Welcome to Hell @c0rpsebrideskinny - Tumblr Blog

Get to know me before you follow:

I’m an adult (nearing 30)

I have body and brain issues - the issue being I have both

I don’t care what I’m called just make it original if it’s an insult

STATS:

HW: 200lbs LW: 98lbs CW: 105.4lbs UGW: 90lbs

This entire blog is a trigger warning but if you follow and need something tagged lemme know

You know you’re getting bad when you do that stupid TikTok trend of “what percent of my life have I lived” and you get excited when it says 91%

#damn 9% left #my 30s are going to be wild #I’m taking that as 9 years I don’t care #it’s getting bad again #oh well

Something that always stuck with me was some douche canoe at a Ghost concert saying “no skinny girls are into this music” to my boyfriend of the time

And then I wonder why I’m as fucked up as I am

#like what the fuck was that #like jesus christ just shut up and enjoy the music #I hate the things that stick with me #who the fuck just says that unprovoked

I hate how slow my progress has been as of late but I’ve got time before the music festival to lose a few more pounds

God please let me get to 105lbs by the 14th that’s all I ask

#fuck #I need to lose this weight man #unhinged thoughts

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Fml

#tw in tags #tw sh relapse #8 whole months down the fucking drain for a moment of release #fuck #have a gd concert this month too no fuckin shorts for me #fmyfuckinglifeman

Reading about bands I used to admire as a kid having all these problematic things has really made me lose a sense of self

Don’t get me wrong, out the p3do racist fuckers, but speaking with someone who has BPD a lot of these people’s music became my entire personality, as obsessions do, and learning the people I idolized are and have been like that has been extremely fucked up for me in the sense of feeling like I’ve lost myself and my identity

Fuck them but also fuck feeling this way

#actually bpd #actually borderline #fuck this shit man