A.

barely anywhere

[butterdays]

paper me

ever felt in between—

barely there

me and the devil

walking side by side

he doesn’t speak

just keeps pace

like he knows me

my mind—

a place i can’t escape

exhausted

from a world that feels

half-made

i look in the mirror

and don’t recognize her

hollow eyes

frail

brittle hair

numb

void

slipping—

but still here

i miss her

the old me

paper me

creased

thin

still here—

but only just

[eymurn]

Don’t let your empathy be greater than your self respect.

[diamondgrlteam]

learnt this the hard way:/

[butterdays]

Note to self

[bookaddict24-7]

"Perhaps they were right putting love into books. Perhaps it could not live anywhere else."

― William Faulkner

[nightattheboathouse]

- E. M. Forster's New Year's resolutions, written 31 December 1904

[queen-alluka-deactivated2026072]

even just six months ago i was so determined to have a "life purpose" but when it came down to it i realized that what matters is just being happy with the little things that make my days happy and not feeling pressured to love everything about my life. now i'm approaching going back to school from an entirely different perspective - instead of saying "what job would make me happy?" i'm saying "what job would allow me to do all of the things i already know make me happy?" and it's making such a huge difference to my mental health. your job doesn't have to be your passion. you don't have to romanticize working. sometimes you just need to do what you're good at so you're stable enough to spend the rest of your time doing what you actually love.

[brightwanderer]

I think a lot about how we as a culture have turned “forever” into the only acceptable definition of success.

Like… if you open a coffee shop and run it for a while and it makes you happy but then stuff gets too expensive and stressful and you want to do something else so you close it, it’s a “failed” business. If you write a book or two, then decide that you don’t actually want to keep doing that, you’re a “failed” writer. If you marry someone, and that marriage is good for a while, and then stops working and you get divorced, it’s a “failed” marriage.

The only acceptable “win condition” is “you keep doing that thing forever”. A friendship that lasts for a few years but then its time is done and you move on is considered less valuable or not a “real” friendship. A hobby that you do for a while and then are done with is a “phase” - or, alternatively, a “pity” that you don’t do that thing any more. A fandom is “dying” because people have had a lot of fun with it but are now moving on to other things.

I just think that something can be good, and also end, and that thing was still good. And it’s okay to be sad that it ended, too. But the idea that anything that ends is automatically less than this hypothetical eternal state of success… I don’t think that’s doing us any good at all.

[butterdays]

I always come back to Tumblr because of posts like this✨

[butterdays]

Posting just because its 22/02/2022✨ Make a wish maybe?

[butterdays]

Have you read today? 📚

[butterdays]

🖥 👩‍💻 📖

[butterdays]

Christmas 2021 🎄

[butterdays]

Random pics from our hike last weekend. 🐒 🍃 ⛰

[butterdays]

This. This is something else. 🎵

[butterdays]

Peaky Blinders 📺 🚬 gets to me every time

[butterdays]

Fortune Kitties 😸

[butterdays]

Nars Cosmetics💄

[butterdays]

Socrates once said: "Beware the barrenness of a busy mind."

We often get so busy with life as our minds are always either tied to the past OR wander to what the future holds that we forget to STOP thinking about things that happened or not likely to happen and just BE PRESENT IN THE NOW. Most of us are living on autopilot and according to societal pressure without ever connecting to our present true self and spiritually; slaving away by being pulled back because of certain past traumas or pushed forward thinking of bills, mortgages and other payments for material or physical upgrades.

Please don't get me wrong, career & lifestyle advancement are great BUT conscious/mindful living and self spiritual enhancement are equally, sometimes even more important. To live consciously is the true significance of life, it is to LIVE, to cultivate awareness, to take control of your life in every aspect possible to break free from the chains of societal expectations and encourage emotional stability.

Living consciously does not mean an hour of sitting-in-silence meditation or a 6 months yoga programme, those can be examples that can guide you towards cultivation of awareness. Sometimes it can be as simple as paying attention to your breath, visiting the beach and listen to the sound of the waves, feel the sea breeze caress your cheek or even take time to eat/drink mindfully.

"Whatever the present contains, accept it as if you had chosen it. Work with it, not against it." The Power of Now, Ekhart Tolle

I hope you have a pleasant week ahead, remember to take a moment to pause, listen to your body and give yourself some love, attention and kindness that you might not know you need it. Namaste.🙏🕉️