perfection is blessing

"死こそ、唯一の絶対的な自由だ"

[butterflynymph]

Today a guy told me I have a very pretty face and a perfect body, and almost laughed in his face. Such an obvious lie, for what? Do people think I don't own a mirror?

[butterflynymph]

Had some friends over today, since I moved, and I drank a lot. I'm going to fast for at least 3 days after this. I feel so fat now.

If anyone wants to help me stay on track, please do. I'll be grateful.

[butterflynymph]

Somehow it feels even more lonely to have an ED in your 20s that it was in my teens

[butterflynymph]

Went to the gym today after work

Pros: burning calories

Cons: I looked like a whale compared to everyone

(Yes, I almost cried)

Why did I decide to recover? Honestly the worst idea of my life

[butterflynymph]

Ah yes, of course the scale died on me today🙄 need to remember to buy a new one (already checked it's not just dead battery)

[butterflynymph]

Hi! I've been lurking around here for a long time, maybe time to start contributing.

I'm Mari, and have been struggling with ED for 14 years, there were attempts to recover, the longest time was the past 2,5 years, I gained 10 kg and it was the most miserable time of my life. So, I relapsed and here we are.

Some stats:

SW: 60 kg

GW1: 57 kg

GW2: 54 kg

GW3: 51 kg

UGW: 47 kg (for now at least)

Height: 170 cm

If you want to talk, help each other restrict or just vent, feel free to message me.

Minors DNI