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# CARTELHEIR      ━━     an independent roleplay blog for an original character based within the crime genre.   a study in moral and mental decay through vegeance. STRICTLY  18+.   written by vivi  ( 25,  brazilian ) since 2018, but has since been revamped various times.   please read my carrd prior to interaction!

₀₁. 𝙲𝙰𝚁𝚁𝙳. ₀₂. 𝚃𝙸𝙼𝙴𝙻𝙸𝙽𝙴. ₀₃. 𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚂𝙴𝚂. ₀₄. 𝙰𝙵𝙵𝙸𝙻𝙸𝙰𝚃𝙴𝙳 𝚆𝙸𝚃𝙷 : @flmed and @parieur.

[cartelheir]

happy birthday pat i still love u even though i'm never here

[princessofparfait]

Claudia Schiffer

[cartelheir]

3-6 FILMS YOUR CHARACTER WOULD LIKE :

taxi driver (1976): this movie hits pat on some very uncomfortable spots, being a survivor of csa. she sees a young version of herself in the character of iris, and the movie makes her reflect about thoughts like what if someone had done something to help her back then. needless to say, it fucks her up. she's only seen it a couple of times and probably never will again.

titanic (1997): i've gone on and on about the parallels between pat and rose from titanic and i feel like i could still talk about it forever. she even has a titanic AU that i never got to write much for. they're very similar characters in both personality and vibe; except pat wouldn't be too willing to run away with an unemployed nomad, sorry.

carrie (1976): of course she loves a revenge movie. it makes her feel validated.

scarface (1983): growing up, pat developed a bit of a fascination with the gangster genre of movies, especially the ones that portrayed latin american drug cartels like the one surrounding her. it was a world she really wanted to be a part of, despite the usual violent gruesome endings, and movies like scarface gave her a glimpse into it that her father tried to shield her from.

amores perros (2000): did this movie traumatize pat? yes. did it make her even more scared of dogs, while simultaneously making her feel bad for the dogs? also yes. it's a very raw look at the class divides in mexico, which she can relate a lot to due to her upbringing.

pride & prejudice (2005): we needed at least one happy movie in this list. pat loves this movie because it's just so romantic. sometimes a classic is a classic because it's that good.

tagged by: @flmed on my other blog tagging: @sharpsuite @parieur @afteriimage / i legit can't remember any urls just steal it 😭

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trying to decide which oc i want as my main for the next blog but i fear no one is as iconic as miss patricia carosella 😔

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Chishiya all but stares at Pat as he looks at her and then pats the couch with all the expectancy of a cat waiting for its demands to be met. " It's movie night. " (.....no he's not being a little attention demanding idk what you're talking about )

he's not as sneaky as he thinks he is, or maybe pat just knows him well enough now to pick up on the smallest cues of his behavior. he's always stared, even back in her early days at the beach. stared not only at her, but at everyone who piqued his interest, watched all of them like they were experiments in a lab. this feels different; warmer, natural in a way that she knows better than to take lightly.

not needing to be told twice, she settles in beside him, immediately reaching for the blanket to warm her hands. her head falls upon his shoulder without asking for permission. " only if we don't watch another thriller. last week's was terrible. "

@sharpsuite

[sarawaybourne]

Rami Malek and Carly Chaikin as Elliot and Darlene in Mr Robot, season 1.

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@sharpsuite

[winasheepfree]

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@cartelheir played: when were you going to tell me? / borderland pilar to chishiya (maybe after a game or smth)

𝗚𝗔𝗠𝗘 𝗡𝗔𝗠𝗘: MISC ANGST MEMES

Chishiya's beginning to suspect that there's something about older women that gives them an UNCANNY ABILITY to see what others don't. Not all of them, not even most of them. But out of the few people to see more of him than the average person, it always seems to be these older women with a penchant games. Either because of a husband obsessed with poker, or because they themselves are gamemasters. Maybe it's because they can see what others don't. THAT CHISHIYA PLAYS WITH HIS LIFE THE SAME WAY HE DOES A GAME PIECE. Most people don't. They play wildly different strategies when they imagine themselves on the gameboard. They won't take the same risks, won't gamble their chances. They play scared. And Chishiya plays with NOTHING. It's hollow, he'll play risky just to make things more exciting.

It's funny, considering Chishiya has no experience with anyone seeing him, that he'd meet two people here who see more than anyone he shares a biological connection with. But one's dead. One is not. At least not yet; Chishiya thinks it's reasonable to assume Pilar will make it far, if not the whole way through.

" Tell you what? " Chishiya asks as he pokes around the bodies for anything useful. HEARTLESS? Sure. Chishiya's touch is clinical and cold, offering no comfort to the deceased. Nothing beyond what he needs to do to see if they have anything useful. ABSURD TRADITIONS WON'T DO ANYONE ANY GOOD. The dead have no need of what they possess, and Chishiya wouldn't care even if they did.

Chishiya has a good idea of what she's talking about despite his words.

" Although, if you're asking - the answer was probably going to be never. " He doesn't look up until he's pulled out a knife from one of the pockets and tucks it into his own before he glances up towards her. DOES IT UNSETTLE HER? To be met with dead eyes, or bare witness to his cunning smirk when he dooms another, or the carelessness he regards his own life with? Or is it just sad to her, like the old woman before. You're such a sad existence. She hadn't been wrong. It had been unsettling to be that seen though. His regards Pilar with a slow blink.

" In regards to the game, I figured you'd figure it out without me saying anything and risking too many others catching on. " There'd been one in there, smart but TOO SELFLESS. Chishiya hadn't been surprised when they'd died. He straightens up. " Besides, learning the games and rules of the world is more fun to learn yourself rather than be spoon-fed. "

It likely isn't what she means, and he knows that.

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pilar doesn't consider herself to be a sensitive person. this new world is a difficult one to navigate, but she's alive still, has survived for long enough to watch many others crumble. the gore is what bothers her the most — the needlessly violent deaths, the smell of blood that clings to her skin and she can't even wash it properly with bottle water baths. but at the end of the day, she approaches the games with the same methodical focus of her chess matches, aware that there are things that need to be done at times.

it's different with him.

" you have a very odd idea of fun. have you considered a hobby? " or professional help, she wants to say, but bites her tongue around it. she watches the scene, replays the game in her head, not shocked but not detached, either. only two survivors: them. it feels personal in a way it shouldn't for a moment between two strangers, like she's known him for longer than a fleeting encounter at the park right before the end of the world.

not trusting others, she can understand, but it's the carelessness with which he deals with his own life that has her puzzled. does he enjoy it? does he just not care? she knows better than to ask, but it's written in her eyes, and she has the feeling chishiya can read them if he tries. " there's not much in their pockets you can't find anywhere else in the city, you know. " pilar approaches one of the bodies, the one he'd taken a knife from, and searches their pockets again. nothing. she tries again on the body right beside it, finding their individual number card and taking it in her hands. " i take their IDs sometimes. if i can find them. "

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@sharpsuite : Chishiya's never bothered with someone's birthday before, nor does he have his own experiences to draw from. Not really. What he does know is these things seem to be a big deal for Pat, and he finds himself UNEXPECTEDLY PRESSURED. Not by her, but by himself. It's frustrating. It's frustrating that he's at a loss like this for what to do, or for her to enjoy. It nags at him. It feels a little like the last round of the Jack of Hearts, where it'd been more logic and a bit of luck. " Happy birthday. " Chishiya offers when he sees her emerge in the morning as he offers her the usual morning drink. " I took the day off work since today is rather important. " He hadn't taken off his own birthday. Will she understand? Maybe. He doesn't know. " I got reservations at the Tokyo Skytree. Which was a pain by the way. " And expensive, though that didn't matter to him. " I can give your present before or after, it's up to you. " Fashion ISN'T he interest - but he's listened and observed her enough to take the information and her preferences and work with one of the highest dressmakers for quite a while to create a custom design and he's had it carefully tucked away for some time. " And yes I'll dress fancy - it is fine dining after all, and at night it's even more elevated. " When all of Tokyo was illuminated in a dazzling display. He wasn't thrilled for the stifling life of suits but it was important to her and he could handle it without complaint for that. Chishiya blinks, and then uncharacteristically adverts his gaze. " If you have other plans though, I can reschedule as well for a more convenient time for you. I wasn't...entirely sure what you might want to do today. Or what plans you might already have. " He admits, settling for staring at his coffee and idly moving the spoon as if it will save him. ( HE TRIED HIS BEST. an also spent far too many hours pondering over this both irl in my head and here. But we are here to wish a very happy birthday to Pat <3 i say like im not working on another bday ask for her shh )

it's endearing in a way pat isn't sure he realizes. it's not that she expected him to do nothing; she's been talking about her birthday for the weeks leading up to it, as usual, so much that it would be impossible for it to go completely forgotten or ignored. but... chishiya doesn't care about this stuff. there's really no reason for him to do all of this — the gift, taking time off work, the fancy restaurant reservations, even being willing to wear a suit — other than for her sake.

the thought makes her soften all over, a smile tugging at her lips. she can make a million jokes about how special she is, but it feels nice to know, for once, that it's true.

pat doesn't hesitate, doesn't give him a warning or a chance to prepare before diving in and wrapping her arms around him. she even kisses his cheek for just a brief moment before returning to the hug. " you really think there's anyone i'd rather spend the day with instead of you? please. " a night at the tokyo skytree with him? even if she had other plans, she'd cancel them. she lets the hug linger for just a little bit longer before she pulls back, unable to contain her excitement. " now let me see my gift. "

[cartelheir]

i keep forgetting pat's birthday is coming up in 2 days but if your muse forgets she'll never forgive them for it jsyk

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i owe approximately one thousand replies but depression really hit me hard lately smh

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𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗚𝗔𝗠𝗘 𝗕𝗘𝗚𝗜𝗡𝗦 . . . ( small starter call ) 𝗣𝗟𝗔𝗬𝗘𝗥: @cartelheir

" It seems like you brought chaos here to Tokyo. Besides just showing up in my clinic and getting blood everywhere. " Which isn't anything NEW when it comes to dealing with the criminal world. Right now his clinic is empty save for the two of them, and he sighs. " I really don't care about the details of why they're after you, but if the hounds after you trash my clinic, then you ARE going to be paying up. " Chishiya lifts an eyebrow pointedly before adding. " They don't know where you are, by the way. They're out of their league here in Tokyo. For now at least. If you're lucky, they might get themselves killed. " It's not uncommon of an occurrence, especially with foreign criminals.

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whatever it is that he's giving her for the pain, it's not enough. pat feels as if she was torn apart from the inside out. her leg is useless, propped up and into a cast, but the worst of it is her stomach. the agonizing pain has faded into something dull, but insistent and never-ending. still she has the energy ━ and the nerve ━ to huff at him. " the fuck do you expect me to do about it? " she has too much of an attitude for someone who can barely get the words out through badly chapped lips. someone who's in a bad enough situation that she'd have no option but to fall to her knees and beg in case the doctor decides he's had enough of her and sends her off into tokyo to fend for herself. she'd be dead within hours. " i already offered you more money. you said no. "

[zendeyas]

Anok Yai wearing DOLCE & GABBANA – Fall/Winter 2023 Show

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@cartelheir played: i’m not going anywhere without you. / chi

𝗚𝗔𝗠𝗘 𝗡𝗔𝗠𝗘: MISC ANGST MEMES

Pat still seems rather upset with him if her glare accompanying her words is anything to go by at his suggestion to tackle the games left. He supposes it is rather understandable after the whole Beach burning down incident. He still doesn't entirely grasp the FURY BEHIND THE FLAMES, but he thinks there's at least significantly more that he understands than previously. Unfortunately, that doesn't look like it will do anything to help this conversation.

Thunder rumbles ominously and the smell of rain fills the air as the darkening skies outside the windows make it harder to see. Luckily, the fireplace offers a fair amount of light in the apartment he's gotten them into. ( Because he is not camping when there's plenty of comfy places to rest in and anyone who was is a fool - King of Spades loose or not. ) He picks at the food that makes up something akin to a dinner, but he's not particularly hungry. HE'S TIRED OF THIS, he thinks. At least to a lot of these games, even if there are still a few opportunities on the horizon. It feels a little pointless though to grasp for them.

" Well you should. " Chishiya twists off the bottle cap of his water and takes a sip. " The other game venues buy you time and safety from the King of Spades. " The Jack of Hearts game had been a longer reprieve than many would get with their games. He tilts his head, staring at her with an INDECIPERABLE EXPRESSION. " Although I suppose you have enough visa days regardless. Do you plan to simply evade the King of Spades until then and let others clear the games? " It's not judgmental, just curious. He glances outside the window, towards the few blimps that are still hanging in the sky. THE PLAYERS HAVE GAINED MOMENTUM, It's good for their spirits.

There's one blimp he has his eyes on though. " I'm going to the King of Diamonds next regardless. " Chishiya turns back towards her. " And you're not playing that one. " It's not a request so much as a fact. Not that he thinks she'd want to participate in that game anyways. He doesn't. But he also doesn't want her to. Not with the high probability that only one person will walk out of the game alive. " You can wait here if you want then, and I can see about trying to meet up after. Or we try to take out two games and reconvene at the Queen of Hearts. No one seems to want to tackle that one, so it could be a good spot to meet. "

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" that's exactly what i wanna do, actually. " the city is huge, full of hiding spots, and she has only had one brief encounter with the king of spades so far. out of everything that could happen in this world, a shootout is the last thing pat's afraid of. it sounds almost normal ━ normal for someone like her, of course, someone too acquainted with violence and brutality ━ that she almost wants to laugh at the irony of it. " i deserve a break. the others can handle the games if they're in such a hurry. "

yet even as she says it, a part of her knows she's not going through with it. maybe if they still had the beach, or some place similar. but with the way things are now; how long can she stand sitting around in an apartment with no electricity before she starts feeling even more restless? before she starts craving that rush that only the games bring, the reminder that she's still alive and might as well fight to stay that way?

this place stopped being fun a long time ago. she kind of misses home.

she raises an eyebrow at him. " why? you think i'm not smart enough to beat a diamonds game? " she's being defiant for no reason, simply for the sake of it; simply because she's exhausted and irritable and still a little bit pissed at him. diamonds have never been her forte. she doesn't consider that the games keep getting harder and harder, would probably walk straight into an arena right now with the sole goal of proving him wrong.

" whatever. there's still the hearts games, anyway. maybe i'll go after the king. " she's got a much higher chance of survival at that one, if she lives up to her reputation as a damn good hearts player. " then we could take on the queen together. "

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@cartelheir said ‘ what life choices brought you here? ’

yoojin forces back the laugh that threatens to bubble up in her throat, fingers tightening their grip on her guitar. if she had a nickel for every time she was asked that, she’d be able to get brand new strings for the instrument. ‘ just needed a change of scenery, i guess. ’ she keeps her answer vague as can be with a shrug of her shoulders in the hopes the other doesn’t decide to pry further.

it’s not like it’s a total lie she couldn’t stand the way she was constantly treated like she was on the verge of breaking. especially by her family. quite frankly, she’s tired of it. her gaze flickers to the other & she manages a tiny, apologetic smile. ‘ sorry, i just don’t like talking about it. ’

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pat simply shrugs, doesn't know the other woman enough to press for more details, or to remind her that there are better places to be in mexico. juárez is all decay and violence. sure, there's beauty in the parts of the city that stubbornly persist despite all the chaos happening around them, but each day that goes by they become harder and harder to come by.

" well, you're a long way from home. " pat wonders with herself if she could ever do something like that; go somewhere else far away with no plans to return soon. she doesn't know. too much of who she is as a person is tied to her roots. " do you like it, at least? "