L I E.

goodbyes are T.E.A.R because things like tears are a luxury. there's no such thing as beautiful goodbyes, so just begin now. take it easy, slowly carve out my heart. that's right, that’s right, gently step on the shards that have shattered. so that regret, regret, such a thing will no longer be left; please burn up my heart that was torn into shreds. that's right, right there, what are you hesitating for?

[caastcwcys]

I am moving everything over to @nvrlcnds! :)

[caastcwcys]

I am moving everything over to @nvrlcnds! :)

[caastcwcys]

I am moving everything over to @nvrlcnds! :)

[caastcwcys]

I am moving everything over to @nvrlcnds! :)

[caastcwcys]

I am moving everything over to @nvrlcnds! :)

[caastcwcys]

I am moving everything over to @nvrlcnds! :)

[caastcwcys]

for: @starlingisms plot: (x)

Movie nights had recently become a thing between Jaemin and his close friend. They decided that it would be a good way to wind down after dealing with stress and the outside world, as Jaemin liked to call it. His job wasn't the best, and he always had to deal with an array of different people and the personalities they brought with them. Though at the end of the day, he danced for them and they helped pay his bills so he learned to smile and grit his teeth when people couldn't see it. With all the snacks and drinks laid out on the table, he had already made himself comfortable on the couch and helped himself to a few. "Are you almost ready? I'm going to eat all of this without you!" Jaemin called out to the other jokingly.

[seoulxsinners]

"We can still play if you want" he smiled warmly " Not that you want to play with me any more" He looked at Myeonjin for a bit. "i mean it wasn't all just a ploy to get your soul. I do like you still just love is a stretch"

[caastcwcys]

“I feel like a toy when you use that term,” he said with a frown on his face, his one hand resting in his pocket lazily. “Well, you must have really liked me to keep calling me and asking me to come see you or the other way around,” Myeonjin said, letting out a sigh before looking back at the other. “I guess you can say you like me, but how do I know it’s not just for your own benefit? Now I’m second guessing everything.” He went on to admit, chewing on the inside of his cheek slightly due to his own nervous habits.

[seoulxsinners]

"I mean it is a jack ass move but i but even i was a bit afraid to come tonight. I dont do dates well" He said shaking his head. He looked at Jaemin for a bit. "Pork belly sounds really good" he nodded. "I'm not hot" Taejoon laughed shaking his head. "as for my Patience it was more not wanting to put up with my cousins when i get home"

[caastcwcys]

Hearing that Taejoon never really did dates well had him curious. “Why don’t you? Do you just get nervous about them?” He asked, his eyes scanning over the drinks that were on the menu briefly. “Pork belly is probably my favorite food when I can have it, but I do try and limit myself or else I would probably eat my weight in it,” he admitted sheepishly with a small laugh following. “Why don’t you think you’re hot? I think you are. And I’m not just saying that, I mean it.” Jaemin went on to tell the other as he looked at Taejoon once more, eyes scanning over him. He was certainly attractive and anyone else would have to be blind not to think the same. Jaemin was sure the opinion would be universal. “What’s up with your cousins then? Do they give you a hard time?” He asked with a frown. After a moment, the waitress was coming over to them and taking their orders happily. 

[fadinglights]

continued from here, @caastcwcys

jieun  stays  quiet  and  waits  until  his  words  sink  in.  she  is  aware  of  what  she’s  doing,  putting  words  in  his  mouth  and  pushing  him  away  before  things  become  too  catastrophic  for  her  to  handle.  it  isn’t  fair  to  him  or  her  for  her  to  cling  onto  old  habits  that  are  remnants  of  her  past  failures  of  relationships.  “i  do.”  she  responds  quietly  with  a  nod,  refraining  herself  from  closing  off  again.  she  hasn’t  always  been  so  jaded,  so  eager  to  self-sabotage.  “i  want  it  to  work  if  it’s  with  you.”

[caastcwcys]

He would admit that he was busier than usual lately with work and it put a strain on their relationship. Despite that, Kyungtae loved Jieun just the same. But he knew something had to give, they needed to have this conversation and he was willing to admit that he needed to maybe take a step back from all the business and take some time for the two of them. Hearing she still wanted things to work had him sighing out in relief. Losing Jieun was an unsettling thought, given how much the man was crazy about her. He reached over to gently take her hand into his, the pad of his thumb massaging circles into her hand. “As do I. I love you and I’m crazy about you, I know work has been getting in the way a lot but those feelings haven’t diminished. However, I know I need to maybe take a step back from the movie sets a little more often and focus on personal matters...” Kyungtae trailed off, he was willing to have someone help him out on an odd day of the week every so often to make quality time with Jieun happen when it came down to it. Though with being a film director, he would have to make sure the person filling in was trusted and knew what he wanted but he was determined to fix the things in his personal life. “We should plan to go somewhere. Maybe somewhere we’ve always wanted to go? Spend time there for the new year? What do you think about that?” 

[fadinglights]

jongin  blinks  as  he  digests  the  story  blurted  out  too  quickly  —  but  he  did  set  the  time  limit  himself.  “something  must  have  gone  wrong,  since  the  staged  breakup  caught  a  lot  more  attention  than  whatever  dating  rumours  there  were  in  the  first  place.”  at  least  said  rumours  never  reached  him,  before  the  so-called  breakup  occurred.  his  headache  throbs  even  more  from  the  explanation,  his  fingers  rub  his  temple  as  he  tries  to  process  it  still.  “myeonjin,  jin-ah  —  ”  he  takes  a  step  closer  to  his  boyfriend  at  last,  his  hands  resting  on  his  shoulders.  “how  many  times  have  i  told  you  that  if  you’re  short  on  money,  you  could  just  tell  me,  hm?  we  can  figure  something  out.”  unlike  what  his  existing  social  circles  might  indicate,  jongin  didn’t  go  through  life  with  complete  ease  either.  though  he  was  born  into  a  family  wealthier  than  most,  the  fallout  hit  him  hard  and  he  knows  what  it  feels  to  be  so  broke  that  even  the  next  meal  is  a  cause  of  worry.  it  is  somewhat  of  a  miracle  that  he  found  an  out  from  scriptwriting  among  all  things,  but  he  can  empathise  well  with  myeonjin’s  situation.  “did  they  even pay  you  well,  at  least?”  his  anger  has  subsided  by  half  right  now,  replaced  by  the  concern  he  feels  for  the  younger  man.  

[caastcwcys]

He had to agree with the statement. The staged breakup had caught a lot more attention than the original scandal itself. It was probably due to the amount of dramatics that the girl brought to the table with her, no doubt. As they stood there in brief silence, Myeonjin was internally freaking the fuck out. Screwing their relationship up was the last thing he wanted and the fear of losing the older male was scary to him. Feeling the hands on his shoulders, he visibly relaxed them, a small sigh escaping his lips. Closing his eyes for a moment, he reached up to place his own hand on Jongin’s. “I know,” he said softly, opening his eyes again and making eye contact with his boyfriend. “I just… I don’t want to feel like I’m mooching off of you, that’s the last thing that I want,” Myeonjin finally confessed. He genuinely loved his boyfriend and he knew that the other male was there for him for whatever he needed but this time, Myeonjin tried to do things on his own and it certainly wasn’t the best idea. Giving the older males hands a gentle squeeze, he gave him an apologetic look upon hearing the follow-up question and letting go of Jongin's hand. The money he was given was enough to pay for his books and that was one of the main things he kept needing. “They gave me a little over two thousand. They asked for couple-like photos before the break up for extra and I told them no. I didn’t want to overstep as much as I already did with you…” Myeonjin found it crazy how some social media stars were. They did anything to get some likes and exposure and that just wasn’t something he particularly liked. “I’m sorry I didn’t come to you, I’m sorry for getting myself into that mess. But you… you are quite literally the only person I have ever been this into and this committed to.” And that was true, Jongin had been the only one and that was why Myeonjin was so terrified that he messed things up royally. "Do I have to move my things to the couch for tonight?" Myeonjin couldn't help but ask.

[peachedeyes]

open to f / m / nb . 

" i don't think i'm the one but i could be your girlfriend 'til retrograde is done . "

[caastcwcys]

"I don't... I don't understand. I thought that things were going well," Victoria said softly, her head tilting to the side slightly. "You're letting a retrograde dictate things?"

[caastcwcys]

change of plans, i have a headache but i shall do everything tomorrow. i have stuff in my drafts. :)

[fadinglights]

continued from here, @caastcwcys

it  was  supposed  to  be  a  joyous  day  for  the  screenwriter.  his  script  was  picked  up  by  a  respected  company  and  the  start  of  a  production  was  always  the  most  exciting.  he  didn’t  expect  the  tone  of  his  day  to  have  changed  in  only  a  minute  as  headlines  caught  his  eye  and  for  the  news  regarding  his  boyfriend  to  be  plastered  on  every  forum.  it  is  almost  ironic  enough  to  be  hilarious  —  he’s  the  person  to  write  dramas,  not  the  one  to  be  sinking  it  in.  “oh,  so  you  can  explain  this?  enlighten  me.”  his  gaze  remains  cold  yet  scorching  all  at  once  as  he  waits  for  the  man  to  explain  himself  and  whatever  fiasco  he’s  been  caught  in  the  middle  of.  jongin  rummages  for  his  phone  in  the  pocket  of  his  jeans,  before  swiftly  clicking  on  the  screen.  “you  have  one  minute.”  

[caastcwcys]

The issue is that he was fairly broke and putting himself through university was hard. His stupid choice had come from a moment of desperation, and he happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. Myeonjin knew that his boyfriend was going to be super angry with him and that much was deserved. He hadn't been thinking straight when that social media celebrity stumbled into him at the cafe last week and caused a scene. At the angry words, he couldn't help but flinch slightly while his eyes caught the sight of the photo in question and his stomach turned again, much like it had been all day and on his way home. "I -- I ran into her at the cafe last week and got tied up with her when our drinks got mixed and I guess it looked like we were together because we were talking. She's well-known and people had gotten the wrong idea, word spread and they contacted me, asking me to meet up to stage a break-up." Myeonjin blurted out in a panic. He was fully aware of what an idiot he was but the idea of losing Jongin freaked him out even further. "I was thinking about paying for my school books... I should have run it by you, and I'm so sorry." He finished, looking at the other male with guilt in his eyes.

[seoulxsinners]

"Yeah I'll still eat with you. I'm starving" Taejoon nodded he was a bit upset still but he wasn't going hold it against Jaemin. He sort of understood he had never thought the date was real in the first place. Jaemin was the attractive one not Taejoon but he wasn't ready to admit that. "what were you thinking of eating"

[caastcwcys]

"Okay, thank you," he breathed out in relief. Pushing the menu toward the other male gently, Jaemin offered a small but genuine smile. "I'll cover the bill for kind of being a jackass," the dancer admired the other male carefully. He had nice cheekbones, a sharp jawline and plump lips; he didn't know why more people weren't lining up to take the other out. "Me? I could really go for some pork belly." He mused happily, his eyes lighting up at the sound of food. "So... tell me about you. I know you're hot and seem to have some patience for idiots like me, but that's about it."

[seoulxsinners]

"I'm a demon baby boy" Hoseok said. "I wasn't built to love. to make you feel good maybe to lust for sure but to love no " he smiled then looked at them for a bit. "I could lie to you would you like that?"

[caastcwcys]

Myeonjin frowed further as the explanation was given. He felt used, disappointed and sad all at the same time. "No. Lying would be worse but I do kind of wish that you were honest from the start..."

[seoulxsinners]

"Are you expecting me to judge you?" Taejoon asked watching Jaemin for a bit. "So im a baker your a dancer we each live our life." Taejoon left out that his own cousin had dated at Stripper and that he was still friends with the man despite what Haneul wanted. "So I intrigue you? How so?"

[caastcwcys]

Jaemin blinked slowly at what was said and he shook his head slightly after a moment. "Not you -- but most people do, yes. I dance for people's dirty money, it doesn't sound exceptionally awesome to most people." He pointed out with a sigh. "How could you not? Someone as handsome as yourself was wanting to give me the time of day." Most viewed him as someone you took home after a night out, not someone who was date-worthy. "Still willing to eat with me?"