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[c0cainel0dine]

No more shooting up drugs for me. Ten days sober, and kinda diggin it. 👌🏼#soberlife #10dayssober #drugs #meth #heroine #sober (at Hatcher Pass)

[c0cainel0dine]

Demons

My 20th birthday is drawing near It will be 36 months this year Since I have seen my mothers face, and heard her voice I really wish I was able to make the choice To live or die Those are the feelings that reside inside My mind is starting to become permafried I know these drugs are slowly killing me I think I have subconsciously decided to die From something that makes me fly high It gives me that rush I need to survive It makes me able to bury my feelings alive I guess this would technically be called a slow form of suicide Wouldn’t you say? I never wanted to end up this way People tell me to put down the pipe But what they really should be telling me is to put down the knife Ever damn day I want to take my life. That will never change I have to find my anchor to continue this war To battle my demons and make it alright My demons are strong and willing to put up the fight In the end I will probably end up taking the knife. Perhaps if someone loved and cared Maybe just then my life will be spared.

By me.

[love-personal]

[wishiwaslink]

I like telling dirty jokes and I like smoking crystal meth, but darling I love you

[thatzstupiddoh]

[c0cainel0dine]

It’s 2:55 in the morning, everyone is sleeping. And while everyone is doing that, I’m sitting here contemplating life. I was supposed to graduate May 1st. Whatever happened to me doing that? Drugs. Everyone may not know this, 7 months ago I was addicted to meth. I quit for my boyfriend at the time, as some of you might know who that was. I was sober for about 5 and a half months. About a month and a half ago, I got back into it. Fucked off school like usual, fucked off my family, stole, lied. And a few days ago I finally got kicked out because my family figured out what I was doing. Is it sad that I’m mad at them because I told them I have an addiction, and the best they could do was throw me out on the street? I know that they care, but why no support to try to help me get sober? I tried on my own, I obviously can’t do it. Sitting here, high, racking my brain at my flaws is starting to get at me. My sister, who has been in jail for over 12 years got out a few days ago. And I can’t even be around her because I can’t pass UA’s. She cried when I told her that. Know how that made me feel? It didn’t make me feel sad, not one bit. It made me pissed. It made me pissed because that means I can’t smoke dope for 10 years because of her parole. That’s what drugs do. They make you choice them over your family, and friends. I lost my best friend because of this addiction, she doesn’t want to be around me or even speak to me anymore. Everyone I need in my life walked away. Just like that. How could people say they care about you so much yet just turn their backs like they couldn’t give two shits. I tried asking for help, more than once. I didn’t get any support. With no support I can’t get sober. And at this point, I am beyond the point of needing support. Everyone has given up on me, so there for I am doing the same. If you want to be my friend, cool. If one day, someone decides to help me get sober. Great, be there for me when I need it. Till then, I don’t really know what I’m gonna do. People are gonna give me a bunch of shit for this, and that is okay. But I don’t think anyone knows the real me. Which is sad, maybe I’m just high and venting in the wrong place.

[kankantheweatherman]

Trailer Trash

Trailer trash, fallen angel of the underclass Teenage trollop with a perfect ass Yeah, she moved in fast on me

When we first met, she was puffin’ on a cigarette That teenage junkyard Juliette with Tourette’s of my dreams

The blonde hair and missing teeth Cannot hide what’s underneath That nyphomanic theif that stole my heart The smell of Funyons on her breath When she was all spun out on meth I knew she’d be the death of me

There she blows, sucked a golf ball through a garden hose Two legs braggin’ how they never close in a gutter rosary What could I do? I got stuck on her just like the glue She’d been huffin’ since the age of two Now my lonely nights were through

The black tornado ripped through town Turned the whole world upside down She vanished in a flash With my credit cards and stash Now I’m left here with this rash And I’m siftin’ through the ash For my tragic trailer trash

[fadedputa-deactivated20151203]

If i had a dollar for every time someone called me ugly id have 0 dollars bitch what u thought lmao

[onlydoll]

[michalcyon]

[crookednose]

[friendswafffleswork]

[michelle-misinformed-deactivate]

[michelle-misinformed-deactivate]

[livehedonistically-deactivated2]

I think people that use drugs are admirable. They’re basically making a statement saying ‘I’ve lived so much already that if this drug kills me I would be perfectly fine with that’. What’s sad is someone who uses drugs to escape their constant heartbreak or disapproval. The problem is I’m not sure where I stand.

Me (via livehedonistically)

[topsickkk]

Yup.

[thisbitchishigh-blog]

ohhh she does 😍

[itsyiffmas]

You shouldn’t do drugs that are harder than you.