in pure shock, coincidence, whatever nerve-wrecking emotion you felt. He locked eyes with you for a split second before you threw yourself to hide behind a wall. So he really wasnât joking about coming back to Hogwarts.Â
And for some strange and unexplainable reason, for the next couple of days, you found yourself avoiding him at all cost; taking longer routes to get to class or leaving earlier just in case you ran into him. It wasnât like the professors cared anyways, everyone was just waiting to graduate.Â
Taehyung, strangely enough, wasnât a fan of you avoiding Jungkook despite not talking to you about him at all. But he wasnât encouraging you to confront him either. He just seemed to ignore Jungkook as a whole. You couldnât figure out why you were being the way you were. Perhaps it was the rumors of the two of you together previously that finally got to you.Â
But it wasnât exactly the easiest of tasks to ignore someone as persistent or dare to say, good-looking as Jeon Jungkook. You didnât blame the girls at all for their attempts at getting to know him better.Â
The weekend was truly the best because firstly, you could sleep in till the sun was high in the sky and secondly, there was no school -- meaning that your heart wouldnât pound so hard from the thought of having to interact with Jungkook. You hadnât noticed how deep in thought you were until you found the corner of your book creased from the way your fingers played with the pages.Â
He wasnât even that bad. In fact, he wasnât bad at all. Well, besides from the first time when he punched Tae and claimed to be your boyfriend despite having never met him before. You couldnât pinpoint an impression of him no matter how hard you tried.
You wanted to disregard him entirely; ignore his whole presence but even though you were completely and peacefully alone, trapped in your thoughts, he would be circulating in the confining space of your mind. You wanted to think that he was just a random and overly-confident asshole but that day in the snow, how charmingly kind he was, how disappointed he looked when you told him you didnât know him -- you couldnât just ignore all of it.
There was no point in reading if the sentences werenât being painted correctly inside your head. With a heavy exhale, you lift yourself up from your bed, deciding to clean out your drawers.
You knew that cleaning out your drawers didnât equate to cleansing your mind, but it certainly seemed to have the effect. You shifted through the different textures of fabric, mindlessly folding when you heard your door creak open, followed by a gentle shuffle of feet.
âDid you bring the drugs?â you said, monotone. There was silence and you quickly turned around to analyse Taehyungâs shocked expression - jaw dropped and eyebrows furrowed at your bewildering question.
You laughed uncontrollably at his expression. It truly was priceless; definitely worth taking the picture to later print out and laugh at. Taehyung shook his head in disapproval, tsking as he sat down close to you on the floor, placing the warm food on your lap.
You mumbled a small thanks and relocated the meal onto your desk side, continuing to fold clothes whilst Tae watched you closely.
The awkward silence proved that he definitely had something to say. âSo?â you provoked. âWhat is it that you want to tell me?â
Taehyung wasnât surprised at your ability to read him; the two of you did grow up together. He normally never hid anything from you... this was the first time that heâd look like he was holding something back.
The 3 words he had in his mind was so blatant, so simple, so important and yet, it was just so difficult to articulate; his mouth wide open as the words were stuck in the dark depth of his throat.Â
âAre you going to finish that?â he pointed at the takeout on the desk, eyes averted to concentrate on the plastic bag that fogged from the steam of the warm food.Â
You let out a light chuckle, a little relieved at his question. You werenât sure what he was thinking of with such a serious expression on his face; it was unusual for you to not know what he was thinking so it was, undoubtedly, intimidating. âTae, youâre free to have some.âÂ
Time always felt quicker having Taehyung around. His presence alone was enough to make you giddy and just happy overall. You seemed to have the same effect on him, too, the two of you sharing the brightest of smiles as he listed you everything wrong with artificial grass.Â
âNo, but seriously, who would want to vacuum their lawn? Iâd rather mow it, you know? Surely you agree with me, (Y/N).âÂ
You froze in place, not at his question, but at something so obscure you found in the corner of your bottom clothes drawer.Â
âYou canât be serious! Is my best friend even my best friend if she prefers fake grass over normal grass?âÂ
You slowly turned around to greet him with a perplexed expression, the green accented fabric soft on your palms. Taehyung looked at your confused state, his gaze widening slightly at the scarf in your hands.Â
âWhat is this?â you asked, a small shrug of your shoulders.Â
Tae appeared at a loss for words, a white blank washing over his suddenly dazed mind. He licked his lips before muttering under his breath, âWhere did you get that?â
âI donât know,â you answered simply. âIâve never seen this before in my life and... I donât recall having any Slytherin friends,â you mumbled, attempting to piece together the possible scenarios inside your head.Â
âMaybe itâs your roommateâs? Iâm sure she just misplaced it accidentally in your drawers.âÂ
âI donât think so... sheâs not the careless type.â Your eyebrows furrowed from the sudden light that flickered inside your head. âI have a weird feeling that this belongs to someone you know, Tae.âÂ
âWhat do you mean?â Taehyung narrowed his gaze, a frown-like expression appearing on his face.Â
âI know youâre hiding something from me,â you said in a monotone voice. âIâve been brushing it off because every time I try and mention it, you get really defensive. But I canât ignore it forever. Plus, Iâm genuinely curious about what happened between you and him.âÂ
âWho exactly are you referring to?â Taehyung gulped and you rolled your eyes at him, your arms folding themselves over your chest in annoyance.Â
âDonât act like you donât know,â you scoffed, âbecause if you play dumb, itâs just going to piss me off and you know it.âÂ
Taehyung didnât have anything witty to say back to that-- in fact, he didnât have anything to say back so he simply exhaled, a long and stress-filled sigh. You waited for him to continue, a single eyebrow raised at his lack of articulation. âWho really is Jeon Jungkook and what is your relationship with him? Heck, whatâs my relationship with him?â
Taehyung straightened his back, running his long fingers through his hair before sighing again. You were surprised at his sudden change in demeanor. He seemed to perfectly happy before the mention of Jeon Jungkook-- which lead you to think: why does he hate him so much? What couldâve possibly happened between them to make Tae despise him so much? And how in the world were you not informed of Jungkook? Taehyung was your best friend. He told you everything!Â
âI can only say so much,â Taehyung exhaled. âI canât tell you the whole story because thatâd be unfair. If youâre still curious after everything Iâm about to tell you, you can go confront him personally about it.âÂ
âFinally,â you sighed with relief. You were finally going to put an end to your countless nights of thinking. At first, you thought you were going crazy. But after piecing together some of the things youâd been hearing around Hogwarts, you were starting to think that youâd met him somewhere previously-- you just didnât remember when-- or anything to do with him. Â
âJungkook and I used to be friends,â Taehyung started. âWe met early on at the beginning of Hogwarts. I didnât tell you about him because you werenât interested in mingling with his type of people.âÂ
âI figured that he used to attend Hogwarts but I donât understand how Iâve never seen him around. From the looks of it, heâs pretty popular too, so heâs definitely been here for some time. I just donât get how I canât recall hearing anything about him or seeing him around at all,â you explained, the frown on your face disappearing as you explained these thoughts to Taehyung. âHave I been living under a rock this whole time or am I just going crazy?âÂ
âYou and Jungkook used to date,â Taehyung said, emotionless.Â
You squinted your eyes at his statement. You didnât believe it when you heard it from the other girls but since it was coming out of Taeâs mouth, it was hard to not digest. âI swear to God if this is some kind of sick joke,â you shook your head, the half of your cheek pulled into a dissatisfied smirk.Â
âItâs not a joke. The two of you used to date but then he messed up so you broke up with himâ Taehyung explained so casually without proper reasoning that it was a little annoying to listen to. How could he be so calm in this situation? Was he listening to the things he was saying to you? Was he even sane?Â
âOkay, what the actual fuck,â you waved your hands out in front of you, eyes wide at the bombardment of the truth youâd been waiting for. âYou canât be serious, Taehyung,â you chuckled in disbelief. âIf I dated him, Iâd definitely know who he is. I swear Iâd never met him before until that day you got punched.âÂ
âThe reason why you canât recall who Jungkook is, is because he fucked up majorly when the two of you were dating so you voluntarily erased him from your memory.â
âWoah woah woah!â you exclaimed. âTae you need to slow down. Are you even listening to what youâre saying?âÂ
âI know it sounds crazy and you probably think that Iâm crazy but... you are holding physical evidence of your past with him,â Taehyung eyed the scarf in your palms that were suddenly sweaty from the overload of unbelievable information.Â
âIf, by any wild chance that what youâre saying to me is true, what exactly did he do for me to hate him so much to a point I erased him from my own memory?âÂ
âThatâs the part Iâm unwilling to answer. I donât think I should say anything because--â Taehyung chewed on his bottom lip, an uneasy expression on his face.Â
âBecause?â you continued, both eyebrows raised, urging him to go on.
âI donât know what else might slip out of my mouth,â Taehyung said with a sigh, his head dropping past his shoulders in defeat. He was scared of this topic. Heâd been avoiding it for so long now, each night praying to the high heavens that perhaps youâd just let it slip-- perhaps Jungkook wouldnât come back for you but, he really was as persistent as he remembered.Â
âWhat else is there, Tae? Why have you been hiding this from me this whole time? I thought you were my best friend. I never keep anything from you and-- I... I thought you felt the same way about me.â
âI do!â Taehyung exclaimed loudly, his upper body jolting from the loud exclamation. âI really do... itâs just... I donât want to risk anything. Iâm sorry that I canât give you the answers that youâre looking for but I want you to know that... I do trust you.â
âHow can you expect me to believe you if I know thereâs more to this? And I have a feeling itâs not just about Jungkook. What else are you hiding from me, Taehyung?â
Trying to keep quiet about his feelings had always been a tough game to play, not to mention the high-tier risk he was taking. He was constantly on edge, forced to peel his habit of overanalysing away from any signals that he deemed romantic from you because although he knew that you loved him, what he felt for you was beyond that. It was becoming harder to conceal that fact and you seemed to pick up on it rather easily.Â
You couldnât help but sound annoyed, even though you knew that none of this was his fault. It was the built-up stress that was finally steaming off your skin and unluckily, but not surprisingly, Tae just happened to be the person to deal with it.Â
â(Y/N), some things that are just better off left unknown. I havenât told you anything because I donât want you to get hurt,â Taehyung explained weakly, the tone of his voice softer than before.Â
âI deserve to know. You know that Iâm stubborn. I donât back down easily so you might as well give up and tell me everything there is. Even if it hurts me -- I need to know what happened. Please just tell me,â you begged, unconsciously fiddling with the scarf on your lap.Â
You learned the hard way that your stubbornness was no match for the hard-headed Kim Taehyung. When he said that he was unwilling to answer, he meant every part of it. No matter how long you tried to get him to spill, he simply had no intention of doing so.
This lead you to finally approach the person youâd been dreading to interact with. You still couldnât figure out why you were so nervous at the thought of having to talk to him, he really wasnât even that bad. In fact, he was terribly sweet to you last time but then why were your palms so undeniably clammy?Â
It wasnât hard to get his attention-- mainly because Jungkook was always on the look-out for you, despite you ignoring him like crazy. So when you asked to talk to him privately, you noticed the clear juxtaposition of the facial expressions of the girls that surrounded him and your so-called âboyfriendâ Jungkook. The girls glared you down with jealous frowns whilst Jungkookâs eyes lit up, the galaxy in his eyes.Â
He had an immediate boyish grin play across his lips, unable to hide his happiness from your request to talk to him. You brought him to a random corner, hidden from the rest of the whispering girls.Â
â(Y/N),â he muttered breathlessly with a twinkle in his eyes that smiled. âHow are you?âÂ
âLetâs skip the small talk, Jeon,â you crossed your arms over your chest defensively. âWhat really happened between you and me?âÂ
The twinkle in his eye faded at the sight of your frown and defensive body language. âI think you should ask Taehyung that. Thereâs no point in me saying anything if youâre unwilling to listen since you think Iâm crazy.âÂ
âI donât think youâre crazy... well, at least not anymore. I heard from Tae that we,â you couldnât help but graze your bottom lip with your teeth, âthat we used to date.âÂ
You expected him to react but he didnât. He remained still, a blank expression as he analysed your facial features with a glint of sadness in his eyes. âI normally wouldnât believe it-- even if it did come from Taehyung, Iâd need some kind of evidence.âÂ
âSo what changed your mind?â
You pulled out the green-accented scarf from your bag, giving it to him so he could examine it. He took it from your palms, slowly. You could feel the hesitation buzz from his honey skin.Â
âItâs yours, isnât it?âÂ
Jungkook merely stared at the fabric in his hands before nodding slowly, confirmation that you definitely had a past with him. âWhy do I have it?â you provoked.
âI asked you to come watch me at Quidditch training that morning,â Jungkookâs smile grew soft from recalling the warm memory. âI was surprised you agreed but to be fair, I did a fair lot of begging.âÂ
You just stared at him with confusion, absolutely no recall of what scenario he was referring to. He seemed to notice this and the smile on his lips faded. âYou donât remember... do you?â You simply shook your head, no.Â
âYou were bundled up in my jacket as well and even still, you said it was too cold so I wrapped this around your neck. It covered most of your face but I knew the kind of smile hidden behind that scarf from the way your eyes crinkled.âÂ
Nothing seemed to want to pass your lips. The silence felt so loud-- as though the lack of sound was as intense as yelling at the top of your lungs. What were you supposed to feel? You couldnât answer that for yourself but, why was there a stinging pain in your chest?Â
âWhat else did you want to ask me?â
âWhat happened between you and Taehyung? Why did you punch him the first day I met you?âÂ
Jungkook hesitated to correct you, frozen in place as he struggled to yell out, âthat wasnât the first day we met! We used to fucking date and I made a mistake and I just want you back but I canât because you donât remember me!â but instead, he inhaled a large breath before replying like he wanted to. âDid Tae tell you that we used to date?â You nodded.Â
âYes, we used to date. In fact, when you âmet me for the first timeâ I thought we were still together because you never broke up with me... thatâs why I was so insistent but I probably just seemed crazy to you.âÂ
âYou did, really,â you admitted. âI was honestly so confused as to why you were titling yourself as my boyfriend.â
âWell, I was really confused about why you were acting like you didnât know me,â Jungkook retorted. âWe used to be really close you know.âÂ
âHow close are we talking?âÂ
âI spent the Christmas holidays with you under one roof, just the two of us.âÂ
âHoly shit, we did that?âÂ
âYeah,â Jungkook chuckled, âit was actually you who invited me to do so. âÂ
âWow, I mustâve been pretty whipped for you.âÂ
âSo was I,â he sounded soft, âand I still am. It just sucks because...â
âI donât remember anything Jungkook, Iâm sorry,â you grew soft with pity at the sight of Jungkookâs weak expression. Â
âDonât be sorry. Remember, you voluntarily chose to forget about me,â he smiled painfully. âThis is also the part that Taehyung comes in.â
âThatâs the part Iâm lost about. What couldâve possibly happened for me to want to forget about you?âÂ
âSince the beginning, Taehyung told me you were âoff-limitsâ. He never really justified why but because we were close, I never questioned him or at least-- I chose to stay quiet even though I knew why he was so protective of you. But basically, he lost a bet one day and hence our first proper interaction.âÂ
âWhy am I considered âoff-limitsâ?â You furrowed your eyebrows. âHe wouldnât possibly--â
âThatâs for Taehyung to answer. But for now, all you need to know is that he was only trying to protect you from someone like me.âÂ
âThereâs no way Taehyung would--â You chuckled to yourself, taken-aback by the foreign concept of Tae having feelings for you.
Jungkook ignored your minor outburst and continued with his wordy explanation. âTaehyung... he wanted you to keep your distance from me because I used to be the prime example of what you would call a fuck-up,â Jungkook chuckled, the cold air freezing the exhale of his breath.
You bit harshly on your bottom lip to prevent yourself from interrupting. âI erased myself from my familyâs memory because I thought it was temporary,â Jungkook mumbled to himself. âBut it wasnât temporary... I didnât know how to reverse the spell so I avoided my problems and distracted myself by drinking and sleeping around. Taehyung obviously didnât want you to associate yourself with me.âÂ
âBut we became close anyways. You found out about my past and instead of being disgusted, you chose to stay by my side,â Jungkookâs gaze turned determined and weirdly enough, you werenât uncomfortable staring back at it. âI... I wasnât used to people sticking around when things got tough so... the fact that you did really meant a lot.âÂ
Jungkook stepped an inch closer, alarming you of just how tall he was in comparison to yourself. âNaturally, I became attached to you. We started going out after the rumours leaked since you were able to accept all of me unlike the majority of Hogwarts. We were dating happily for some time until I had to move to Ilvermorny. We long distanced... but then... out of the blue one day you came to visit me and at the time I...âÂ
âWhat?â you urged him to continue, blinking quickly at him. âWhat happened?âÂ
âI was kissing someone when you walked in to surprise me,â Jungkook muttered, the words causing a small sting in your chest. âIn simple words,â Jungkook inhaled a deep breath, âI cheated on you.âÂ
Your eyes immediately became squinted seconds after processing his statement. âWow,â you scoffed, letting Jungkook drown in the intense silence that followed up. âLook, I might not know anything about you but... I didnât pin you to be that type of guy.â
âIâm not--â Jungkook attempted to interrupt.Â
âYou cheated on me? After I stayed by your side when no one did?â you shook your head in distrust.Â
âI had a reason, I swear,â Jungkook pleaded, inching closer as you subconsciously stepped back. âI know it definitely wasnât the smartest choice but-- the girl said sheâd brew me something that could get my parentâs memories back and I was desperate.âÂ
âYeah,â you scoffed, âdesperate enough to cheat on your girlfriend.âÂ
â(Y/N) you wouldâve understood if you were notified of the reasoning behind it,â Jungkook spoke quicker than usual. âYou misunderstood and thought that I was blatantly cheating on you without a reason. I wrote you so many letters after that but Taehyung hid them from you, saying that he had enough of me destroying your life.âÂ
âTaehyung came to see me after you caught me with that girl. He offered me something that seemed too good to be true. He said that if I promised to stay away from you until the final exams were over, heâd brew me a similar potion. At the time, I thought it made sense because not only would I be getting my familyâs memories back, itâd give you time to cool off. So I accepted his proposal, unaware of the catch since he never mentioned one.âÂ
âWhat was the catch?â you muttered.Â
âYou,â Jungkook said. âIn order for Taeâs potion to work, there had to be a sacrifice of equal value. You voluntarily gave up your memories of me so that I could get my familyâs. Even though you caught me cheating, you were kind enough to help me. But it meant that I lost you.âÂ
Jungkook stared at his shoes as the two of you remained completely silent. âIf I could go back in time, I wouldnât take the deal Taehyung proposed. You were the one thing that I wasnât willing to let go to get my familyâs memories back and thatâs why I punched him-- be it out of anger or frustration, involving you was a dog move.â
âI guess past me wanted you to let go,â you spoke, voice and hands shaky. âI wouldnât blame her, Jungkook. What you did was cruel. I obviously loved you enough to stay with you despite everything that happened and you cheated on me. I think even past me, who loved you dearly, would have a hard time forgiving you even if she knew the reason behind why you did it.â
âIâm sorry,â Jungkook whispered.
âYour apology wonât fix anything,â you muttered under your breath, the heat of your cheeks caused you to clench your fists tightly. âNo wonder I wanted to forget about you. You hurt me, Jungkook.âÂ
The disappointment on your face seemed to paint a painful expression on his, his eyes drooping down to your shoes once again before he slowly met your gaze with a weak nod, muttering out another one of his breathy apologies. âI had no intention of hurting you, (Y/N). I really am... sorry,â he explained in a soft voice, regret interlaced through every letter.Â
You let out a sigh and Jungkook watched the icy air freeze the exhale of your warm breath, tempted to wrap the scarf around your neck like he did before -- before when things were perfect; the halcyon days when feelings were mutual and he could show his love for you. There was nothing he wanted more than to hold you in his arms again, as cheesy as that sounded to him, he wanted to relive the past.Â
Taehyung looked like he saw a ghost from the sight of you in his room, stomach flat on his bed with a book in your grasp. He wasnât expecting to see you so soon, let alone, so comfortable. Werenât you supposed to be panicking over the stuff Jungkook had just told you?Â
âWelcome back,â you said. Tae laid down next to you, his back greeting the warmth of his blankets. âWhat are you doing here?â Taehyung chuckled.
âI got tired of thinking in my room,â you explained, resting your chin on your palm whilst scanning the words, âso instead Iâm here, distracting myself.âÂ
âDid you find out about what happened?âÂ
There was a heavy silence that swept across the room until you closed your book loudly, startling the chocolate haired boy. âWhy did you hide his letters from me?â you asked boldly, mentally taking note of the way his eyes widened at your question.Â
âAre you mad?â Taehyung slowly sat up, looking over his shoulder to stare into your hard-to-read gaze. You shook your head, no. âIâm not. I just want to know why you did it.âÂ
âI did it to protect you,â Taehyung said simply. âIf you read those letters, I knew you wouldâve forgiven him. You were far too attached to someone who didnât deserve you.â
âSo essentially,â you sat up on the bed, comfortably crossing your legs, âyou wanted to break us up.âÂ
Taehyung thought for some time before nodding his head, the dim lighting reflecting off his shiny hair. âAs I said, Jungkook didnât deserve you. You were really unwilling to let go of him despite the damage he dealt so I thought-- you know what, fuck it. If I had to play the bad guy in order for you to move on, I was willing to do it. And so I did,â Taehyungâs dark hazel eyes stared into yours.Â
âWas there any other reason behind it?âÂ
You noticed him take a gulp before averting his gaze to anywhere that wasnât your piercingly sweet gaze. He turned around so that youâd have nothing to stare at besides the back of his head. âI only wanted to protect you,â Taehyung lied.
âNot to make things weird, Tae,â you coughed, âBut Iâve noticed that youâre really protective of me.âÂ
He began to get more nervous from your small insinuations. âThatâs because I care about you, (Y/N),â he let out a dry sound that hinted at the knot of nerves in the pit of his stomach. âIâve always been like a big brother to you since we were children.âÂ
The way he was acting formed a weird lump in your throat. Maybe what Jungkook was implying had some truth behind it. âTaehyung,â you shuffled off the bed and stood in front of him so you could stare directly into his eyes. âIs there something else youâre not telling me? Perhaps something thatâs related to... your feelings about...âÂ
He licked his lips and took a sharp breath of air, only to reply with the same 3 words stuck in his throat. You waited patiently for him to continue, even though inside you felt extremely overwhelmed. You could only hear the drumming and unforgiving pace of your heart as you waited for any word to escape his lips. Â
Over the years of sharing everything with you, he wanted to share one more thing, that thing being the feelings heâd hidden since the start of time. He felt selfish for having those feelings... why though? Taehyung always thought that if he ever did confess, heâd feel relieved after it. Even if you didnât feel the same way, he thought that heâd feel the weight on his shoulders magically lift.Â
âNo.âÂ
It was a whisper and it was barely audible. The words came out and he wanted to reverse time the very second it left his lips but instead, he kept going. âThereâs nothing else I need to tell you.â
Taehyung absolutely hated the bitter taste on his tongue. It was the taste of surrender. He couldnât bring himself to say it because he lost to the undying guilt thatâd consumed him. He felt truly weak.Â
when are you updating part 6 for LAL? is there a teaser?? you tended to do that in the sp days
hola! surprise surprise Iâm actually alive lol :â))) and I promise part 6 is coming soon (cannot nail an exact date but perhaps 3-4 days from now?) and omg thank you for sticking around since the olâ sp days huh? đ
regarding a teaser: hereâs a possible quote from part 6!Â
âLetâs skip the small talk, Jeon,â you crossed your arms over your chest defensively. âWhat really happened between you and me?âÂ
To jungkook: you are an asshole, you know that? no wonder taehyung didn't approve you being in relationship with y/n
I had no intention of hurting her. I know it was selfish of me and I shouldâve found another alternative. Regarding Taehyung, he doesnât believe that my feelings for her are real. Iâm not playing like he thinks I am.Â
my lovely boo, iâm back again with these messages. hehe. i love you so so much, and i would like you to know (even though i constantly tell you eheh) that please never stress over us, whenever you get the time (aND HAVE ALREADY RESTED), then you can start worrying about us. we love you so much, (i keep saying so fjsjdjd ily im annoying.) bUt FiGHTING MY LOVELY. my lex is the most precious and always comes first. i would like to send you a virtual hug nowđđđ eheh (sorry for the cheese) ily ily
eme :â((((( you are a true angel, the loveliest cinnamon roll, and a godsend! thank you so much for always being so considerate and taking time out of your day to send me these (much loved) messages <3 i love you so so much too and iâm so grateful that you exist and that weâre closeÂ