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SUMMARY: Four women on a bachelorette trip camping in a remote stretch of the Mojave desert encounter terrifying locals amongst the rocky terrain.

Have you seen Dead Rock (2024)?

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Voting ended onMay 2

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The Hanged Man. Art by Jabari Weathers, from 78 Tarot Magical.

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The Hanged Man. Art by Jabari Weathers, from the 78 Tarot 10th Anniversary Deck.

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The Hanged Man. Art by Abigail Larson, from the Horror Tarot.

#Abigail Larson #The Hanged Man

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these are my go-to activities to increase my dopamine levels when i'm feeling sad or anxious 𓏲 ࣪˖♡𓂃

⊹ making a little drink for myself ⊹ working on a page in my coloring book ⊹ curating a new playlist ⊹ crafting a snack plate ⊹ planning my day/week/month ⊹ cleaning my space — digital or physical ⊹ treating myself by buying something special ⊹ painting my nails a fun colour ⊹ putting on a nice outfit and accessorizing ⊹ perfecting a new recipe ⊹ having a good conversation with friends ⊹ burning a candle that matched the exact vibe.

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Tori Amos “Potential Sinner” tee

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something I appreciate about Tori Amos across most of her oeuvre but especially in To Venus and Back (TVAB) is her ability to play with dissonance and put elements which you wouldn't expect to belong together on the same sound/musical plane. like with Boys with Pele's confrontational stabs at gruesome femininity, TVAB is where tori pairs world-weary innocence with an ubiquitously uncaring & indifferent, even amoral state of the world -- she sings about some incredibly upsetting topics like the Juarez atrocities, a plane crash, or socially claustrophobic settings/anxiety attacks all in fresh ways. it's not the innocence of naivete but the kind of innocence which traumatic or abuse survivors are familiar with: an innocence which comes from starting from ground zero, from having nothing because the foundations of your world were turned upside down and built on unstable ground.

the first words I associate with TVAB are atmospheric but also subterranean; sonically TVAB is very electronica-heavy with a tiny bit of industrial influence, which makes it retro and futuristic at the same time. that kind of electronic DNA imo also subconsciously calls to mind the grime, the mechanised toil of everyday existence. there's no such thing as divine intervention available in this musicscape -- god is dead, no angel is coming, pretty much, to riff off Juarez. TVAB is an underworld or shadow-realm of signs and the repressed subconscious. whether it's singing about a twin or double or sister (Suede), sexual archetypes (Lust), the inescapability of someone who made you (Bliss), or the sparse, surreal emptiness of a war's aftermath (Josephine), TVAB deals a lot with unexpressed absences and voids.

what this leads to, I think, is a constant interplay between choice and agency or lack thereof in TVAB's songs: do you know who's directing the strings, especially if it's you, but a part of you you don't have control over or have full cognizance of? full disclosure, I don't know the first thing about music theory. but the songs on TVAB are incredibly controlled and all engineered according to tori's unparalleled musical vision but they are set against lyrics which talk about anxieties over escalation, over spiralling or going off the deep end, over approaching an asymptote of irreversible consequence (Concertina: "I know the truth is in between the first and the fortieth drink"). Concertina for instance is one of my faves off TVAB and the song structure appears to be cyclical, so that even if tori's voice seems to be riding its waves that cyclicality contributes to the song's vibe that it's talking about something inevitable which the narrator is helpless to stop, even as she's aware of it.

even some of the live performances of songs from other albums that made it onto TVAB have this vibe -- I'm thinking of The Waitress (Live) which is seriously godly, where the drumbeats resemble the rhythm of a heartbeat, accelerating as the narrator meets her nemesis (the titular waitress which she wants to kill), until a nicely ambiguous ending where tori hyperventilates and it's unclear whether she's breathing hard because she just killed someone or had sex or merged with her nemesis, or all three at once.

#tori amos

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SUMMARY: A young woman is invited by her girlfriend, who lives in an English country mansion, to stay there with her. The estate, however, isn't quite what it seems and neither is the friend who issued the invitation.

Have you seen Symptoms (1974)?

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Voting ended onFeb 10

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SUMMARY: Chris Sam and his family, from suburban Connecticut, disappear suddenly. A friend, Jairus, sets up a film crew to find them in upstate New York.

Have you seen Shedim (2020)?

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Voting ended onFeb 9

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SUMMARY: Undeterred by news of a classmate's recent suicide, five teens gather in a dark and legendary woodland for an evening of scary fun and awaken a demonic presence that seizes upon their deepest fears.

Have you seen Nightlight (2015)?

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Voting ended onMar 25

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SUMMARY: A teenager investigating mysterious murders in his small town discovers a collection of VHS tapes that could reveal the identity of a notorious serial killer.

Have you seen He's Watching You (2024)?

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Voting ended onMar 7

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