"wouldn't you rather die trying?"

@byjosten

shane//26//cancer//he/him just a trans writer with a list of comfort characters and too many things to write and read i wrote THE MEMORY OF THE MILLER BOY, and featured in Icarus Writing Collective and Dead Cowpokes Don't Wrangle pfp by @/heavenlyystar on IG/twt

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I made an illustration for @lostlegendaerie's fic, Miasma!

It's gonna be part of their Gravitational Pull limited printing (yipee!!)

You can check out the fanfic here 👈(you'll need an AO3 account to view it)

take aim "you made me hate myself, made me tear my body",,, may's crashout song

i need to write a short in 24 hours to make it to the MM book fair I WANT TO WRITE SOMETHING THAT IS NOT FOR SOMEBODY ELSE FUUUUUUUUUCK im so tired of doing like 300K words a month just to watch these publishers profit off me and get 3K 4/5* reviews

90% of gamblers quit right before they win big

I forgot about this meme 💀

authormorganlawson

I know that we all know about this being a thing but I'm thinking about it and going insane.

terminally-unlikable

I can literally feel the thoughts bubbling in my head like a cursed soup

memeclassheroes

I have belonged to you in a way you haven't to me,

—Anais Nin, Mirages: The Unexpurgated Diary of Anais Nin, 1939-1947

memeclassheroes

Anybody want me to shut the fuck up for $500?

notdefeatedyet-deactivated20240

stuck within these four walls, my only safe place

set one step outside and the feeling of doom arose

spent months without seeing any one but my family

only this room, which has now started to feel suffocating as well

the comfortable feeling of avoidance is wearing off

i want to experience life again

i want to feel like myself again

reeling.

I am completely alone and isolated and bored and boring and I'm sick of pretending like I'm okay and happy with it

I am lonely.

I don't like my isolated life.

I think it's boring.

I think I'm boring.

I hate that I never do anything.

I hate that I never go anywhere.

I hate that I'm not making fun memories.

I hate that I'm not making memories at all.

I hate that I'm so alone.

I hate that I'm unhappy

I hate that I can't make friends.

I hate that I struggle to talk to people

I hate that I struggle to find people I like

I hate that I struggle to leave my house

I hate that even if I could leave my house I don't have the money to do something fun

I HATE THAT IVE BEEN STUCK IN MY ROOM STARING AT THE SAME FOUR WALLS FOR A WHOLE DECADE

I HATE THAT IM WASTING MY LIFE

I HATE

I hate that I'm stuck

having a chronic illness sucks. but im trying to keep myself feeling ok. as long as i feel ok, ok is better than bad

paranoidpdsuggestion

I’m so bitter over being stuck missing out on things due to paranoia and agoraphobia

thoughts about living / 2022

"I dreamt I drank the color of your voice."

– An excerpt from 'Memory,' a poem by "Evelyn Graham Frost"

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