Crooked Smiles and Unfortunate Souls

A small window into the mind of an overly emotional man, with horrible luck.

[bubbajames93]

The Unfortunate Beauty

So about this girl that I attatched myself to on deployment. She is something. You see I'm pretty good at reading people, this girl though closed fucking book. She's really positive and doesn't seem to have any deep dark scars. She has this amazing posotivity that seems to off set my negativity. I know the moments of happiness with her are only temporary but, they are only worth it. She is intelligent and she is always striving to learn new things. She is passionate about everything I've seen her do. Her passion drives me. It makes me happy. I miss her now. She seems to have distanced herself. I think it's what she needs so I will accept it and make it easier on her.

[bubbajames93]

The Unfortunate Deployment

Sorry it's been awhile. Been deployed and haven't had a lot of time for this sort of thing. I managed to connect myself to this amazing girl. It went well at first. As you would come to expevt from me, it fell apart fast enough. Not that it was a surprise or anything. It was over before it started. She is in a relationship. She was when this started. I let it go to far anyway. You see I tend to get overwhelmed anytime someone shows me the slightest bit of affection. I should really learn my lesson.

[bubbajames93]

The Unfortunate Destruction

The wolrd is pretty destructive, but mostly I just destroy myself.

[bubbajames93]

The Unfortunate Place

I'm in Iraq now. It's lonely here. I keep having these nightmares. It's not exactly the kind of place you need to be when you have the sorta instability I do. I need that girl around. She isn't here and she helps me breathe. She keeps my head straight. I miss her. I keep getting thise dark thoughts again. Today was hard.

[bubbajames93]

The Unfortunate Wound

Sorry I've been away for so long. First I was in a dark place where suicide seemed a logical option. A good friend brought me out of all that. About a month ago that very friend was shot in the heart and murdered in cold blood at a house party. It's been dark but, the girl from the last post keeps me sane. I need her, I need her gorgeous words to keep my head on straight. She's my world. I think I love her more than anything. Best of all she loves me too.

[bubbajames93]

The Unfortunate Connection

I have a beautiful friend. She's everything in this world a person could want. She's empathetic and not in a way where she wants to fix everything. She just listens. She fully comprehends my every thought. It's unreal to me that anyone could understand my mind in such a way. I can't even begin to describe to you the love I posses for this woman. Now for the unfortunate part haha.... one day she tells me she loves me. Not right out. She says it in a different way. She tells me she wishes she was straight so we could be together because we would be so happy. We are both completely alone in this world and if not for some genetic make up we could be together.

[bubbajames93]

The Unfortunate Black

It's dark today. It's so dark. It's really unbearably dark. I can't breath, I can't sleep. This darkness has seeped so deeply into my soul. It's on the inside and somehow on the outside at the same time. It sits on my chest and heavily on my heart and mind. I just want it to go away.

[bubbajames93]

The Unfortunate Absence

I live with my bestfriend and her wife. Recently mu best friend moved out to do some thing in her career. This is of course very upsetting but, not the most upsetting thing about it. I find the more time I spend with just her wife, the more I realize I have feelings about her wife just as strong as the ones I have for her. My two best friends, the only family I’ve ever had are a happy little lesbian couple, and unfortunately I am wildly in love with both of them. I swear a life with either one would make me complete. I will elaborate on a bit more misfortune this causes soon.

[bubbajames93]

The Unfortunate Thought

Well I haven't been active in awhile. Unfortunately the thought of suicide had crept it's darkness into my mind. I was all I could see. Idk if I would have done it but, I do know that a friend just came out and asked me about it. She just straight up said it "Are you gonna kill yourself?" It was pretty sobering. So I decided to go get some help. I will be attending some therapy sessions.

[petr1kov]

keeping up with the american elections while not being american like

[xizark]

keeping up with the american elections while being american like

[bubbajames93]

Hahaha

[bubbajames93]

The Unfortunate Development

I've started to numb. The things I've always found beautiful are begining to mean nothing. I can feel my depthful emotions giving way to just anger and sorrow. I feel as if the world is disgusted with me, and I don't care because I'm disgusted with it.

[kamui0]

[hawketrash]

when the game was right

[bubbajames93]

Ficking love it.

[bubbajames93]

Here is basically a summary of my everyday life lol.

[bubbajames93]

The Unfortunate Need

I wanna hear just a part of a song. Skipping through the rest of the song feels stupid though and it doesn't build right.

[thebestoftumbling]

[thebestoftumbling]

[bubbajames93]

This is probably my favorite romantic act of all time.

[gerrymanderer]

[ethiopienne]

the dialogue in this movie was instrumental in shaping my sense of humor as a child, i swear.

[talesofthestarshipregeneration]

One of the best movie scripts ever

[bubbajames93]

This is literally my exact form of sarcasm.