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[caroline-draws-stuff]

BROTHERS 😭❤️💚

[bwekshik]

Just remembered the time when I ended up having a shifted knee cap and tendinitis in seventh and eighth grade because my coaches wouldn’t listen to me about being in pain and they would constantly tell me “you just need to stretch, so stretch and then go back to practice” and the entire reason I had tendinitis was because, tendinitis is caused by constant/repetitive actions that inflame the tendon. And now, here I am. Two dislocations of the same knee cap, and a combined total of roughly four+ months of physical therapy. I just want a good knee, please, just a good knee.

[bwekshik]

1. “Please don’t say it again.”

Tags: pining!niki x reader, rejection

Word count: .7k

Warnings: none (?)

For most people, crushes were somewhat magical. The light, fluttery feeling in their stomach. The lovesick giggles, the longing glances. Niki wasn’t like most people though.

Niki’s stomach always felt like like it was going to spill right out of his mouth at times. His giggles weren’t really giggles, more like asphyxiated laughs. At least he got the normalcy of the longing glances.

Over the past year, he’d grown both in height and courage. He’d finally managed to convince himself that maybe, just maybe, you liked him back. That every time you’d accidentally brushed your hand against his, you were possibly leaving him hints. That each time he’d caught you looking over at him, you were giving him the same glance he was giving you.

With these small reassurances he told himself, he came up with a plan. He casually asked if you’d like to walk home together, to which you gladly agreed to. When he saw the smile on your face, his stomach churned anxiously.

Would you say you liked him back? Of course you would, you were best friends, maybe even more. You had to say yes, you had to… Right?

As the two of you walked, he tried his hardest to keep his nerves at bay. Remembering the rest of his rough plan, he slowly began to drift closer to you. And here was the truly daring piece; to casually reach for your hand.

“So,” his voice cracked ever so slightly, throat tight with anxiety, “I really needed to tell you something.”

“Oh?” There it was. The voice that somehow soothed him and induced such a sick feeling at the same time. “You’re not moving, are you? I don’t what I’ll do in chemistry if you move away, it’ll be so boring.”

“No, no it’s not that.”

As if he’d run into a wall, Niki stopped in his tracks and turned to face you. Was this really a good idea? Were his feelings really reciprocated like his mind hoped for? He slowly reached for your hand, his own fingers trembling.

“I like you. I have for a while and I just can’t keep going to school with you and hanging out without telling you.”

Needless to say, you were stunned. It wasn’t like you hadn’t noticed at all, you were aware of the small things he would do around you. Sit up a bit more straight when you were around, the small, kind gestures of buying you snacks. You had just hoped that for the first time in your life, you were just being vain.

“You what?” Your hands began to shake as well, ever so slightly trying to pull your hand away from his.

“I, well I have feelings for you. I really, really like you. I even--” he pulled a small keychain out of his pocket--your favorite flower nonetheless--and held it out for you to take-- “I even got you this.”

“Niki…”

“Do you have feelings for me?”

For a moment, you considered his inquiry. Did you have feelings for him? Sure, you liked spending time with him. He was funny, energetic, handsome obviously. But did you get the fluttery feeling in your stomach?

And in those few moments you stood silent, you came to a conclusion; no. You didn’t have feelings for him. As much as you enjoyed being friends with Niki, you just didn’t feel anything romantic for him.

“___?” The tension between the two of you was practically unbearable for Niki. “Do you…”

“Please don’t say it again.” You slipped your hand out of his and hugged your body, letting your eyes fall to the ground. “I’m sorry, Niki. I just, I don’t have those kind of feelings for you.”

There they were. The words he was so afraid of hearing. And of course, he couldn’t take back his confession. He couldn’t play it off as not caring much. Not with his chest feeling as though there were a snake constricting him. Not with tears brimming so obviously in his eyes.

“I’m so sorry.” You shook your head and turned away from him quickly. “I should, I should go. I’ll see you on Monday.”

So there he stood, watching you walk away from him, the small flower key chain in hand. It wasn’t even the rejection that hurt the most. It was the fear that he was going to lose your friendship.

[bwekshik]

I just dislocated my kneecap for the second time and I’m scared because last time the doctor said I would probably need surgery if I ever dislocated it again (to prevent me from dislocating it again in the future) and I don’t want to tell my parents because my dad isn’t working and my mom is so overwhelmed with her job and I can’t get a job right now I may be panicking for no reason maybe it’s not so bad right now that I would need surgery but god I’m just so anxious about it now

[bwekshik]

why the fuck did my best friend get 66k likes on twitter what the fuck

[bwekshik]

[3:35]

I always thought we would work out, you know? That we’d last, just like everyone told us. That somehow, you and I would have that spark that so many people had. I guess it just wasn’t in the cards.

I guess all those nights I stayed up waiting for you were in vain. I guess waiting for you to love me as much as I wanted to love you was just a stupid wish.

I should’ve known, though. When you didn’t come home. When you weren’t at the studio. Weren’t at the dorms. Weren’t with me.

I should’ve known when you never bothered to see me. When the daily visits you forced yourself to grace me with became scarce. When you only saw me once every few weeks so we could keep up appearances.

I should’ve known when you started hanging out with my best friend. How you’d laugh harder at her jokes, even when they weren’t that funny. When you left me to watch you and her dance together, smiling at her like she was the world.

I never realized why I was so jealous. To be honest, I never realized it was jealousy. I always thought I was just mad that you could tarnish my reputation. After all this time, I was really just jealous of her. I knew we would never work out.

But I’m lucky. I’m lucky we never made it. Because if we had, I wouldn’t be with Chris.

I wouldn’t be as happy as I am with him. I wouldn’t be sitting here, in his lap as I write this. I wouldn’t have him here with me, holding onto me with his chin nuzzled in the crook of my neck.

I’ve never been so happy, and it’s all because you never cared about me being happy. So thank you, thank you for never loving me.

[assiraphales]

don’t hate urself, hate the system that made u feel insecure about every single aspect of ur life

[assiraphales]

to name just a few that I’ve personally dealt with

-it’s ok to be living with your family over the age of 18

-it’s ok if you’ve never had a relationship, and if you still haven’t had your first kiss

-it’s ok to have cellulite. it’s ok to not to work out

-it’s ok not to have a huge friend group, or a big social media presence

-it’s ok if you’re not “conventionally” attractive bc that concept is made up!!!!

-it’s ok if you aren’t good at make up, and don’t want to be. it is not lazy for a women to go bare face.

-it’s ok if you didn’t go to parties and drink excessive amounts during high school, high school is so glamorized in tv and it’s not a true depiction. high school is NOT the best four years of your life. neither is college. you did not miss out.

-it’s ok to not know what you want to do, or change your ideas 1000 times. if you want to go back to school @ 28, do it. there is no age limit on education

-it’s ok to have body positivity for others but not yourself. you are growing.

-most importantly, you have time. you have time

[bwekshik]

Oh, my talent?

thinking everyone hates me and in turn ignoring them and self isolating myself and deleting all social media except tumblr and tik tok.

:)

[yoko-goto]

Reblog if you think a woman can be complete without children

[kneeremover69]

I never hit reblog so fast

[silks-stuff]

what sort of dick for brains would ever think otherwise

[bwekshik]

I want to cry oh goodness.

[bwekshik]

you’re so adorable when you get excited

[voltron-incorrectquotes]

Honerva, bursts into the room: it’s missing!!!

Zarkon: what’s missing??

Honerva, stammering: th-the thing!! I-I don’t know Zarkon!!

Zarkon, turns around with baby Lotor: what thing???

Honerva: oh! Oof, nevermind you have it

Zarkon: wh-

Zarkon: yOU MEAN OUR SON?!

[bwekshik]

*in group chat*

Lance: Would you rather kick a cactus or an updog?

Coran: What’s a cactus?

Allura: What’s a cactus?

Kolivan: What’s a cactus?

[bwekshik]

Keith: The human life is a strained and tense one. I envy the life of a smooth rock resting on the beach… warmed by the sun… unaware of the trials and tribulations of sentient life…

Shiro: Do you need to talk?

Keith: I wish I was a croissant.

[bwekshik]

Shiro: You all are not...

Lance: Y’all ain’t...

Keith: YAIN’T!

[valtsv]

using “i’m gay” to justify yourself and your decisions is good and fun when it’s to defend your tacky outfit or your 3am impulse-buys on amazon but don’t let me catch you using it to defend your racism and transphobia babes!

[goasthed]

one time a friend of mine programmed a thing called “coke.exe” and all it did was bring up a little pop-up that asked you if you were thirsty for cola and if you clicked “yes” it opened your CD tray and said “here is a cup holder”