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Real story of violet and tate

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They will never fade away

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I'm loving the pain I don't wanna live without

Unknown love

How does it feel? Well i can tell you. You feel like you can't live without him, but he don't even loves you back. You slowly drown in a shitty hope feeling. You keep telling yourself "I hope he sees me one day" or " I hope he realize what he lost". But deep down you know it will never happen and it's only your fucking mind. You keep making those stupid decisions for him, well you don't even realize he don't give a fuck about you, he only uses you. He sounds so mean when he speaks and what you do is changing he's voice in your head and you don't even realize that, untill you one day do something silly for him and the whole blame is on you, maybe you'll not even realize it then. You feel like shit, you feel like you're nothing, you feel worthless and useless and it all beacause of him. Is he even worth that much? To you i think so. You will do anything for him. You keep making those made up imaginations about you and him in your head, you do it so often that you start to believe in it. Nothing is so painful like not being loved back. You would give him your heart, mind, body and world. Only if he gave you a chance, but he will not. Guess what? He doesn't even think about you right now and you are so naive to think he might think about you. And in that moment when you realize it, there might run some tears then. Next step is "the unknown love feeling". It's a simple feeling, you begin to realize you'll never kiss him, you will never hold hands with him, he will never say he loves you, he will never call you beautiful, you will never see him curl his lip when he concentrates enough, you will never feel his soft breathe on your skin, he will never touch you in the way you would like to. Although you waited so long, you lost so much, you loved him so much, he will never see it. He will never say IT back. You will never see him blush when you walk into the room. And yeah there will be emptiness without him in your heart for maybe long time. But girl he will never feel your fragile heart. All you know is the feeling he gave you without reciprocity. And that's what we call "the unknown love".