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I'm religion, better locked in a box | Picture-perfect image, more powerful every minute | Baby, I am everything that you're not

[cainworship]

🪽 I go by Cain or Mello ♱ he/him ♱ taken

[silkvo1d-deactivated20240411]

[mikeywaygender]

mellodramattic for @loomises

fandom wiki /// love life (matt x mello) /// got milk anymore? - william repass /// unknown /// zhenya katava & neus bermejo /// i wanna be your dog 2 - ajj /// seven devils - florence + the machine /// circe - madeline miller /// love life (matt x mello)

[mellothetic]

– "Mello, if you want to shoot me, shoot"

– ...........

[jessaerys]

the word father rotted in my mouth: i. tom stoppard, rosencrantz and guildenstern are dead. ii. nurnehpetsnur iii. anne carson, plainwater: essays and poetry iv. see notes. v. see notes. vi. genesis 4:9 vii. anaïs nin, winter of artifice viii. see notes. ix. slider.xxxxxxxx x. josh alex baker, death wish. xi. see notes. xii. eric larocca, things have gotten worse since we last spoke xiii. death note, c-kira one-shot. xiv. leah horlick, for your own good, xv. death note manga, L's death, mello's death. xvi. ocean vuong, someday i'll love, xvii. woyaocharlie xviii. death note short stories, a-kira one-shot. xix. anna belle kaufman, cold solace.

notes under the cut.

*iv. artist notoriously hard to track, there's several images on pinterest that are clearly the same style, tried with all of them and they all seem to come from a long deleted 2008 photobucket folder.

v. & viii. the oldest source seems to be long-deleted posts from this blog, which were re-posts.

xi. this is the only source i can find but i don't think it leads to the artist ): please hmu if you have any leads about all of these.

part of the mine and the bestie’s delusional headcanon that near and mello (& matt) did have somewhat of a mentor/mentee relationship with L (fuck them other kids….) whom although genuinely fond of them was a willing participant in the amoral watari industrial complex (did he care to be succeeded? did he find it amusing or an interesting long term project? were the tests and mindfuckery and hot/cold unpredictable behavior and purposeful sowing of a rivalry between them the only model of family and mentorship he knew and was capable of? did he ever really love them? will they ever know? etc etc etc.)

i’m handwaving away the “we only talked to L once” story as skillfully edited by near because 1. he loves to lie and 2. his complicated relationship with L and subsequent grief AND resentment is still wrapped in seventeen thousand layers of emotional repression and who wants to get into that. 3. also makes mello’s comments in LABB about not caring if near is hurt that he knows more about L than near does way funnier. sibling behavior

anyway the both of them have a brotherfatherhero complex the size of TEXAS but thankfully they can sublimate that in the bedroom through creative kinky means. i know the usual "don't ship them!" rethoric is that they're foster brothers but unfortunately that just makes them a billion times more compelling. to me

[deathcooler]

You're in her DMs

I have her blocked

You will understand in time

[heiratemich333]

sweetheart grips

[totalmenswear]

Saint Laurent SS15

[sacred-portal]

[gotyourbibleandyourgun-deactiva]

[whattt07]

[mournfulroses]

Jules Laforgue, from Modern Poets of France: An Anthology; "Lament to Our Lady of the Evenings,"

[xxmyownsummerxx]

Who else up at this ungodly hour with an insatiable yearning that makes them sick to their stomach

[tranquildeath]

[whattt07]

[vorpalfae]

[gotyourbibleandyourgun-deactiva]

Come and take it ~