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introduction

my name is delta, i’m 24, i use any pronouns, im transmasc and on T

i’m diagnosed with ADHD, BPD, C-PTSD, schizoaffective bipolar type, and OCD

i’m in quasi-recovery from bul1m14

i’m also physically disabled. i’m diagnosed with hEDS, POTS, seizure disorder, sensorineural hearing loss, scoliosis, grade 1 spondylolisthesis pars defect, and am being evaluated for MS

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This is a vent blog, triggering topics will come up. I try to tag everything properly but if you need a trigger warning for something, please let me know and I’ll tag it appropriately

#intro post #ehlers danlos syndrome #heds #spondylolisthesis #chronic migraine #chronic pain #actually schizospec #schizoaffective #actually ocd #actually borderline

i know none of this will matter in the long run,

but i know a sound is a still a sound around no one

#vent #ed mention #tw ed trigger #tw ed behaviour #i’m relapsing currently #again #i had a bad relapse in october/november of last year #and i was in a fairly stable spot once i found better meds #but now it’s coming back #obsession with body image & weight loss #im not counting calories at least #but i feel so dysmorphic and ugly #i want to purg3 #but i wont #ugh #just restricting

YOU HAVE NOT BEEN PAYING ATTENTION

PAYING ATTENTION, PAYING ATTENTION

YOU HAVE NOT BEEN PAYING ATTENTION

#vent #radiohead #radiohead lyrics #i’m so so so so overwhelmed #and tired #and unsure and insecure #blech #idk what to do and i hate ambiguity #im That kind of neurodivergent where i Need to know exactly what the plan is down to the second #and this is a transition period for me #i feel like im drowning but no one rly cares too much #im living my dream so why am i so stressed and miserable #why is it never enough

it’s my birthday today (yippee) and i fell on ice and hurt my back so. bad. i went to urgent care bc it hurt to sit in class. the doctor tells me she thinks it’s bruised but wants me to go get x-rays. so i get them and i read the notes and it says i have anterolisthesis in L5/S1 and bilateral pars defect.

the doctor explained that because i had previous spondylolysis and have hEDS, my spine was already a bit unstable and weak. and the trauma from the fall probably caused the vertebra to slide forward. and i bruised my tailbone :(

and im not joking, it’s so incredibly painful. it’s unbearable at times. and i was given nothing for pain management. all i have is tylenol, tiger balm, heating pad, and weed. i’m dying, at its worst it’s an 8 but it’s averaging a 7. it hurts so incredibly bad to sit down or change positions. like i’ve been on the verge of tears multiple times throughout the day. it’s so painful.

i’m calling ortho tomorrow to see if they can help address this. i need some pain management, it gets unbearable. i’m blindly hoping i feel better tomorrow but it’ll probably hurt even worse in the morning.

ugh happy birthday to me ig

#vent #actually disabled #anterolisthesis #spondylolisthesis #pars defect #bruised tailbone #coccyx injury

okay so my old account got nuked :/ anyways i’m back! just gotta be more careful about how i say/tag stuff 🙄😒

#vent #actually borderline #actually schizospec #actually disabled

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