puppii

he/him beautiful sickly angel

[carnald3cay]

a penny for your thoughts,but a dollar for your insides.

or a fortune for your disaster

intro post

hi there. welcome to my shitty intro post. you can call me decay or bat or puppii because i dont want my real name tied to this account. im a boy & i strictly go by he/him. my asks are open if anyone actually finds this account. dont be shy, i love talking and oversharing. im really only making an intro post because i find it fun.

this is my #second secret side blog because someone i care about found my slop. i originally made this account for one specific reason but that reason’s a secret. so now it’s my slop blog. i will make posts related to self harm. those will be tagged accordingly, duh, but this is a warning.

i am so pro-recovery,, however you are not going to find pro-recovery posts here im sorry lmao. fair warning for that. if you’re struggling please reach out for help and stop scrolling through sh posts on tumblr dot com. or do. i’m not your dad. i never claimed to be. i frankly dont want to be.

i love bandom and i love rpf and i love dddne bandom and i’m a freak. i will most definitely post about these things when i’m not caught up in being a dramatic bitch. watch out!!

bullshit text posts will be tagged #rotslop

any sh related posts will be tagged #dollar for your insides

any bandom posts will be tagged #sing you to sleep

asks will be tagged #rotten responses

reblogs will be tagged #dear studio audience

that’s all for now. bye

i saw god cry in the reflection of my enemies,,

and all the lovers with no time for me.

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i feel absolutely repulsive why dont you want me sexually anymore. i want to be wanted. i want you to want me and tell me you want me and tell me how you want me and now i just feel so gross i could cry

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i just wanted you to compliment me. i just wanted a few dirty words lol. now i just feel gross

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why can’t it never be about me. it’s never ever ever about me. why cant i be upset. why do i have to be the one comforting.

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sabotaging all good things that come to me because i get sour over one little thing

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i get really sick to my stomach when i give people what they want because im jealous of them

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making myself give someone attention and comfort even when i feel awful because i know that i wouldn’t want to be denied love either

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was going to cut and then i realized clean up is god awful.+ im too tired.+ there’s always tomorrow

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tomorrow has come. beautiful how life works because boy oh boy. im ready.

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everything i do makes me want to rip my organs out oh my god

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the type of nerves that make you extremely sick to your stomach

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can you love and care about me again. i really miss feeling like someone’s baby. thanks

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i feel like i’ve been dry begging for comfort and sweet words all night and now i just feel like a jackass.dude.fuck my life

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was going to cut and then i realized clean up is god awful.+ im too tired.+ there’s always tomorrow

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my boyfriend has actual hobbies and in my freetime i take half naked photos and cut and smoke cigarettes and soft launch him playing dolls with me

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there’s a small ass razor blade somewhere in my bed right now im freaking the fuck out?? where did it go?????

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#retrieved

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there’s a small ass razor blade somewhere in my bed right now im freaking the fuck out?? where did it go?????

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i could kill myself and she’d miss my funeral for some fuck shit i swear to god