I used to be a data analyst in local politics, aggregating information for elected officials so that they can assess the best way to maximize their impact on the lives of people in their communities. Humans became numbers and my job was to make the numbers move in favor of their campaigns and initiatives. But I cared too much. I listened to the humans, their stories, their pain and I cried for them sometimes at night when a mother lost her son because the gang that was trying to initiate him for the past few months finally got a hold of him and killed him, her number 300813 under NYCHA Emergency Transfer, Priority T2. - She was waitlisted for months and never got the chance to relocate her son. . . I cried when a young girl, not too far in age from me at the time, came into an office with a man who claimed that he had took her in after seeing her on the streets. Him and his wife were trying to help her, his intention may have been pure but I still asked to speak with her alone. She came to the office frequently by herself, she was nice. I was able to get her an internship. She had said she found a job and thanked me for being a friend. I saw her a few months later at the Hudson River Pier, it was late. Eyes glistened when she saw me, as much as dilated pupils can glisten. I never saw her again. I refused to close her case, but after 60 Days it must close, āCase Resolvedā they said, improving overall performance and reducing the number of At-Risk-Youth in that area. . . My cousin was a number. Case Closed. You canāt resolve a case if the doctor of a malpractice goes MIA after the patient dies. . . . Burnout does sneak up on you, and you can love what you do and be great at it! Iām damn good with technology, data, software, logistics but Iām even better at being human. Even worse, Iām a creative. Iām glad I left that position to pursue my art but that profession never left me. Social Impact is important, data is important. . . But you canāt save others unless you save yourself. You canāt show up for other people more than you show up for yourself. . This quarantine is the force majeure that some of our souls needed. #preorder #TheNightShift #ActofGod #burnout (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/CAIjFXHpUvy/?igshid=19z45zfmurart
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