*☆ — burned out

[calvin-knight]

tcmpcest​:

“I will admit, this is just who I am as a person- and I’m learning not to apologize for it, so I’m sorry for how this interaction is going but not for who I am,” she said as she took a step back but gave a smile of confidence before taking a breath and deciding to start over. “Hi, I’m Dana, I panic when people randomly address me, yell at me, or get mad at me- for I have no idea what to do.” She said holding up a thumb before smiling again, “And you are-?” She said trying to make this conversation go in a pleasant direction, but she knew this would go into her memory forever as one of the worst embarrassing interactions she would ever have.

Another laugh escaped him, "I’m pretty sure how this interaction is going is a direct reflection on how you are. Sounds like you’ve got some ways to go. Your therapist must really have their work cut out for them.” He folded his arms across his chest, his eyes casually scanning over her as if he’d get more insight that way. “Calvin,” he finally offered a hand out to her, still unsure if that was a wise decision. “Most people would just yell back.”

[calvin-knight]

xrosebloomx​:

Izabel hadn’t even paid attention to where she was going, she just was out for a walk. At times she was in her own world, not paying attention to the proximity of others as she walked. She didn’t want to hear the thoughts of be of any influence in the thoughts of others. If anything her powers she kept to herself. Not liking that her species can lure, can make one come to them. Though when the person ahead of her turned around so fast, she almost ran into them. Flinching as she stopped. A confused expression on her face. Blinking for a few seconds “What?..” she stated as she gave herself some space. She took a listen to the surroundings “Is it too noisy?” she asked, there wasn’t that much chatter.

Noisy? No, that didn’t bother him, he’d learned to tune that out a long time ago, besides, as far as he could hear, they were the only ones in a hundred foot diameter. And yet, this was the first thing the person in front of him thought of; was her hearing better than his? Calvin narrowed his eyes as he examined Izabel. She looked human, but she had something else about her that told him otherwise. “Not noise,” he didn’t offer any further clarification. “But I’m guess that’s why you’re here?”

[calvin-knight]

lennonxdavies​:

~

Typically around people, Lennon was on guard, tense, ready to attack at the drop of a pin. But even without knowing it was Calvin, Lennon felt a sense of relief wash over him just at his scent. This was a pack member, he was safe. And safety was a new feeling for the young wolf. He liked it though. It was much better than the fear he’d lived in as a human, or the absolute terror of his initial introduction into the life of a werewolf, after being attacked and left for dead. If only he knew that the person who had caused that terror was the same person making him feel safe in a new environment right now, it would shock him to say the least. “The ribbit,” he gestured to his ear after trying to croak like a frog, cringing again to show Calvin how it felt. “It doesn’t process right. It’s not a nice sound.”

He felt even more of a fraud when he felt Lennon relax next to him. This is was what he wanted though, he wanted to be able to offer him support and safety when he had been the one solely responsible for taking that part of his life away. He didn’t know much about Lennon’s past before he joined the pack, Calvin wasn’t one to pry, but if his own experience was any indication, life beforeThe Bite was better. He shoved his feelings down and tried to force a smile to his face, though it wasn’t hard, Lennon was easy to be around. Calvin chuckled, “hey, he can’t help that’s just the way he was made to sound. I guess it works to scare of certain predators.”

[calvin-knight]

leighvaughn​:

Leighton was aware it was obvious. It wasn’t like she was an official school guard, though. The actual ones were further out into the perimeter, currently unseen in the trees. There was only so far the students were actually allowed to go out. So, she chose that hill, the academy itself right behind them. She watched as the other student joined her, laughing quietly at his comment. “Don’t worry, it was just a joke,” Leigh affirmed, eyeing the distance. “Honestly, if anything was out there right now… the school sentries posted further out would sense it first anyway,” she admitted with a shrug. 

He leaned back on his hands as she spoke. “So why are you out here then?” he cocked his head to the side, “if you’re so sure of your guardians’ protection out there.” He understood the edge that the attack had put on everyone. It was made horribly clear that whatever protection measure that were in place previously were nowhere near enough if they needed an extra two packs of werewolves to help when things got gnarly. “Too much adrenaline pent up to lie still in bed and sleep?” he guessed.

[calvin-knight]

zaraxmorales​:

Zara had been following this boy too closely it seemed because he shot around and snapped at her. “Ew.” She stated, not looking up from her phone. “I’m just trying to meet my friends. Sorry, I didn’t think it was a crime to look at my phone and walk fast.” She rolled her eyes at him. 

“You should really learn to control that anger of yours.” She chuckled, raising her brows at him. “Have you been a wolf long?” Zara asked him. “I mean, please don’t ask how I know. We all smell the same.” The brunette said, waving it off. “You know… Now that we’re all here… You’re gonna have to get used to people staring at you, babe.” She rolled her eyes. “Was someone giving you a hard time?” She asked, pouting. “Do you need a hug or something?” She asked sarcastically. 

Now this was a scent he was used to. Calvin may not have been in the most elite pack around if they were going to measure it by pedigree standards, but at least he was in a pack, unlike the girl standing before him. He couldn’t help the sense of superiority seeping into him simply because of that fact, her attitude didn’t make it any better either. “It may not be a crime but walking into people is sure to piss them off.” As much as she was annoying him, the familiarity of her scent was making it easier on him. So much so he was able to slip back into his usual easy-going manner. “Since when does controlling my anger matter as long as I’m not ripping innocents’ faces off?” He rolled his eyes, “do you think this act,” he gestured at her, “is endearing in some way? I have no problem with people staring at me, I know it’s hard to keep your eyes off a masterpiece, that isn’t the issue here.”

[calvin-knight]

lonclyhcartsclub​:

Clara hadn’t really expected the werewolves, but had been delighted when they came. They had saved the town and the young magician didn’t want to think about what would have happened if they hadn’t been there. She had been heading in the direction of Professor Kutlar’s office when one had just so happened to coincidentally wander in front of her. Not that she noticed, of course, considering she hadn’t been paying attention to him and her exhaustion after helping out with the patients from the attack was certainly getting the better of her. Not until the individual turned around with fire in their eyes did she even awknowlage who he was. This of course sent Clara into a flurry of apologies, even though it had been he who snapped at her for no reason. “I- uh- my professor’s office is this way.. I wasn’t- I mean… I wasn’t trying to follow you. I’m sorry.. sorry.” The healer paused, clutching to her books for dear life considering that she was afraid of confrontation. 

Upon seeing her reaction, he rubbed his temples and sighed. He tried to focus on breathing as lightly as possible in any attempt to lighten his mood and salvage the conversation. Making enemies on his first day here was not the way he wanted things to go, nor did he want a reputation of a loose cannon who went around scaring random girls in the hallway. He peered down the dark corridor skeptically; he’d only turned down this way because it seemed like the lights were off and abandoned. “Your professor’s office is down there?” he cocked an eyebrow.

[calvin-knight]

tcmpcest​:

Dana had been coming back from one of the professors office and was glad that she did. They had given her a sense of comfort and she actually found a pep in her step for a moment. She felt like she could breath and move through just today with a sense of peace- only to immediately have that feeling cut off when someone just turned and scolded her out of nowhere. On first glance she noticed he was different than the people she’d known before and wondered if he was one of the werewolves. But her brain didn’t let her properly function, going immediately into panic mode, “I-uh…movement,” she said trying to get out that she didn’t know what he was talking about. Wanting to at least not cry in this movement from the intimidation, “bathrooms, bedrooms, night walks, cars-” she said just listing of different places to find peace.

Laughter bubbled to the surface as the girl in front of his clearly panicked. If she was any indication as to what the rest of the student population was like, it came as no surprise to Calvin how easily the werewolves had been allowed into school and how desperately they had needed their help that night. But her babbling got him out of his bad mood, distracted enough that he wasn’t hyper focusing on all the things that made his head pound. He shot her a quizzical look. “Do I need to take you to the sick bay? Get your head knocked a little too hard yesterday?” While he was making fun of her, he really would have taken her there if she didn’t stop the random ramblings that made no sense to him.

[calvin-knight]

garrickxwan​:

Garrick held up his hands in surrender. “Alright, alright. Calm down, mate.” He said, letting out a small laugh. “I’m one of the professors here. I’m just doing my rounds.” He admitted. Garrick wasn’t trying to sneak up on the kid, he just wasn’t sleeping all that well so of course his senses weren’t all that good. 

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you or anything.” He continued. “I’ve been trying to check on more of the students around here. You’re new right?” He asked casually. 

Calvin scoffed at how his frustration and annoyance could be misconstrued as fear. Even if the man standing in front of him barely looked older, Calvin could tell he was a teacher of some sort. The instinct that was drilled into him to be respectful of anyone in authority overcame his need to be snarky. “Yeah, today’s my first day! How could you tell?” Okay, maybe it didn’t overcome his sarcasm and bad mood enough.

[calvin-knight]

mikkixvolk​:

~

The endless optimism and happiness that seemed to come from Mikki seemed to baffle a lot of people, he was used to the puzzled expressions. They didn’t really seem to faze him. So while he was used to them, he didn’t necessarily connect with them. He was just content being the way he was. “That’s okay, you can always ask. Although I maybe wouldn’t snap at most people, a lot of them aren’t going to respond well to it,” he pointed out, brows furrowing. He looked around the smaller greenhouse and nodded, grinning. “There’s a lot more, if you go around the front of the greenhouse. This is the lesser known part of it. But it’s quiet, and it’s peaceful. That’s what you wanted, right?” Mikki’s fingers danced over the leaves of a larger plant near the entrance. “Do you meditate?”

Calvin shrugged at the suggestion. “Asking isn’t really my thing, it’s easier to beg forgiveness than ask permission.” The quote was probably one of the driving forces behind his life even if he didn’t consciously know it, barrelling headfirst into situations was more his style, even if he was constantly being chastised by his elders for it. He was more than aware of the social cues in society, such as the one Mikki was offering up just then, he just didn’t have the headspace to care about it right now. But it was true that now they were further away from the main halls of the school it was easier for his mind to clear. He coughed out a laugh at the idea that he had the time or lack of energy to sit down for an hour and do nothing. “Mediation isn’t really my thing either. I more wanted to get away from people.”

[calvin-knight]

thecadedawson​:

Since the attack, Cade had basically spent any minute on the academy grounds and only went home to sleep, only to walk back to the library early in the morning. He was still determined on improving his magic as quickly as possible and the fact that there was a whole bunch of werewolves at the academy now, didn’t make things less interesting either. When he was on his way back from the secret library once again though, he quickly realised that he wasn’t the only one who was still feeling pretty on edge. Raising his eyebrows as he stared at the guy who had just spun around and was still glaring at him, the male eventually shrugged. “Not getting anywhere near you it seems…”

Admittedly, Calvin wasn’t the one who just had their safe place invaded and assaulted, so he really had less to be angry about than the rest of the students. But at the same time, it was kind of their fault he was in this mood in the first place. Or at least that’s what he told himself to placate the guilt he felt for snapping at a random bystander who clearly didn’t want anything to do with him anymore. His eyes slid shut as he took a deep breath -- probably not the best idea seeing as inhaling was half his problem. “And yet, here you still are, talking to me.”

[calvin-knight]

lukeorosco​:

Sure, the new environment took some getting used to but at least they had each other. The Allen pack was a family and took care of each other. So, just because Calvin was walking around with a stick up his ass didn’t mean Luke was. But the other wolf was fairly new, so maybe he got a pass. But still. He was following behind his pack mate, just waiting for him to finally realize Luke was there. Once the younger werewolf spun around, Lucas halted and stifled laughter for a moment. “Someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed,” he joked, huffing at that frustrated look in his friend’s eyes. “We’re at a big ass school, Cal. What did you expect?” 

Calvin really should have picked up on the fact that he was being followed a whole lot sooner. He’d blame the adrenaline from the fight still coursing through his veins, heightening his already enhanced senses. He rolled his eyes when he saw who exactly it was that was following him. “That would assume I ever went to bed,” he muttered. “Exactly, we’re in a big ass school, you’d think there would be some place we can go to get away from all this,” he gestured widely at the air. “None of this is bothering you?” his eyes had a tinge of desperation. For over a decade Calvin had been a werewolf, at first he’d thought it was bad getting used to hearing everything, smelling everything...But he’d just had to deal with humans and werewolves, that was it: simple.

[calvin-knight]

mikkixvolk​:

It was exciting to be around the new creatures, the werewolves he’d only read about before. Mikki knew the situation that had brought them here was less than ideal, of course, but he still found the silver lining to be that they were a part of the community now. More creatures working together in harmony, keeping each other safe. There was something profoundly beautiful in that, Mikki thought. Though he supposed he shouldn’t be smiling at the person who stared him down, glaring daggers at him, making his brows furrow and his smile dissipate into an expression of concern. Something was wrong, and he wracked his brain trying to think about what he knew of werewolves, or if perhaps this was just an individual who didn’t handle crowds well, regardless of his species. This was a lot to take in as it was, and without taking a moment to really think things through, he gestured for Calvin to follow him. “You’ve got to go to the places most people choose not to enter,” he explained, leading him to a nearby greenhouse, going along the side to an entrance to a smaller section of it, a place Mikki knew there were very few people besides him who ventured. He held the door open for Calvin, offering another smile. “It’s tough to find the quiet spaces here, but they do exist.”

Calvin’s face morphed into one of confusion as the other simply smiled back at him, seemingly unaffected by his outburst. Well, that was new. This one was easy to identify. It was the scent that consumed half the fight from the night before: dhampir. He couldn’t say that he recognised the man in front of him individually, but it was possible that he wasn’t a part of the fight, or he’d been elsewhere, far from Calvin. He was too surprised at Mikki helping him despite the frosty greeting to do anything but follow the man in front him as they wound through unknown paths. “I don’t even know where are the places most people do enter, it’s kind of hard to figure out the opposite.” Still, he pushed past to enter the greenhouse, looking around cautiously. “Campus as big as this one, you’d think there’d be more.”

[leighvaughn]

@acadiahqstarters​

While she knew that the academy would never let students be official guards around the perimeter, it didn’t stop Leighton from standing out on one of the further hills with the academy at her back. It was like she was on shift, posted as a watcher. Maybe it had become more instinctual after the attack, Leigh’s dedication to wanting to protect. The dhampir heard a noise, glancing over her shoulder and giving the figure an acknowledging look. “Hey,” she greeted. “Feel free to join me. Though… it may not be too exciting,” she admitted with a small smile. A small joke, but when things weren’t exciting, it meant things were quiet. And quiet meant safe.

[calvin-knight]

It was obvious what the girl was doing on the top of the hill, but that was another problem, she was being obvious. Calvin had been on enough perimeter runs to know at least the basics when it came to surveillance. He rolled his eyes as he climbed the hill to join her, sitting on the still slightly damp grass at her feet. “Pretty sure you’re not supposed to assume it’s going to be boring, that’s how you miss things.” He leaned back on his hands and looked out to the horizon -- she probably wasn’t wrong though.

[calvin-knight]

open; @acadiahqstarters​

He never expected he’d have to deal with the soul-crushing anxiety of being the new kid at twenty-seven, but hey, who can predict what life is going to throw at them? It wasn’t just being new and not knowing anyone around - that he could deal with, he always made friends easily - it was the new environment, the new threat, not to mention all the new scents. Being in close proximity to so many different species was completely new to him;  honestly the mixture of everyone and his inability to pick each individual scent out was giving him a migraine. Calvin knew the importance of first impressions but pretty much nothing could take him out of the bad mood physical pain put him in. “What does a guy have to do to get some peace around here?” he whined spinning around, eyes on fire, to face whomever had dared walk near him.

[deactivated-blog]

location: courtyard status: open @acadiahqstarters​

Lennon had always liked the early hours. When the sky was gray and the world was quiet, though he supposed here at Acadia it was rarely as quiet as what he had once been accustomed to. He was sitting cross-legged on the dew-covered grass, restless fingers picking at single blades as he sat, looking like he was waiting for something. Though there wasn’t really anything to wait for, so in actuality he was waiting for anything. And the first ‘anything’ came in the form of a toad that croaked as it hopped close to him. His implants picked up just enough of the rasping sound for him to cringe, looking at the small creature. For a moment he scowled at it, and then the next obnoxious croak was cut short by a growl he hadn’t meant to let out, but it caused the toad to freeze in place and then quickly hop away. Lennon continued to pick at the grass, cheeks flushed as he realized he’d done it again, letting instinct take over instead of having control over his wolf. He was grateful there wasn’t anyone around to hear it, oblivious to the individual just behind him.

[calvin-knight]

Being in a new location never sat well with him; his arrival at the school was no different. Sleep did not come easy to him that night, instead of tossing and turning for another three hours in vain, Calvin decided to venture out -- might as well accustom himself with his surroundings in the dark. As he walked along, he noticed a figure sitting in the middle of a patch of grass, he nearly turned to avoid the person when he visibly flinched upon recognising his back. He could never stop the wave of guilt that rushed over him, not since the first time he lay eyes on Lennon. If anything it was always there as a reminder that he needed to play it extra carefully with the man in front of him. “What did that toad ever do to you?” he chuckled, walking around to stand in front of Lennon.

[emmaxhughes]

@calvin-knight​​

Emma sighed. This was going to be annoying. None of them knew the rules, none of them had any idea what was going on. She walked around campus with a permanent frown. Out of the corner of her eye, she glanced around at someone who she didn’t recognize. “Hey! You! You!” She pointed at him. “You’re not supposed to be touching that.” Emma told them. “I really don’t wanna be a snitch but things around here are fuckin’ old, so I would be pretty careful if I were you.” She continued. 

[calvin-knight]

Calvin was used to old things: architecture, artifacts, you name it. It was just the kind of thing he grew up surrounded by in Europe; it was kind of the continent’s one defining feature. Still, the supernatural world was novel enough to him that these kind of things interested him. Wandering around unaccompanied was actually one of his better pastimes, it meant if he did something a little under the table, there would be no witnesses. He jumped a little at the sudden burst of sound that came from behind him. He spun around, object in hand, to face the woman. He cocked an eyebrow with a smile spread across his face. “What’s the big deal?” he shrugged. “Look, as long as I don’t break it, you really don’t need to worry about being a snitch, if that’s what you’re worried about.”

[elaxozerk]

@calvin-knight​​

“Oh! you’re new, I know it.” Ela said, walking over to him and flashing a smile. “Tell me, were you one of those amazing giant wolves that saved my life?” The brunette asked with a smirk. “I mean, truly, thank you. If we were able to use our powers, I feel like we totally could have handled ourselves but…” She placed her hand over her heart. “My hero. I am forever in your debt.” The moroi told him. “I’m Ela. Ela Özerk.” She said, extending her hand for him to shake. 

[calvin-knight]

“Unfortunately, I don’t think I was personally responsible for saving your life in particular, but I’d gladly do it in the future.” He smiled wide at the immediate compliment the girl threw his way, whether it was actually directed at him or just about his pack, the pride was the same. “Why aren’t you able to use your powers? School rules or you just don’t know how to yet?” he scrutinised the girl; she didn’t seem young or inexperienced enough that the latter could be the case. “Calvin Knight,” he took her hand. “So should I expect every night to be as exciting or is this more of a one off thing?”