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@canwetalkabouted
repost if u break the stereotype of Eds
you eat once a day/ u don’t always fast 24/7
you’re not bones
you don’t openly talk about it lile it’s a big problem
you don’t want treatment
you don’t think you’re sick enough for treatment
you can’t purge
EATING DISORDERS AREN’T WHAT THE MEDIA TELLS YOU
feel free to add!♡➹★
“Disordered Eating” Things
- Simultaneously eating like a normal person and mentally lashing yourself for it.
- Not eating when you feel angry or sad, but then a few hours later you eat a bag of chocolate marshmallows because you somehow convince yourself it doesn’t count.
- “I shouldn’t have done that”
- Looking at thinspo at night and crying because you feel ugly
- The 5th grader pitch screaming in your head as you take another bite of food.
- a week of super healthy eating and working out followed by two weeks of unhealthy eating
- constantly shifting of wanting to look like a toned fitness model, to a thicc slim, to a skeleton fairy
- *eating something* *someone comments on the thing you are eating* *stops eating thing* *50/50 chance you may eat it later*
- oh yeah, random moments of eating something before spontaneously destroying the food or tossing it
- “Okay, after this weekend, I’m fasting”
- wishing you were anorexic knowing you shouldn't
- body dysmorphia
- Calling it disordered eating because you don’t feel deserving of calling it an ed
me: *eats a full meal*
my ed: u look like this now lol
Had de worst night yesterday...
Anxiety af.
I just ate 537 calories today.
I HATE MYSELF
I WANT TO BE SKINNY NOW.
best feeling in the world? leaving the kitchen without having eaten anything
Things they don’t tell you about Eating Disorders in health class.
A lot of people paint it as if we don’t recognize our behavior is wrong. Quite frequently, we do. We just don’t care.
It’s not just anorexia and bulimia and binge-eating disorder. There are a million ways to suffer without fulfilling strict criteria.
The stigma against bulimics & other EDs within ourselves; Regardless of what disorder you have, if you can’t starve yourself enough, you see yourself as less than other people with EDs.
The desire to take drastically dangerous measures to lose weight like poisoning yourself to purge or actually cutting off your fat, even if you don’t actually partake in those methods.
How you can know a tip won’t actually help you lose weight but you do it anyways on the chance it can burn at least one extra calorie.
We love food. We LOVE it. We don’t want to not eat, we just can’t.
It’s not like those shitty fake movies where the anorexic doesn’t eat anything but popcorn for a month. You may fast for a few hours-a few days, you immediately binge, then you fast for a few days and binge again. It’s a cycle that repeats itself constantly, not a stagnant diet.
Purging is hard as fucking hell and is not always as easy as just putting one finger down your throat a few times to vomit.
You never lose weight exactly where you want to; You’ll become flat chested in a few days but it will take you months to trim down your thighs.
Noticing our behavior is a compliment; Sometimes we want you to see what we are doing to lose so much weight, we just don’t want you to stop us.
The sheer panic attacks you suffer from because even when you perfectly measure out your portions, you’re afraid of upsetting your intake by one single calorie because there is no way to be 100% sure.
Feel free to add your own. x
• Waking up with a sore throat and chapped af lips that may as well bleed.
• When you’re purging and there’s blood but you keep going because you’re scared to digest anything in fear of weight gain
• Damaging your organs because of lack of nutrients, electrolytes etc in general. Sometimes even permanently e.g rupturing your oesophagus.
• I cannot even begin to explain how mentally damaging it is to think that you could have even been 0.1 kg skinner if you had eaten nothing rather than one grape or a brownie.
• Can we talk about the frustration? When you’re so sick of having an ED you just break down and cry, wanting to scream?
• Having scabs/wounds on your knuckles from purging.
• Passing out/feeling mega dizzy because you’re literally starving your body of the nutrients it needs.
• Seeing everything as a number of calories, literally. The mucus in your nose, the sugar free gum, calcium in milk, a straw berry, a cookie- everything is just numbers now.
• The stigma that it’s easy to recover?? ‘Just eat’-no, it’s so hard when we live in a world where everything is telling us skinner is prettier (diet pills, photoshop, family meetings, literally everywhere you go)
• Having headaches all the time, literally.
• The stigma that all with ED’s exercise CONSTANTLY, majority just starve, calorie restrict to the extreme or purge. Most of us would likely even be too weak to exercise properly because of what we do to ourselves.
The stigma that every person with an eating disorder is a white middle class girl with threshold anorexia (restrictive subtype more specifically, vomit is too icky to talk about for most unless it’s bulimia but it’s just an afterthought)
Even if you fall into that demographic, you still should be taken seriously because anorexia is deadly
Lower income households are more likely to suffer from binge eating disorder
On the topic of race, anyone from any race can have an eating disorder
Disordered eating does NOT mean eating disorder, many people are pathological dieters but don’t have an ED
Confusing the two means that people think diet = ED but it’s not that simple
The genuine fear of realizing you can’t shit without some kind of stimulant whether it be laxatives or caffeine or something else
You can abuse laxatives to the point that your ass essentially atrophies and you need to remove it and replace it with a bag that fills with waste outside your body that you have to dump
You can be freezing, lose hair, pass out, have heart palpitations, and many other health consequences and NOT be anywhere NEAR underweight. You can be obese and have the same physical consequences of malnutrition as someone who is a threshold anorexic if you restrict
Self harming because of calories and weight gain
Sometimes it’s “vanity” or the quest to adhere to beauty standards that causes eating disorders, especially in the west, but people forget that it can also be a desire for control, can be triggered by trauma, a divorce or break up, a major rejection, pregnancy, bullying, genetics—it’s not always “I want to feel pretty” and even if it is, it’s just as serious
“But the starving children in Africa!!1!1!!” The guilt of eating overrides the guilt of ungratefulness, you’re not helping
Eating disorder rituals and thoughts are similar to OCD. The two disorders are actually highly co-morbid. Hence why the whole “just eat” doesn’t work. It’s like saying to an OCD sufferer who compulsively washes their hands to “just stop washing your hands”
If you have an eating disorder, you likely have other mental health problems
It’s not like the movies where you become anorexic and then get tube fed and recover and are fine. Very few people get tube fed and there are very limited treatment centres, and limited beds. By the time they consider admitting you into residential or inpatient, it could be too late. Not to mention the fact that your insurance can run out.
MANY people cross-over between eating disorders, often multiple times. (Example: you can swap anorexia for BED or bulimia for atypical anorexia, etc etc)
Your social life, self-image, family, school and work, and pretty much every single area of life is negatively impacted
If you have an eating disorder (especially anorexia or atypical anorexia) when you’re younger, you CAN ACTUALLY stunt your growth—and I’m living proof, because I did. I should be at least an inch taller.
Binging and starving cycles are the WORST and so painful because you feel powerless if you’re starving and powerless if you’re binging
Purging isn’t limited to vomiting: other compensatory methods include over-exercising, abusing laxatives and diuretics, as well as abusing other medications
Lying to your doctors is common
Flying under the radar because you don’t look sick enough and then one day your heart gives out and everyone wonders why you’re dead until the autopsy reveals your insides were a mess and we don’t talk about this enough
OSFED makes up 38% of all eating disorders, and includes atypical anorexia, short duration or low frequency bulimia/BED, night feeding syndrome, and purging disorder AND THEYRE JUST AS DANGEROUS AND EQUALLY SERIOUS. Used to be EDNOS. It’s not all anorexia/bulimia/BED, as was pointed out above.
Non-fatal car crashes can kill people with EDs because our hearts and bodies aren’t strong enough to withstand the impact that an otherwise healthy person could get through with a few bruises or fractures
THOUSANDS of dollars going towards fixing the damage you do to your body that could be used for school, rent, retirement savings, etc etc etc. (Do you still think it’s a choice???)
Also money going towards buying binge foods. Food can be very expensive, especially if you buy it in very large quantities. People drain their accounts and go into credit card debt because of binge eating.
MEN HAVE EATING DISORDERS TOO
Gay men and bisexual men/women are more likely to have an eating disorder compared to straight men/women and lesbians
Dropping out of school (I almost got kicked out of university because my grades plummeted, and my ED was a big part)
I know this is recognized but it needs to be said @ “A lot of people paint it as if we don’t recognize our behavior is wrong. Quite frequently, we do. We just don’t care.” Some of us DO care. We try to get better but we can’t. We want to be healthy whether it be for ourselves, our kids, our SO, or who/what ever. But we can’t stop.
You can recover from an eating disorder and relapse and it is still an eating disorder regardless of whether you were in recovery for 2 days, 3 weeks, 6 months, or 10 years. It is still an eating disorder and it is still valid. You are not faking your eating disorder because of a previous recovery.
^On that note ^
Eating disorders often start out in ways that make people {even ourselves} believe it’s not really an eating disorder. Such as: Restricting/purging/etc. to lose weight for an event or before seeing someone you haven’t seen in a long time, as a method of self destruction or prolonged suicide, because you just want to be pretty, or EVEN because someone you know is doing it and you want to lose weight too. How it starts is not what defines it as real or fake. It can start in the most seemingly trivial way and still be just as much of an eating disorder as anyone else’s. The thing that turns these situations from something you did once to something you can’t stop, is the results. The number on the scale, the looks on people’s faces or the things that they say about your weight loss. It does not matter how your eating disorder started. Are you listening? It. Does. Not. Matter. You know, statistically, if you have an eating disorder or not. Do not invalidate yourself because you aren’t strict enough, or thin enough, or because the way you got your ED “isn’t how it works”.
idk if those “spells” work but………. somehow it’s working, is it a placebo? anyways 10 lbs weight loss spell!
like to charge
reblog to release
I’ve lost almost 10lbs in 2 weeks so something is working 😂 PLEASE DON’T STOP WORKING
I lost 10.1lbs in 13 days omgggggg I need to lose another 10 🤞
Pleasee
Can’t wait until after quarantine when I see my friends and they do a double take at how different I look. I’m using this time for a glow-up and once I lose weight I have a whole makeover plan.
I ATE 230 KCAL TODAY HOW DO I STILL FEEL FAT
Things have changed and it’s taken me a lot to notice it.
In the beginning:
I didn’t think about food much because it was only the start, I could find things to focus on for a week or two to completely distract me.
I kept reminding myself to not back out of this, but I wasn’t scared to lose count of calories, I just wanted to get skinny.
I didn’t weigh myself for a week or two so I could see a difference each time I stepped on the scale. I didn’t want to obsess.
I made excuses for eating certain foods and wouldn’t measure things as thoroughly around people.
I would feel bad about a binge, but purging wasn’t even considered.
I thought 1,500 calories a day was a diet. I thought that that was peak health and I could get somewhere by keeping my calories there.
Now:
All I think about is food. When I get to eat it, what I can eat, the highest volume for the lowest calories. I dream about a day I can eat chicken tenders again.
I count every single calorie I eat, and overestimate to be sure. Weight loss is a goal, but I don’t see how I can go back once I’ve reached it. I count everything.
I step on the scale 5 or 6 times a day. I need to see what weight I’m at. Need to see how far I’ve come. I have three separate count downs until I should reach my goal weight. I update them every day and check them every few hours.
I feel bad for eating a more than 300 cals. I look for hours at grocery stores for zero calorie options. I try to find substitutes. I wish I could eat everything but the numbers won’t allow it. I push around my food on the plate at family dinners and count every bite I take.
Pasta, fatty meat, sweets, anything that in itself is over 200 calories will not stay in my stomach. I don’t purge often, but it’s alway an option for when I’m weak.
I want to fast. I want to prove myself to my ed. I want to feel my stomach in pain. I want to be skinny.
What I’ve learned:
I realize that this is dangerous, and people say there is “no easy way to lose weight.” But this isn’t easy. It’s not fun. It’s not easier than working out every day, so stop acting like I’m doing this because I’m looking for a quick fix. This is a habit now. A habit that will be hard to break once I reach my goal.
I am pro-recovery. I know it’s going to be difficult for me. And I wish I wouldn’t have gone down this path in the first place. Because once you start, you realize it’s never enough.
sometimes I think I’ll never see progress in my body and I’ll be stuck looking like this forever. I don’t want to look like this anymore, I hate it.
284 calories intake
413 calories burned
-129 💥
my new roommate said that her last roommate had an eating disorder and then talked to me about her clean eating and weight loss goals and how she buys clothes that are a little snug to motivate her to lose more
and like honestly? i have anorexia but this is why i constantly talk about the dangers of the “health and fitness” industry and diet culture bc we have essentially normalized certain symptoms of disordered eating but it’s ok if it’s under the guise of health i guess???
like how is calling it “clean” eating NOT a way to moralize food
how is intermittent fasting NOT the same thing as skipping meals
how come when i buy clothes that don’t fit, it’s something i have to tell my therapist about because it means i am putting pressure on myself to fit into them, but if a “normal” person does it then it’s just motivation for them?
where is the fucking line???
and more importantly when are we going to start acknowledging that the entire world is pro-ana but that’s too harsh of a description so we slap some health buzzwords on it to make it palatable
when are we going to take responsibility for encouraging disordered behavior instead of labeling those of us with EDs as the crazy/imbalanced ones
your fucking Whole30 or keto or whatever “clean” diet you’re on is just as restrictive as the diets we create for ourselves due to our disorders. but we are the crazy ones, right
Fucking repost.
QUESTION ED COMMUNITY!
I think I’m stuck in a plateu, I’m eating less than 400 calories per day... but I don’t see any changes in my weight.
I go up and down 3 lbs... I don’t know why :( HELP
