Insecurity wasnāt something that Belle was used to feeling. Out of place and disliked? Sheād been familiar with those feelings during her years spent in the village, but never insecurity. Sheād always been perfectly content with who she was, even if nobody else seemed to be.
But now? Now that she was married to a prince and living in a shining castle, things were⦠different. She wasnāt meant to be a princess, no matter what everyone in the palace said about herĀ ānatural graceā ; she was a farm girl from a little town, with no idea how to address foreign dignitaries with their various titles, and a hatred for extravagance. She would take her simple dresses from the time before she bore a title any day over the elaborate contraptions that Madame de Garderobe continually tried to stuff her into, which felt more like Medieval torture devices than clothing, with their bustiers and breastplates and hoop skirts and layers upon layers of sweltering fabric. Even in the dead of winter, she always felt on the verge of fainting. When ladies of similar stature came to visit them at the castle on official business with their husbands or fathers and carried themselves with ease and poise, Belle always felt that dreaded feeling creep upon her - insecurity. These were the sort of women that her husband had dabbled with in the past, and they all felt so⦠superior. They could wear their elaborate dresses without the slightest traces of discomfort and they always knew what to say in formal company. As foolish as she knew it was to think so, she sometimes wondered if she was good enough to be a part of this world.
In the midst of pacing her room, her thoughts racing, Belle jumped when she heard a knock at her chamber door and Plumetteās voice followed, informing her that she was late for her dress fitting. For not the first time in her life, her gaze flitted over to the window across the room, debating whether or not she could safely descend from it to the ground below. Deciding that such a feat would be impossible, she made herself move to answer the door.
āIām sorry,ā she murmured when she met the maidās gaze, forcing a small smile, but it all felt very feeble. She was so tired of dress fittings when all that they did was make her feel like a fish out of water; she had no desire to be laced up into another one, undoubtedly more ridiculous than the last. If Adam was content with her wearing her simple dresses and boots, why couldnāt it be enough for everyone else, as well?
āI must have lost track of time.ā
Plumette knew the moment her eyes met Belleās that the other woman was upset. Without hesitating to ask for permission, she stepped into the room and pulled the door shut behind her. Whilst she trusted the palace staff, there were visiting dignitaries about the place often now that the curse had been broken and the Prince remembered, and she was conscious of their prying eyes and wagging tongues. Belle didnāt need any more rumours spread about her.
āWhat is the matter?ā Plumette asked gently, taking Belleās hands in hers and guiding her towards the bed.Ā āYou should sit,ā she suggested, releasing her only to place her hands down on Belleās shoulders, squeezing reassuringly, just once.
Taking her own advice, Plumette sat down on the edge of Belleās bed and waited, hoping she would follow suit when she was ready.Ā āYou mustnāt feel as though anyone here is pressuring you into anything, dāaccord?ā she looked up at Belle and offered her a kindly smile. āYou might be our princess, but before that you were our friend, and you always will be that. If you donāt feel like you can make it to your dress-fitting today, I am sure Cogsworth will understand.ā