The Cruelest Joke My Mind Could Ever Play On Me: Confusing Fantasy With Reality.
My dream: I had just graduated and I was on a school trip to Disney world for something and I was literally having the best time/dream I've had in a very long time. My mom appeared in the dream during a huge speech from an important person from Disney and she kept yelling out to him telling him he was wrong about something and started acting like a maniac, and I was so embarrassed that I started screaming at her making myself look like a fool in front of thousands of people. Then she started telling me she's taking all my money and that everything about my life was a lie. Like she paid ryan to be my boyfriend, my degree was fake, she took all my money and that her and jess lied to me about the fact my dad was dead. And by the end of the dream I was so stressed and beaten down that I felt like giving up so as I was walking out of a building in Disney world, my mom told me that everything that just happened was actually all a joke. Then I looked up and my dad was walking through the sliding doors looking very young and very happy like he hadn't seen me in a while. I started sobbing so hard in my dream that I realized I was having a full on panic attack in real life. (My first one ever.) I couldn't stop sobbing and the biggest feeling of disappointment I've ever felt engulfed my entire body. It felt so horrendous and magical all at the same time. I haven't cried so hard in so long. Waking up realizing that seeing him was just a dream has been one of the worst, most overwhelming feelings I have ever experienced.
