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new intro post :)

so it's been like 3 years since i updated my intro, and i thought the old one was kinda outdated.

my blog is phtalogreenpoison, and i still go by Green! i'm genderfluid and use mostly any pronouns, and you can see my bio for some specific ones.

i am an adult (somewhere in between kunikida and ranpo's canonical bsd ages if you care to figure that out lol) and try my best to abide by DLDR - Don't Like; Don't Read in terms of posting. i don't really post anything explicit outside of maybe some goofy textposts or tagging, and i try my best to tag things according to fandom, topic, content, and potential triggers i can think of (although i can get lax if i'm tired). if you'd like to see me tag something, just let me know!

#green rambles is my current personal tag for what i'm thinking of off the top of my head.

i do in fact have several mental illnesses and occasionally post about it as a vent or in general, but this blog is generally for my fandom and general thoughts.

likes/fandoms (including significant past interests): Bungou Stray Dogs, Tomorrow x Together, DPR Ian, ATLA, the Mysterious Benedict society, the Starless Sea, Fullmetal Alchemist, Janelle Monae, Homestuck, Sunmi, Refind Self: the Personality Test Game, art, music, theatre, poetry, and more!

i have a LOT of backed up asks and drafts from when i wasn't able to keep up with my blog - i am trying to get to everything, but it will take me time!!! with the way my brain works (thank u, cluster b and ocd), my stability can be varied and can affect how i post or if at all. i've not forgotten, though.

if you want to see the old version of my pinned post, you can see it here.

#ramble #ramble!#intro post #pinned intro #introductory post #blog intro #blog info #green rambles #updated intro post

segamascott

toddsolondz

i’m like a clown that no one hired or pays

auxphono

Needed a clean graphic for a project, and figured while I was vectoring I would put sex and magic back in.

Happy Pride Month

auxphono

Reblogging this yearly for anyone who needs a very clean version <3 Happy Pride.

drosophilamania

Reblog to put the sex and magic back into pride

interestingmistakes

Reblogging this manually. Op doesn't want credit for fear of being terminated.

fforsythiaaa

Once when I was in undergrad, someone described something as “problematic” in class and our professor was like, “That’s cool, but ‘problematic’ doesn’t really mean anything. It means that the thing you’re describing has a problem, and in and of itself that’s not bad. Art, especially, should always have problems, or else it’s not interesting and not art, either. It sounds like you’re trying to say that this is bad, but you don’t want to say ‘bad.’ Is that right?”

So from then on whenever one of us called something problematic, he would make us talk it out until we could name the “bad” thing we were hinting at. In this particular class, 7/10 it was some type of oppression, and the remainder was like, “I’m uncomfortable because this is very new/confusing/pushing boundaries that made me feel safe.”

Once we stopped calling things “problematic” and stopping at that, class got way more interesting and... we all had to say, like, “that’s racist” or “that’s misogynistic” or “ew capitalism gross” out loud, which a lot of us had never done in a classroom before. Or we had to be like, “Uhhh... I’m not sure what’s so bad?” and confront our own beliefs and that was maybe even more useful.

Anyway. Whenever I see the word problematic, I can’t help but think of this professor being like, “Good starting point, now let’s get specific.” I think when we have to commit to saying “that’s ___” it requires a lot more careful thought about the truth and impact and complexities of whatever we’re claiming. Sometimes there really is some bullshit afoot, and also sometimes it’s art, and it should be full of problems, because that’s what art is.

hypokeimena

#'this is present in the text' is often a good first step #but those second and third ones (naming it; describing its function) are vital (via @elucubrare)

lorillee

big tshirt that says YOUR INTERPRETATIONS MUST HAVE A STRONG BASIS IN THE SOURCE MATERIAL on the front and I HATE FUN on the back

You want to play refind self the personality test game sooooooo bad .

ahem.

#green rambles #Refind Self the personality test game #refind self #video games #Am i going to have to be the one to make those actual tags idk but man #I'm normal. Yeah

ginderfluid

ryuunosuke doing the older sibling thing of saying he found gin in a trashcan but it's an actual possibility

#well. you're not wrong per se #bsd #bungou stray dogs #akutagawa ryuunosuke #akutagawa gin #lol

eroscestlavie

when you’re a gay lion and you accidentally tried to introduce your lesbian lioness friend to one of her own exes at a gay bar and she goes into the bathroom and bitches you out for not being able to tell her endlessly rotating cast of girlfriends apart which isn’t really fair because first of all they all keep dyeing their hair different colors and second of all she keeps getting back together with different ones at different times and meanwhile you’ve been “single” for like 8 months but are spending a lot of time with one specific guy who works at your old co-op and were going to excitedly tell her about it tonight but now you’ve ruined the whole subject of dating by trying to introduce her to her own ex at a gay bar (which is a watering hole. because you’re lions.)

stuckinapril

I promise you things will get so much better when you start processing people’s behavior as information rather than a verdict on your self-worth. If someone doesn’t text back, suddenly pulls away, whatever it may be, the solution isn’t to put on a tap dance for them and try to regain their approval. It’s not to crash out on them and try to force them to react a certain way. It’s just to take a step back, take a deep breath, and assess what this tells you. What’s this saying about them? What’s this saying about you??

stuckinapril

Like people’s actions are data points rather than death sentences. It could even be a data point about you. It could be that you’re not being a great friend, it could be that there’s something you guys miscommunication. Or it could be that they themselves don’t have the means to be consistent, aren’t in the headspace to meet you where you are, whatever. But this is always data rather than a judgment. Even if you’re the problem, behavior can change. Also, in the context of someone pulling back without explaining away, and assuming they didn’t give you a reasonable explanation in the first place, it’s also a data point that they’d react that way rather than communicate. Situations are always very context dependent, but they’re also always data.

#Telling this to my bpd and npd #THIS IS SO IMPORTANT #actually cluster b #Life isn't always out to get you - not anymore #And it's okay to relax #Getting better at this but it can be hardddd