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c-elestee-deactivated20140130

I used to think I was tough, but then I realized I wasn’t. I was fragile and I wore thick fucking armor. And I hurt people so they couldn’t hurt me. And I thought that was what being tough was, but it isn’t.

James Frey (via leunq)

#and there are things I've done that I just wish I could take back #because I do things emotionally and it's just a bunch of shit and I fuck everything up but I guess that's just how things are #nts stop being dumb as fuck lol #okay back to hiatus #nts

inlusio-deactivated20200524

TAEYEON IS GETTING HATE ON INSTAGRAM!!

fuck those bitches taeyeon could buy their families

#I'm laughing HAHA #kpop #exo #baekhyun #snsd #taeyeon #byuntae couple #COMING OFF HIATUS FOR TWO MINUTES BECAUSE I LOVE THIS

uhsorry

HONESTLY: REBLOG THIS IF YOU HAVE EVER SELF HARMED IN ANY WAY, SKIPPED A MEAL ON PURPOSE, BEEN DEPRESSED, FELT ALONE IN A CROWDED ROOM, HATED YOUR BODY, HATED YOURSELF, FELT LIKE YOUR NOT GOOD ENOUGH OR BEEN TOLD YOU WERENT, CRIED YOURSELF TO SLEEP, FELT SUICIDAL OR BEEN SUICIDAL

#tired of holding back and if I'm going to make some changes I'm going to start with myself #and fuck the rest tbh ha #the last time any of this list was applicable was last night so i went to bed early #hiatus things

ilovemywifemorgan-deactivated20

cause of death: too shy to call ambulance

thyme-n-space

Didn’t want to inconvenience anyone

fandommember

Someone else might have needed it more

#cause of most problems: didn't want to cause conflict #imig #hiatus things

gay4suho

#reblog for lavren #the things I do for you #kpop #exo #suho #overdose

gladiolus---amicitia

AND DON’T

FUCKING

TELL PEOPLE

THAT THEY’RE NOT TRYING

BECAUSE HOW THE FUCK WOULD YOU KNOW IF THEY’RE TRYING OR NOT

JUST BECAUSE IT DOESN’T LIVE UP TO YOUR STANDARDS DOESN’T MEAN THEY’RE NOT TRYING

#personal #hiatus things

babybirched-deactivated20140510

Depression is hard to understand, because it is not a consistent state. Depression is rather like a virus, but like a virus, it has its manageable days and its acute, life-threatening flare-ups. You can be in a depression and still laugh at a friend’s joke or have a good night at dinner or manage low-level functioning. You grocery shop and stop to pet a puppy on the corner, talk to friends in a café, maybe write something you don’t hate. When this happens, you might examine your day for clues like reading tea leaves in a cup: Was it the egg for breakfast that made the difference? The three-mile run? You think, well, maybe this thing has moved on now. And you make no sudden moves for fear of attracting its abusive attention again. But other times… Other times, it’s as if a hole is opening inside you, wider and wider, pressing against your lungs, pushing your internal organs into unnatural places, and you cannot draw a true breath. You are breaking inside, slowly, and everything that keeps you tethered to your life, all of your normal responses, is being sucked through the hole like an airlock emptying into space. These are the times Holly Golightly called the Mean Reds. I call it White Knuckling it.

Miles and Miles of No Man’s Land, Libba Bray (via babybirched)

"But the stigma of depression is that it comes with the sense that you shouldn’t have it to begin with. That it is self-indulgence or emotional incompetence rather than actual illness."

(via labioratory)

#personal #hiatus things