puppy rant ramble vent.... this time about support needs
lived whole life isolated. parents did everything for me. realizing my inability do things isn't just cuz don't know how, or not used to it, but in some cases because can't - esp because of new fibro fatigue.
learning is so hard... going places is so hard... work is so so So hard... when do things alone is an accomplishment, worthy celebrating. even just checking out at store alone. never shopped alone tho. could maybe do it. but can't get to store, shop, check out, get home, unpack grocery alone. can't cook alone. need help for that stuff.
realizing like with many things in life rn that i am "worse" than i thought. used to think just need practice to get used to things, but ... went back to work recently. for 1 day. and now thinking of quitting. job sucks, but it isn't so bad, but for some reason just can't do it. easier when have transportation, but is like prompting. prompting helps lots. but not always foolproof no?
idk.... basically realizing i need more help than thought, which makes me feel bad, cuz already get so much help and lived whole life "getting help". feel like a burden. but can't survive on my own.... weh
rly appreciate everything ppl do for puppy. glad can be a joy in others lives a little too. even if it's hard for everyone