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All my love is you 💜💙

#me irl #me and charlie girl #charlie girl #pitbull mama #personal #dogs of tumblr #pitbull staffy bulldog mix #mine #one year and many more to go

caffeinatedlittle

Who cries on their birthday?

Me, every fucking year.

#im sure ill cry this year too #My birthday always makes me feel suicidal #Just a constant reminder of how alone I am #and miserable #forever unwanted #unloved and unwanted #forgotten about #I should be used to it #Yet I'm not #JFC #suicidal tendencies #crying on your birthday

I can I please just fucking kill myself already please!!!

#suicidal

letsbeapoemtogether

Intimacy is not just physical. To crave a persons presence and energy rather than just their body is the purest form of intimacy.

i-will-not-be-caged

I feel like we need to talk more about how fucking boring depression can be. I pick up a book and can’t read more than a few sentences, a chapter if I’m lucky, before I can’t focus. I knit two rows of something and then can’t continue. I scroll through all the different options of shows I haven’t watched without clicking on any of them. I hop from app to app looking for content that will spark literally any single emotion. It’s not even 10am and I already feel like I’m just waiting until it’s time to go back to bed.

I hate it I hate it I hate it

#my mood always #depression #sad #actually avpd #borderline personality disorder

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beanybabie

Girls with thick thighs and loud orgasms 😭💕

#you rang?

cnc-pet

I want someone to gently but forcefully guide my head onto their cock. I want them to stroke my cheek and run their fingers through my hair, but whenever I look like I'm about to try to pull away, those fingers grip down and hold me in place. I don't want them to be rough exactly, they're not thrusting in and out of my throat, rather they just push their cock into my mouth and hold it there.

They enjoy the sounds I make, the soft gagging and choking as I try to breathe around them. They know just how much I can take. I want them to keep me in that sweet spot, just on the verge of it being too much, so that I'm squirming and making those pathetic noises, but not panicking or tapping out.

I want them to take deep breaths in response the pleasure I'm giving them. I want them to act so composed and in control, cooing and telling me softly "that's it, just like that" and "shh... you can take it".

Maybe they tell me to look up at them so they can see through my eyes just how gone I am, how they've reduced my whole world down to just them and making them feel good.

Every so often a wave of pleasure hits them just right and their composure flickers a little. They let out a breathy "fuck" and their grip gets a little tighter and their cock shifts a little deeper down my throat.

#oral #oral fixation #cnc #dumbification #mindless

books-and-cookies

i just want to... *deep breath* *sigh* feel pretty and beautiful and smart and worth it and not like i'm wasting my life and i want to not feel like this and i want to not care

#hello me #can you hear me??#personal

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eoin-mcgonigal

living with a personality disorder being like i avoid feeling strong emotions because my brain can't make the difference between strong emotion from watching a movie and strong emotion from actually having my trauma triggered.

so there i am, crying my heart out and having very violent and/or upsetting intrusive thoughts just because i watched a movie that moved me into feeling a lot.....

#this is why i avoid feeling strongly or getting upset #bpd #avpd #actually avpd #avoidant personality disorder #borderline personality disorder #cluster c #cluster b #personality disorder

sorasorakodoku

The realization of not having anyone to talk to or confide in, is like the best bitter sweet moment. You won!! You didn't let anyone in. No one can betray you, no one can use you. No one can lie to you. But also, no can like you, no can care about you. No one can get close you....is it worth it?