BuiltUpChaos.

You have to be two people. The saint and the sinner. The librarian and the stripper. At the moment, I'm just lost. galleons at Gringotts

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I Am Not Like My Mother

I Am Not Like My Mother

I’m not like my mother The perfect wife of an absent man The present parent to the one off-duty The caretaker, the homemaker. I am not like my mother To wait nights up alone wondering where he’s gone To spend days questioning if she’s done something wrong To fake a smile going to gatherings alone. I am not like my mother. I am (more…)

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Haunted

  A memory in my head like a song on repeat Contagious and humming to a certain beat The one of our hearts hiding in the night The one of the hidden glances in the light. Haunted by the ghost of you It is hard  to focus, no self-control For months before something lacking Then you appeared and I was whole. Clothed in a curtain of blue I go through the day and I see you Don’t know where I am,…

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Jazz Bands and Pole Fitness

Jazz Bands and Pole Fitness

And here it happens again. After a lot of heated love-giving that had been going on around here, I completely neglected my relationship with my blog (and my only creative outlet for the time being) because I took it for granted and wanted to have some fun around. In fact, I neglected it almost as much as I have neglected myself. (more…)

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Have you ever been in love ?

“There are all kinds of love in this world but never the same love twice.”

― F. Scott Fitzgerald

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Would you like to go back in time ? If so, why ?

Thanks for the question :)

Even though maybe there are some stuff I would do differently, I think everything that I have made - decisions, mistakes, choices - have turned me into the person I am today. My stance is that whatever has happened is a lesson to learn for future reference, so just try to make the best out of every situation and be grateful.

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un espejismo, una rebelión

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Ferns. 

Südfriedhof Leipzig, 05/2016.

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Healing "And in the end, we were all just humans, drunk on the idea that love, only love, could heal our brokenness." - Christopher Poindexter

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Boys

To the boy who wanted to have a fling. My body has been through wars and survived. It has fought battles it was never supposed to. Lovers tried to conquer this body and left. Never making it a home. Bleeding, Leaving bruises in my soul that I’m still struggling to heal. I have fallen for boys who would love with half hearts. Unable to love themselves. Or maybe, loving themselves too much. But…

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Maybe

you give yourself wearing your heart on your sleeve, a love that you pull from the pocket like a thief; where does it all go? no love comes back you know,  you turn empty slowly, afraid of things, you can’t keep track, knowing what you give freely you most certainly will never get back;  but every single time, some part of you starts believing:   maybe this time it will work maybe they…

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