Hello, I'm very new in this app, and I'd like to share something with you.
So, few days ago, I had pretty bad meltdown, I'm not sure why or how it started, all I can recall is me crying and my mom trying to calm me down.
I tried to explain to her, how I'm always feeling as if my brain was broken or as if it just wasn't working right. How there are so many things I don't see "normal" people do. Then she casually told me: "Well, it might be because of your ADD." Then I asked her what she meant. Turned out, all those times when I had to go see therapist once a year was because of my add.
No-one ever told me the reason, so I went along with it. Because of my very first homeroom teacher (which was, like my mom calls her psycho since, I was bullied because of her) send me to get tested because I was weird or something.
To be honest, for few years I though it was normal, that kids had to see specialists to help them study. Like I mentioned, I never thought much of it, never wondered what was the reason for all this. In the last two years my mental health gotten worse (I'm sure I have severe anxieties), and sometimes I do weird things I never did before, so I felt like I was starting to get crazy or insane or something.
So after my mom explained to me why I went to therapist, why stopped going here ("it didn't help anything so it was pointless") I started hiperfixating about add/adhd/autism/ocd and other mental illnesses (I'm proud of myself I know what those terms mean) and it made me feel the most happiest in a long time, when i realized I'm not the only one who have these kinds of problems ! Who does these little things that might be weird for other people !
It just is refreshing to know it is daily basis for many people ! They all might know and/or realize that many people around them absolutely doesn't do it (Like can you believe, "normal" people can't hear music 24/7 in their head or just some long monologue/conversation with myself ?).
What I wanted to say, was this: I've been diagnosed with add for almost 10 years, found out only now and I finally know why I felt different.