Plague System

System Blog. Mainly run by @Xx-animalihavebecome-xX and @Unholysavior.

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Click here to support Preparing for Potential Homelessness organized by Luca Whateley

A lot of things have lead to where I am and for brevity's sake I won't list everything, but I will explain the most recent events leading to where I am now. In March, I moved in with a friend to get out of a living situation that was rapidly worsening my mental health. I have a myriad of mental...

If you’ve known me for a while, you would know that the last year has been full of struggle. It hasn’t ended for me just yet. I need to move out by August or September at the latest, and I am disabled without employment or savings.

I need to save up as much money as I can, whether it be to pay for a deposit and rent in an apartment or to buy supplies for in the event that I will be homeless (such as a tent, pepper spray for self defense, etc)

Please, PLEASE signal boost this even if you can’t help out. A single reblog could save my ass.

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I talked to my case worker, and she has told me there’s basically nothing she can do. I’m on every waiting list for affordable housing in the area, and she can’t move me up on any of them. I still don’t have any income, but I’m hopefully going to be on Welfare soon. Even so, I won’t be able to afford an apartment with that alone.

I don’t know what I’m going to do. I seriously need help, guys. Even a dollar would help. I’m fucking scared. The way things are going right now, I have no options, I’m going to be homeless.

[xx-animalihavebecome-xx]

Phi said it’s my turn on the art program. Anyways I did some art of one of my headspace forms. Ok 2 rb.

Please no kin/id tags, I’m an alter in a system and did art of myself.

[trauma-genic]

reblog if ur a did/osdd system

we are a system that just found out that we’re a system and we want to make friends!! we are lucky enough to actually know some system friends irl but you can never have enough friends!! so reblog or like if ur a did/osdd system!!

[xx-animalihavebecome-xx]

Hi im Xerxes and the host of the system forced me to make a blog can I get a promo? I have no links

[gianu-system]

[theproxysystem]

You mean like the time Ignis set my hair on fire for a few seconds because his lighter was “broken” and he wanted to check if he could hear the gas…. Oy. ~ Areic

[thewasteland]

I will see that story and raise you the time Ashley drank way too much vodka and permanently melted a plastic bag to the kitchen floor with a lighter

[bubonicplaguefactkin]

Alas, I raise you this: that time Phoenix, our host, snorted cayenne pepper because their friend’s alter called them a pussy as a joke -Xerxes

[thewasteland]

Alright, alright. I’ll see that. And I’ll raise you the time Payne drove up a fucking mountain with 0.2 gallons of gas in the car and panic at the disco playing at full volume, went sixty on a dirt road and almost flipped and I had to take over mid car accident 🙄🙄🙄🙄to keep us from rolling into the ravine

[bubonicplaguefactkin]

Holy shit. -Xerxes

[gianu-system]

[theproxysystem]

You mean like the time Ignis set my hair on fire for a few seconds because his lighter was “broken” and he wanted to check if he could hear the gas…. Oy. ~ Areic

[thewasteland]

I will see that story and raise you the time Ashley drank way too much vodka and permanently melted a plastic bag to the kitchen floor with a lighter

[bubonicplaguefactkin]

Alas, I raise you this: that time Phoenix, our host, snorted cayenne pepper because their friend's alter called them a pussy as a joke -Xerxes

[spookymulde-r]

I don’t know how many tumblr witches know, this could be old news, but I found that this is the best place to get jars/bottles to feed my obsession! They have a bunch of different colors, but most of them are clear. They have different shapes and such, and they’re very very cheap, even the jugs !! In their FAQ they said it’s fine to even order just 1 bottle at a time, even though most people order a bunch at once. It’s honestly the best deal on high quality bottles and jars that I’ve found so far! I would honestly skip Amazon and go straight here. 10/10!

https://www.specialtybottle.com

[bubonicplaguefactkin]

Hey @ pagan/witch systems/collectives, how do yall balance each others practices? And would sharing divination tools between systemmates be an ok thing to do, or should I get my own separate ones? I already have my own pendulum and grimorie, but would sharing tarot cards and whatnot be ok? I know our host(Phoenix) isnt too keen on sharing their cards since they feel that energy stuff would make things weird. -Xerxes

[the-shipwreck]

when a new alter keeps showing up and ur not ready to deal with them yet

[threeraccoons]

Some Things I Didn’t Realize Were Complex Trauma Symptoms

I don’t usually post personal shit but my friend and I were talking and there were some things she didn’t know were PTSD related, and sometimes it’s just so weird and out there so. Some stuff I learned too late were caused by trauma:

- Nightmares that have *nothing* to do with your trauma

- Getting angry at anything that startles you/is loud/is irriatating

- Becoming alarmingly calm in situations of crisis/chaos

- Shaking, just, all the time

- Needing very little sleep to function effectively

- Massive mood swings that often get mistaken for personality or mood disorders

- Feeling like there is a layer of dirt on you/that your skin is dirty and needing to get it off

- Believing you will die young and alone !! Big one!!

- Looking for reasons to cut people out of your life

- Needing things to be exactly as you like them to be – not necessarily clean/organized but just to be a specific way and be within your control, and getting angry when it is not *this one gets mistaken for OCD v often

- Preferring high stress/very busy lifestyles to keep occupied

- Needing compression/pressure (ie tight shoelaces, heavy coats and blankets, snug fitting hats, etc) to feel comfortable/safe

- Discomfort with silence

- Very sensitive to heat, smell, and lighting

- Ringing in ears!! I had no idea about this one tinnitus is not that uncommon for ptsd, even if there was no direct head trauma involved

- Physical numbness, often in arms & hands when a flashback or panic attack is about to start

- Derailing conversations when they are causing stress

- Sudden and unexplained onsets of just the most deep sense of melancholy (often accompanied by a lot of tears)

These are just the ones I know of from experience, if there are any others ppl know of and were surprised by pls add. But yea ptsd is not always flashbacks and panic attacks and avoiding triggers, it’s also just random small shit that effects how you exist ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[knickerdoodles]

so they say about 1 to 2% of the population has dissociative identity disorder.  And that seems terribly small and lonely for those who have it.  Until you realize about 2% of the population has red hair.

Now think about how many red heads you have seen in your life.  We’re not alone my multiples and with community we will heal

[thewasteland]

Dissociative identity disorder? In my brain? It’s more likely than you think

[bubonicplaguefactkin]

Intro Post

Hello! We're the Plague System! We're a traumagenic system of an unknown number, but really only 2 of us are active/able to front at the moment. Also we dont have an official diagnosis of a dissociative disorder yet, so if that's an issue, just block and move on? Also we really dont give a shit if non-traumagenic systems follow, just keep in mind that this blog will have stuff that's aimed more for traumagenic systems, so keep that in mind.

Primary Fronters:

Phoenix, 19, they/she/he, host. Blog is @unholysavior

Xerxes, ageless/immortal, he/it, protector(?), blog is @xx-animalihavebecome-xx

Theres others but they're not super active in terms of fronting anymore, so they're not listed here..

Can we get a promo maybe??