let's take ibuprofen together

i'm a guy who loves to yap, shittalk, and complain. host of the Ethereal System. AuDHD + Cluster B (all; mostly NPD) + schizoaffective bipolar + more. he/him ONLY. adult; bodily 28. pfp by grimescum (TH)

[your-messiah]

Hey, name's Messiah. I'm the host (and many other roles) of the Ethereal System. I’m an introject of the guy from Purple: Director's Cut. I'm detached from my source - don't assume anything about me.

I'm the husband of the ex-host of the system, Vincent; expect me to reference him every so often, as well as other system members.

The body is latino (Puerto Rican) and an adult (28), with me personally being way older (44). Nonbinary, apothibinary, and a few xenogenders. he/him ONLY. Oh, and I don’t have a god complex, I’m literally a god in the innerworld.

Some stances: - endo/demo/other stupid origins “systems” are not valid. you need trauma to have a CDD. polymind/sysplex is stupid as shit and also not valid. - "narc abuse" is not real. - if you are transID for shit like race/mental illness, sexualize agere/petre, identify as radqueer and/or are proship: you are fucking weird and disgusting.

Minors DNF. Interaction is ok, though.

Interests: - cooking and food discussion; my special interest!! - video games; Overwatch, Harvest Moon/Story of Seasons/Rune Factory, Animal Crossing, Saints Row, Skyrim, Mario (especially Mario Kart/Party), Fall Guys, Pokémon (my faves are Rayquaza, Leafeon, and Yamper, btw), and more I'm too lazy to mention. - bad movies; funny kind of bad. like the new Megamind level bad lol. - art and OCs; I do draw, but I won't post anything here.

Links: strawpage pronouns page bsky

[your-messiah]

I’m under so many layers of narcissism, irony, dissociation, and psychosis that I forgot I’m a real tangible person that people are indeed perceiving and not just a caricature being witnessed in some kind of secret show.

[yurious-george]

When a person with ADHD complains of severe anxiety, I recommend that the clinician not immediately accept the patient’s label for her emotional experience. A clinician should say, “Tell me more about your baseless, apprehensive fear,” which is the definition of anxiety. More times than not, a person with ADHD hyperarousal will give a quizzical look and respond, “I never said I was afraid.” If the patient can drop the label long enough to describe what the feeling is like, a clinician will likely hear, “I am always tense; I can’t relax enough to sit and watch a movie or TV program. I always feel like I have to go do something.” The patients are describing the inner experience of hyperactivity when it is not being expressed physically.

At the same time, people with ADHD also have fears that are based on real events in their lives. People with ADHD nervous systems are consistently inconsistent. The person is never sure that her abilities and intellect will show up when they are needed. Not being able to measure up at the job or at school, or in social circles is humiliating. It is understandable that people with ADHD live with persistent fear. These fears are real, so they do not indicate an anxiety disorder.

holy SHIT

[avawtsn]

Ooo okay, I really wanted to know what the source of this was and it’s Additude magazine, a 2021 last-updated-in-2021 article here titled Why Anxiety Disorder Is So Often Misdiagnosed.

I know I vibed with this quote and saw others do so in the tags so I thought a source would be helpful.

[funnier-with-narcpd]

people seem to put so much trust into me like literal strangers would form bonds with me and will trust me faster than I ever could. Like, of course I'm trustworthy, you can fully trust me, though if you ever were to ask me if I trust anyone it'd be a hell no [ except my one buddy, then yes maybe ] I don't like anyone, I don't trust anyone, but everyone likes me and everyone trusts me [ as they should ]

-🗡️🦇

why are you anons so relatable jesus fuck

[samshepard]

shoutout to everyone dealing with. thhe fucking difficulty

[npd-confessions]

I love it when people try to deconstruct racism and bigotry by calling the oppressing party narcissistic sociopaths. I love it. I love it when they say that the problem with men or white people or straight people is that they don’t have empathy. I love the fucking ableism against low empathy folk that just never fucking dies. You can advocate for equality without demonising people with no empathy. I’m so fucking sick of it.

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[leaveme2thewolves]

i block ppl all the time so my blocklist ranges from "actual fucking asshole fascist" n "post that mildly annoyed me because im petty" and if i went thru my blocklist rn i probably would have no idea why i blocked each of them but whatever

[wingkink]

btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

[melancholic-whimsy]

i only like myself when im Flawless the second i mess up the tirade of hatred and loathing is set free

[trying-trying2lyk]

i love writing out numbers and then putting them in parentheses like "one (1)" even when i dont need to i think its funny

[tropacant]

have some shitty chaotic pride flags ^^

check out the rest of the flags on my profile since tumblr has a 10 image limit lol as well as the fixed versions of a few of these cuz I’m big dumb

[xxtc-96xx]

it's that time again, kids

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

all cluster b personality disorders are considered highly egosyntonic (defined as thoughts/impulses/behaviors that are abnormal without seeming abnormal to the individual experiencing them), so it's a common misconception that people with these disorders will never seek out help/treatment.

WRONG. egosyntonic ≠ incapable of self-reflection. we probably aren't going to seek out help for something that we don't see as wrong, except society is fucking amazing at punishing mentally ill people for their differences.

most cluster b people, aware or not, will get their symptoms (usually very rudely) pointed out to them by judgemental strangers. generally that invites some self-reflection, and with that comes research.

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

sorry to be a broken record every month but christ menstruation is a stupid concept. oooooh excuse me for not getting pregnant, why the fuck is there goo falling out of me about it? grow the fuck up and reabsorb that shit for nutrients.

[local-lesbian-tree-demon]

they should invent a body that feels normal to be inside of

[anti-willo-kinger]

The creator of the app plural star, TheHanyou, has used AI in the development of the app, and harassed me over a negative review, and accused me of discrimination for being against AI

proof:

Not only is AI incredibly harmful, but the harassment over a review is incredibly immature.

The app itself (which I have used, despite them claiming the opposite) absolutely sucks. It's full of glitches and problems, it's unresponsive, and even if it wasn't, it would still be made with AI and automatically disgusting

The first screenshot comes from the "about this app" section on Google play store. It is hidden unless you expand it. You can check for yourself (unless they edit the description).

also a note: i have multiple accounts. the account I used for the review (made from phone) isn't the same one on my tablet, which is where I had the app to try it out. Perhaps they saw that the account I used for the review wasn't one that used the app? I'm not sure if that's a thing.

I don't take much offense from being called an ugly person, out of all things, but I ask you to report the review if you want, and the app.

@anti-willo-miku @anti-willo-deku @anti-willo-solivan tags for reach!

Ai is killing our planet, and I cannot justify it.

ANOTHER NOTE!!!

the app was previously known as pluralspace, but that is NOT the same app as the current pluralspace, which I adore and use myself. I have never spoken to the developer of that app and I thank them from their job

[ell-does-stuff]

shadow quiz is about to go crazy

[groupieculture]

i blog to lose followers

[groupieculture]

No Tbh I blog to be loved