SunCycle

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[burning-like-a-candle]

Introduction post

This is a blog where I'll post my thoughts about (mainly my) mental health and vents, mainly vents. I'm a menhera, not jirai, so pro recovery.

English isn't my first language so expect to see weird phrasing.

Also I don't post much here

A bit about me:

You can call me either or Kiora. I'm an adult (20)

I am cyclothymic (diagnosed). There may be something else, but I don't dare to self diagnose. She/her but whatever flows with you. I'm usually non-confrontational but don't even fucking try to act high and mighty with me

[burning-like-a-candle]

Is it really that fun to one up me in every single conversation

Just because I act confident doesn't mean I am, buzz off with your "um actually"

[hpdamechan]

people dont realize that therapy isnt an automatic fix. it takes much more than another person. it takes willpower and strength. also, many therapists won’t be the right fit for people. being sent to some random person doesn’t mean you should be immediately “fixed.” it also takes time. people just don’t understand mental health

[jiraikiritani]

everybody only cares about me when im venting and then they all disappear the second im fine again why do you only say you care about me whenever im having a breakdown that's not gonna make it fucking better it just hurts me more

[analog-autistic]

we've definitely posted about this before but if i see one more person act like the only forms of childhood trauma that exist are abuse from family or sexual assault i will actually start crying and it will be so so so loud everyone will hear it from every corner of the earth

THE SCHOOL SYSTEM !!! PEER ABUSE !!!!! ISOLATION !!!!!!!! RACISM !!! SEXISM !!!!!! MEDICAL ABUSE !!!!!! NONCONSENSUAL SURGERY !!!! POVERTY !!!! SO MUCH MORE !!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

edit: i made this in a high school enduced rage and didnt expect it to blow up like this ?

anyway i love trans people i love intersex people i love people with personality disorsers i love aspec people okkk

notifications r going off now

[hpdamechan]

i’m sorry if you don’t know bipolar and borderline personality disorder aren’t the same thing, you need to do much more research before even considering self-diagnosis of either.

[burning-like-a-candle]

I want to be loved genuinely so bad omg

[healerzombie]

what it feels like when i look up menhera and every single post is tagged with #jirai and has nothing to do with actual menhera

[burning-like-a-candle]

Happiness is real even if it's fleeting

[burning-like-a-candle]

Legit just pay attention to me on your own and I'll be as loyal as a dog. I'm not even kidding. It's so pathetic and I hate myself but that's what it is

[burning-like-a-candle]

I just want a bit of attention istg

[mazxco]

🪽

[8lur5otong]

Your scars are beautiful because they show what you’ve been through and survived.

“But sh is bad so we shouldn’t rOmanTIcIze-..”

YOUR SCARS BEAUTIFUL BECAUSE THEY SHOW WHAT YOU’VE BEEN THOUGH AND SURVIVED.

[infested-carcass]

hey so why did NPD even become a synonym for abusive again? what happened to calling shitty people what they are instead of armchair diagnosing them with random personality disorders?

[lunaburzt]

I don't think people understand why menhera fashion is accessible.

Menhera is a pro-recovery mental health movement. With the fashion it makes since why it is meant to be accessible.

When I get up in the morning, realistically I can't just put put a decora outfit together and put on 13 accessories and 4 layers of clothing.

I also can't just wear a lolita outfit either since a lot of the time that also takes a lot of effort.

With menhera fashion, I can easily put an outfit together because of it's accessibility factor.

The makeup is also important.

Putting a bunch of glittery gore makeup all over your face will look like a costume. Menhera and mental health isn't a costume.

It's important to have accessible makeup that doesn't look like a costume. Byojaku is the best example of this I know of, but even then the makeup isn't required. It's optional.

It's completely ok to want to be apart of the menhera community but also wanting to wear something like a nurse lolita outfit or have makeup inspired by menhera fashion. The fashion isn't the only part about the menhera community. Just please don't go wearing a completely inaccessible outfit with makeup that looks like a costume and call it "menhera" because that isn't what menhera fashion is.

[questionable-method]

no but im so tired of how self-deprecation is always more accepted than self-advocacy. if i say i can't drive because im autistic i get questioned on how exactly that works and given a million suggestions on how to do it anyway and i look like im trying to be special so it's easier to just say im a loser. yeah i don't drive because im kind of a loser lmao. oh well. and people say lmao back and we move on. at worst they say "oh im sure you'll figure it out haha." but no interrogation!! being a loser is more respectable than being disabled. being a loser is something that doesn't make other people feel uncomfortable about their own biases. so no, no im not disabled. i don't struggle to keep friends and do the laundry and make quick trivial decisions and clean my room and brush my teeth because im autistic. it's because im a loser. it's my fault. it is what it is. at least im funny now. do you think im funny? please think im funny

[bebsi-cola]

strong reminder that everything doesn't "happen for a reason". a lot of the time things happen, and it's not a test or a punishment or predetermined. sometimes you get cancer or lose the ability to eat or can't walk and it doesn't have any greater meaning. i know as a species we love pattern recognition to try and avoid bad things from happening but that doesn't mean whatever explanation people make up to rationalise the fact that anyone can be disabled no matter their status or moral character any more truthful