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DID Polyfragmented System /// Host is literally Mika Kagehira // Collectives are It/Its and They/Them

[candyland-toybox]

Attention Followers and Newcomers

This blog, starting today (12/14/22) will be logged out of and abandoned. I will not be deleting this blog in order to preserve my growth. Consider it an archive. Because of the fact that I will be officially logging out, all my side blogs will too be abandoned. I may occasionally log back in, just to check notifications and check up on those blogs, but for the most part, I will not post on these blogs anymore.

However, because I am not quitting tumblr, my new blog is @rotten-heartthrob. I will mostly be posting about my journey as fictionkin, along with my system shenanigans. It won’t be a serious blog for the most part, but some posts may be more serious.

Along with that, I would like to remind everyone that I take fictionkin seriously, and the characters I “kin” are literally me. Please do not use my posts tagged as kin posts on non-kin blogs.

More info will be found in the pinned of my new blog, any questions about this blog can be sent over there.

I will be reblogging this onto my side blogs, and I apologize to people who sent requests to those blogs for my writings. If I do ever sign back into this account, I will do my best to get to you all.

Thank you for being a part of this blog.

[house-ad]

[enstarsmusic-en]

Please. I'm begging you.

CHRISTMAS HiMERU PLEASE

Sorry Producer, it seems HiMERU has converted to Judaism, and no longer celebrates Christmas! Happy early Hannukah! 🕎

[candyland-toybox]

going back to soundcloud to listen to hit vocaloid horror classic dark woods circus and look at the comments to find my cringe self from three years ago only to see someone sent me a death threat/sui bait (three years ago mind you) and idek what i said because i deleted it but i’m pretty sure it was a stupid copypasta “post this to five song” bs.

soundcloud is wild man idk

[candyland-toybox]

guys where can i find that one post where it’s someone talking about eichi dying and it ends with “this really was our ensemble star” I CANT FIND IT ANYWHERE

[candyland-toybox]

me being mentally ill is like idk what’s going on and i simply cannot know

i’m having those size shifting episodes again :(

[candyland-toybox]

quotes from the brain but it’s 90% scaramouche if not 100% scaramouche because he’s like the only other alter in front aside from me

cw mild unreality

i feel like the face in the vent followed us home

i want to listen to homosexual songs

i thought you were bae

(playing mario kart with cousin) just get good man idk what to tell ya

(*im silly x10*)

(when host thinks he has psychosis) is god gonna keep dropping mental illness on you like he’s bringing you the gift of a ring pop and shiny things he found in the trash

does monster energy actually turn your pee green?

(playing genshin) if we do my boss fight i will cry in your face

[candyland-toybox]

i feel like for the most part an 18+ dni isn’t gonna keep me and other minors from looking at least. i mean i won’t interact but it won’t stop me from peeking

[enstarsmusic-en]

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[candyland-toybox]

the notes are so funny to me because i’m pretty sure some of these ppl are normal tumblr users that don’t know what enstars is

[candyland-toybox]

hey man idk about you but like because i haven’t had a childhood where i could fully immerse myself in a fictional setting i’m gonna become mentally ill now

[candyland-toybox]

Is your pinned post supposed to spell “b r i a n” and not “b r a i n”? /lh

yeah lol i meant it to be misspelled because it’s funnier that way

[candyland-toybox]

i’m gonna make a did meme post eventually i prommy

so much shit goes on in this think can

[candyland-toybox]

love how my follower count is slowly tanking 🥰

[candyland-toybox]

daily reminder i don’t want pro-endos and supporters on my page btw. i really do not care what you have to say. i don’t want you to interact.

[candyland-toybox]

ok so i’ve been thinking abt how a lot of our system has seemingly “not existed” and were “actually kins” (i.e. our gorou fictive who i know was an alter because he fronted a few times and i’m pretty sure there were a few memory blocks from then? idk tho) and this has led me to try to find out if this has happened to us or anyone else.

ik did systems are pretty unique in how they function outside of how they form, since not every system functions the same (outside of formation, but even then trauma is diverse) so that made me think; can fictive alters fuse into hosts? ik it’s possible for alters to fuse into each other, but if a fictive fuses into the host, does the host then become a fictive? and what about if multiple fictives fuse into the host? what would that make them? also in general what term can be used for alters/fictives who are “more than one fictive”?

did any other systems experience this? i’m genuinely very curious about this since, if it does happen and there’s terms for it (by and for traumagenic obv, i don’t really prefer endo made terms unless we can reclaim them i.e. fictive and factive), i’d really like to know. i tried “claiming my own terms” in relation to this, but i don’t wanna seem like one of those endos who turn a serious disorder into a mogai identity (nothing against mogai btw, i just don’t like endos). if anyone wants to share their experiences/any info they have on this feel free to!

[candyland-toybox]

y’all i got reblogged by the sysmed watchdog lol 💀

daily reminder endos don’t exist and idc if you think they do you’ll get blocked either way

[candyland-toybox]

i’m thinking about temporarily logging off this account in favor of my kin account. idk i’d just rather cultivate that than this