24 pieces of fish side by side

medically recognized BPD , suspected NPD traits

[carp-24]

content warnings—

lots of venting

codependency

mentions of sexual content

self-harm / suicide (may include mentions, descriptions, or art)

disordered eating (specifically binge-restrict)

abuse / trauma (specifically child sexual and emotional abuse)

negative stuff in general

minor

bpd (semi-diagnosed???) + npd traits (suspected) + gad (diagnosed) + asd (suspected)

she/her

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BYF:

- i cant feel platonic love

- i am horrible with social cues and tone please tell me if i come off weird

DNI:

- basic DNI

- radqueers and pro-contact paras

- antishippers; anyone who uses fiction as an excuse to harass others; puritans in general. i’m not a proshipper but stay away from me please and thank you 🙏🙏🙏🙏

- proshippers who actively post proship content

- zionists

- generative ai supporters

- people who post gore

- anti-recovery

- <13yo

art in my pfp is by me

alsoalso hard block me, i won’t know if you soft block

[writingdose]

a million times this. “I don’t like these xyz fics” then don’t read them. THEY ARE NOT FOR YOU!!!!!!! no one forces you to read anything you don’t want to read. no one forces you to consume art you don’t enjoy. it’s so easy to click that mute or block button. instead of insulting fanfics or fan art for not fitting your personal liking, either choose something that does fit your personal liking, or write the fic you want to read yourself / draw the art you want to consume yourself.

fanfic writers and fan artists create as THEIR hobbies. they create for themselves and their own enjoyment. they don’t create for strangers’ approval

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

the reason why I don't take cancel culture seriously and why I think it's just a means to justify harassment is that every time someone is cancelled on social media (mostly twitter), it's always because "they ship this ship / they write fanfics about xyz / they draw art about xyz, and these xyz are bad!!!!! they're fiction, but ewww they're disgusting, so instead of curating my own internet experience by blocking/muting what upsets me, I will harass them over fiction instead; this way people know I am morally superior by 1.) not condoning taboo fiction 2.) harassing real people over it" and every single time I see these call-out posts, I'm looking at these morally superior bullies like

anyway someone’s 👏🏻 taste 👏🏻 in 👏🏻 fiction 👏🏻 does 👏🏻 not 👏🏻 reflect 👏🏻 their 👏🏻 real-life 👏🏻 moral 👏🏻 compass 👏🏻

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

"children need more safe space online" children have always had more than enough safe space online. what you're seeing is children deliberately coming into online space that is meant specifically for adults. and I am not saying they are not welcome by the way, as long as adult space is what they CHOOSE to be in and as long as they keep themselves safe (however, it is not an adult's job or responsibility to look after a random kid or what content they consume on the internet).

but YOU. you see children deliberately choosing to consume adult contents and say "oh no we need more children's space, and in doing so, we must ban and censor adult contents FROM ADULTS' SPACE that children deliberately choose to be in.”

and you know what else I know? you don't actually care about children by demanding more children's space online, you are just hiding behind the "we are protecting children" claim while actively trying to control people what they can or can't create/consume in their own adult space. you are just trying to push for censorship, the fascist tool that you love so much.

[writingdose]

a million times this. “I don’t like these xyz fics” then don’t read them. THEY ARE NOT FOR YOU!!!!!!! no one forces you to read anything you don’t want to read. no one forces you to consume art you don’t enjoy. it’s so easy to click that mute or block button. instead of insulting fanfics or fan art for not fitting your personal liking, either choose something that does fit your personal liking, or write the fic you want to read yourself / draw the art you want to consume yourself.

fanfic writers and fan artists create as THEIR hobbies. they create for themselves and their own enjoyment. they don’t create for strangers’ approval

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

sometimes I’m reminded that there are still people who don’t know ao3 was literally created by incest shippers — and the site’s sole purpose is to 1. be completely against censorship and 2. host all kinds of dark, taboo fics that are banned on other platforms — and the first ever fic that was posted on ao3 was a fic about an incest ship from supernatural.

you are in the house that was created by freaks. for freaks (affectionate). every disgusting thing you can think of is rightfully allowed and welcomed on ao3, because they are exactly the reasons why ao3 was created in the first place.

ao3 was created because its creators got tired of censorship, they got tired of dark and taboo fics getting banned on pro-censorship platforms, and they wanted a place that was safe for ALL FICS THAT WERE DARK AND TABOO.

ao3’s main principle is being against censorship and being proship / profic.

there are some things in fiction that make me uncomfortable, but instead of shaming people who are just minding their own business and not harming anyone in real life, I choose to curate my own internet experience by blocking/muting what I don’t want to see. ao3 has excellent tagging system, so instead of being rude, instead of asking why the world doesn’t revolve around your personal comfort, use their tagging system properly and you won’t see the things you don’t want to see.

it’s your job to curate what you see. it’s not other people’s jobs or responsibilities to censor themselves for your personal comfort. the world does not revolve around you.

also you cannot censor “only the things you personally hate” without expecting everything else, that isn’t of conservative beliefs, to be censored too. because censorship is a slippery slope and a fascist tool. I promise you there are people who think “why do tags for queer love even exist on ao3? they’re grooming children”.

if you allow the things that you hate to be censored — because someone with enough power gets to control what other people can and cannot create/consume, it will not stop at the things that you hate.

*illustration by sillyalexnorris

[bugstoref]

[carp-24]

will offline for awhile

[phtalogreenpoison]

Not that other folks can't enjoy the persona games, but i do fear they were made in a lab for those with at least one of the following:

Plural/system/DID

personality disorder

Trans

Autistic

PTSD

Paranoia

Oh! Also can't forget the depression and/or active/passive suicidality

[minty-mori]

[minty-mori]

[skelly-chan]

Use: Free IbisPaint, Finger, Fixed phone screen

[your-messiah]

If you’re Cluster B, I would recommend blocking this cretin. Or make fun of them I guess lmao.

Oh, and if you’re sensitive to seeing death threats to Cluster B people just for having a disorder, I would recommend just blocking and not bother scrolling on their blog out of curiosity.

[senranx]

butcher

[carp-24]

Positive anoning again cause shy… (even though it’s been like weeks…)

Ahem, new pfp I see 👀

(Gonna ignore how I noticed it like ages ago and just decided to now make a comment…)

hehe thank you for noticing!

i enjoy you being here, mysterious anon

[frederickchiltonsdivacup]

AO3 Writer Affirmations:

I do not have to reinvent the wheel every time I write fanfiction

I do not have to make every chapter's word count above 1,000 in order for it to be good

It is okay if some things don't make sense

I can write whatever I want

I am writing this shit for free

If people don't like my stuff, they can block me. If they're being mean about it, I can block them.

The most important part of writing fanfiction is having fun

Writing fanfiction is supposed to be fun

I do not have to appeal to people

This shit is fun

I am doing this all for free, and anyone who objects can go eat wet sand and worms from the sidewalk

[anagonizingdaydream]

Things that I firmly believe are ableist

1: "npd abuse" "BPD abuse" "cluster b abuse"

2: using "do you lack empathy" as an insult

3: "oh you have BPD? My friend has NPD so I think you'll get along!!"

4: "you and your partner work so well because you have BPD and they have NPD"

5: people who DON'T have BPD calling it "beautiful princess disorder"

6: "I want a BPD girl to be obsessed with me so bad!!"

7: non cluster b people using the terms "psychopath" and "sociopath" ESPECIALLY on other people who don't have a disorder.

8: using "narcissist" to describe someone who's just self-centered

9: "you have ASPD? You're probably gonna become a serial killer in the future lol" (actual thing I have been told. Multiple times. By several people.)

10: "you have the same disorder as (horrible person) so I don't trust you!!"