Janny

annoying psychology student

[buntismz]

About Me

Jan/Janny ☆ 19 ☆ she/he/bun

aroacespec genderqueer FTM femme lesbian on T

MSN autistic with polyfragmented DID

Phys disabled ambulatory powerchair user w/ a carer

Spinterests

Psychology [primarily trauma based disorders],

Animals [bunnies, cows, dogs (all but mainly sighthounds, shih tzu, pugs), cats (all but mainly oriental shorthair), capybaras, pigeons, hyrax, seals, sea lions, marmots, prairie dog]

Collecting things [fugglers, teasets, BABs, plushies, ceramics, sanrio, stickers, stationary].

Kins

Herta (HSR) and Cinnamoroll (Sanrio) are my highest kins, no doubles.

Spiritual angelkin + foxkin.

Physical/mental bunnykin.

Copinglink doll + lamb.

Do not interact

pro/neutral contact paraphile, heavily involved in discourse, TERF/gender crit/transmed, anti self diagnosis, weird about MSN/HSN autistics, believe carers aren't part of the autism community, anti kin, anti good faith queer labels/anti contradictory labels, radqueer/transid, anti recovery.

I am level two sc/rrb autistic with medium support needs. I am mentally an older child to a young teen. Please be kind to me.

I am chronically ill with moderate-severe ME/CFS, type 2 diabetes, PCOS, migraine, insomnia, RLS, POTS, optic nerve hypoplasia, chronic pain from inflammation/impingement. Suspected sleep apnea, endometriosis.

I am sex trafficking, incest and torture survivor. I have major and persistent depression, social and generalised anxiety, two specific phobias, agoraphobia, CPTSD, DID, oppostional defiance disorder, gender dysphoria. Suspected ADHD-C, AvPD.

I am diagnosed/medically recognised but I support educated self diagnosis! I am in therapy and medicated and cared for by many specialists.

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Please don't drag me into discourse including but not limited to endogenic, queer, ship, etc. I can't pay attention to politics/world events much either.

[buntismz]

i havent been active here in A While but im still alive and kicking!!

i recently developed possible IBD and it's killing me /dramatic, i have endoscopies scheduled on the 5th to find out what's wrong properly. i also have hypothyroid i recently developed, subclinical rn but likely to progress into full hashimoto's.

in good news i started university again!! by god i will get my psychology degree and become a clinical psychologist!!!!! i am waiting on an interview to be able to volunteer with childline. all this becouse i didn't realise i had double depression until i stopped being persistently depressed and now i have motivation to do stuff and like waking up everyday.. crazy for me

[buntismz]

it's not crohns or UC which shocked me, i have gastritis though and its been fucking with me really badly. hypothyroidism went back to normal thank god so basically i wont at life (no autoimmune disorders)

[pillow-pupp]

i dunno if anyone other than me needs to hear this but your stuffed animals love you!

even if they don't sleep in bed with you every night! even if you don't play with them very often! even if they fall on the floor, or you squish them accidentally! even if you forget them in your bag overnight!

they all love you even if you've been spending a lot of time with one specific one and not as much with them! they know that different stuffies help bring you different comfort and they love you and love when you feel happy and safe!

your stuffed animals are your friends and they feel loved by you and they love you too :)

sfw interaction only!

[buntismz]

i havent been active here in A While but im still alive and kicking!!

i recently developed possible IBD and it's killing me /dramatic, i have endoscopies scheduled on the 5th to find out what's wrong properly. i also have hypothyroid i recently developed, subclinical rn but likely to progress into full hashimoto's.

in good news i started university again!! by god i will get my psychology degree and become a clinical psychologist!!!!! i am waiting on an interview to be able to volunteer with childline. all this becouse i didn't realise i had double depression until i stopped being persistently depressed and now i have motivation to do stuff and like waking up everyday.. crazy for me

[buntismz]

my pots is better today but i nearly passed out standing for like 5 minutes because i had to lean down alot to make my noodles (mama got me kettle since shes back at work and my samefoods require hot water)

[hellyeahsickaf]

brain fog is so stupid. Like what do you mean my body is in such rough shape I have nothing but my thoughts but also I can't think?

[buntismz]

WOAH, you're also level 2??? i'm not professionally diagnosed with a level myself (i was diagnosed at 11 at around 2007, way before levels were established, with autism, pddnos, and "asperger's disorder" at various times), and i believe my level of social and repetitive behavior disability would qualify as level 2 (with my verbal and communicative sharing qualifying potentially for level 3 in an extroverted version because as you can see i literally do not understand what are proper boundaries to share with strangers aside from the obvious stuff like sexual things most of the time, and with everything except for schedules and sensory sensitivities being level 2, with schedules being level 3 and sensory sensitivities being level 1 because 1.) therapy helped me tolerate loud noises better and i don't scream as often as frequently at loud noises anymore, i can tolerate more textures though i still struggle, and i am in fact heavily sensory seeking --- i like touching different types of textures from tables to walls to fuzzy things to goo, and i like listening to music with weird amounts of textures which is why uk bass, hyperpop, glitch pop, glitchcore, and other music like that is VERY sensorily satisfying to our system) but i can't get a re-evaluation for my autism levels specifically because it'd be a burden on my mom's finances. all i know is that because i'm probably level 2 middle support needs, i can't attend in person classes because of my extent of my disability even part time, have to attend classes even with subjects i'm good at part time because more than one assignment at once stresses me out so bad i regress to a level 2.5 or 3 but hyperverbal type state, and i am...not trusted with most household appliances or even food (both because i'll gorge myself on anything tasty and edible, and because i have a tendency to either make a mess at the lightest or almost cause a house fire at the worst)

so yeah! i'm glad someone actually diagnosed level 2 can relate because...it makes me feel like i'm on the right direction with my diagnosis

im not offically diagnosed with level 2 actually my country has no where that uses levels so im not able to be assessed even if i wanted to, im just diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder.

my level also self assessed but ive had input from my gp, mama (carer) and therapist who agree i fall under level 2 because ive never had any idea how social interactions work, im an extrovert and would talk to strangers the same way i would with friends (tho i never had many in the first place, apparently other kids were scared of me) i make better friends online because irl its so stressful to try be aware of others, i used to be able to mask but i burntout and now im back at having very little awareness of others social cues like body language, facial expressions, tone or even like implied meaning to words idk how that works i never have. even when i masked my autism was extremely obvious but since im (hyper)verbal with a high iq (top 19%) i wasnt noticed as autistic until i was 12 then diagnosed at 16.

i cant go to school either, i can do online schooling okay since its all done in my pace and its subjects i really enjoy (psychology is my special interest and what im studying but i also wanna study biology or medicine, also spIns) i cant clean or cook, i do have chronic illness that stops me but even if i didnt that stuff would be extremely overwhelming, i could cook maybe once every few days and i can make basic stuff like instant noodles n cup snacks. my mama has to pick my clothes out and tie my shoes because idk whats appropriate or not to wear, id wear pyjamas everywhere and change clothes like once a week if i wasnt told to.

[potsiepumpkin]

When the chronic fatigue is chronic

[spookietrex]

[midnightstillness]

Waking up feeling like shit and giving myself grace like

[da-saturn-system]

“slut era” i whisper to myself as i rot in my bed, sick like a frail victorian child

[buntismz]

i got my blood tests back and my a1 blood sugar is the highest its ever been despite the fact my diet is the best its even been and im relatively more active... its likely that my pots has fucked up my body so bad its affecting my blood sugar agrhgajrgja my health is literal ass

[ollielephant]

[cumonthevoid]

none pizza with left beef

[the-chocolate-chip-pancake-blog]

It should be a rule of Tumblr to always reblog none pizza with left beef

[babymarkers]

ive missed you

[ashyrvir]

It’s real

The legends were true

[vaspider]

3 days to the 12th anniversary of none pizza, left beef

[sunkern-plus-deactivated2024101]

how hyperverbality can present in level 2 autism

so: most people seem to think level 2 autism ALWAYS comes with semi or nonverbality. that is not always the case! although i am not PROFESSIONALLY diagnosed with levels, as i was diagnosed before levels became a thing (i was 11 years old and born in very late 1996) when i look at the way levels are described, i'm almost like...the hyperverbal equivalent of level 2 in socialization.

specifically, how it manifests in a hyperverbal autistic with verbal splinter skills that cause their verbal iq to be near genius levels, while their nonverbal iq is on the level of someone with borderline intellectual disability: i have literally no filter. if i think something and my brain wants to say it, i will say it. this is compounded by my (self diagnosed, but sure i have it) hpd: part of it is motivated by a need for attention and to get my Opinions out there but most of it is just "hey, i'm excited, and i want to say the thing i'm thinking, so i'm gonna say it!" this usually gets me in trouble. a recent example is me openly describing one of my little system members as "obsessed with boobs" not necessarily in a creepy context, but more to explain he's basically an average preteen boy, but not realizing it comes across as VERY uncomfortable and abnormal to describe even a little that way to others, especially those who don't know you. other examples include the time i got ticketed in a mogai server for "infodumping to the point i made people uncomfortable" even as others infodumped, just not to the degree i did, with the tipping point me excitedly infodumping about how necalli defied stereotypes about stuttering by not being pathetic in story and instead being threatening, with his stutter being likely caused by him being an inhuman mud god from incan/mayan/aztec mexico who can't speak modern english/japanese, which i wasn't aware would offend real life stutterers, or even recently, talking about how immobility fat fetish art has made me more comfortable with both my physical disabilities that cause me to occasionally be borderline immobile and made me more comfortable with my binge eating disorder that can get to the severity where i would need to be hospitalized or put in a day program for it, which most people didn't respond to because understandably, i probably made them uncomfortable because i'm the only fat person in mainstream fat communities comfortable with that art because it helps me cope with my trauma induced, emotional dysregulation induced binge eating that can get so severe i eat literal condiments and spices. not to mention my Word Vomit Paragraphs, which help me in writing essays and fiction, but not much else. so yeah. that's probably how hyperverbal level 2 autism manifests, in the social communications realm.

[buntismz]

me spending a lot of time in autism spaces because i enjoy being around others like me but i start having anxiety attscks? around those spaces because like levels more than support needs but was never diagnosed with level so is self assessed and people have been so cruel about it and now dont want to be in those spaces because panic:(

[zemi-noelle-art]

LPS Custom #6: Primary-Colors Kitty

I was planning on making a primary color (+ green) custom from the beginning, and I'm really happy with the result; especially the little star antennae!

[mochilly]

(🐶) ᵎᵎ LITTLEST PET SHOP GIF PACK . ୨୧

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