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so like isaiah is gon be mike in it chapter 2 get excited ladettes

(i never watched it but yay i guess)

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okay i've had quite a few people in my inbox asking me to talk about the cancellation/rally for its pick up BUT i'm not gonna share any of my thoughts bc I guarantee majority of you guys will not like them and thus i will be crucified so yeah

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LOL maybe now i can finally just get my degree

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alberto is the best actor on this show FIGHT ME

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okay but how do all of alec’s blazers look equally part suit jacket and part hoodie??

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what i wanna write: nice fluffy malec that makes your heart melt

all i can think of: literally the most painful angst including 20 of the worst ways magnus and alec could break up

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i don't care what y'all say, that hug between alec and clary was awkward as fuck

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so you’re telling me... you’re fukcing telling me... that alec and maia just had an interaction but THEY DIDN’T TALK? WHEN WILL THIS FRIENDSHIP RISE??

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moments i thought up but don’t know how to fit into a full fic part 12/?

“Look, there’s no universe where you would ever be a burden.”

“You say that now...” said Alec with a sigh. Magnus felt a lump in his throat.

“And I’ll say it in 5 years, 10 years, 50 years. And it’ll still be true then.” Magnus had had this conversation so many times in the past but there was something different about this time around. His heart hurt a little more this time. Alec looked down at his lap where he was fidgeting with the hem of his shirt.

"I just- I wouldn't blame you if you wanted to leave. If this got too hard." Alec couldn't meet Magnus in the eyes no matter how hard he tried. Magnus' jaw slackened and the lump in his throat only grew.

"Why would you say that?" said Magnus, barely louder than a whisper. He wanted to badly to just reach out and hold Alec's hand. But he found himself glued to his seat just as Alec was. Alec looked up and glanced at Magnus briefly before looked away and chewing on his bottom lip.

"I love you... so much..." Alec said, his voice cracking. "That sometimes I feel like I'm suffocating. And all I really care about is whether I'm enough for you." Alec realised that an arrowhead ending up in that box wasn't what bothered him. It was that maybe he wouldn't even matter enough for it to cross Magnus' mind.

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okay but,,

magnus: “gin or vodk-”

alec: “gin”

magnus: “gin”

MEEE

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reminder that if you don't wanna watch this show, don't watch it. if you do wanna watch this show, do watch it.

if you don't wanna watch certain episodes, don't watch them. if you do wanna watch certain episodes, do watch them.

just don't force people to do what you wanna do. don't be a dick. thanks.

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rune-maniac replied to your post “(don’t hate me but why was the writing in this ep SO bad??)”

Yeah but wasn't that exactly the point of the scene? Jace feared people would think of him as crazy and Alec very gently told him that's not what mental illness means. Isn't it good to hear that on TV?

yes but to effectively explore these ideas, you need to not slap your audience in the face with them. trust that you can be subtle about it and that your audience can do the rest of the work. don’t give me a fucking essay jesus christ

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(don’t hate me but why was the writing in this ep SO bad??)

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What do you think about the whole "Malec are totally getting engaged this season" theory? Do you think it'll happen, would you like it to happen? (I personally think it's a terrible idea.)

i think i’ve answered this before but tbh i just want them to be a couple for a bit. just let them be. i have no idea as to whether it’ll actually happen or not. but personally i’d prefer it if it didn’t.

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i’ve been feeling really depressed and just kinda out of it lately but your writing has kept me going a little bit. i’m not good with words but i really appreciate your works because they give me something to look forward to and they’re kind of like a constant in my life. like no matter how fucked up i am i can always look at your blog and read something that makes me feel a little better. so thanks for that.

that’s very kind of you! and i’m sorry you’re feeling that way :( i’ve been very stressed and anxious lately so i know i’ve kind of been away but i’m still extremely glad that i can bring you some kind of joy. i truly hope you feel better soon! and i’m always here to talk xx

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do you have any advice for other people wanting to start writing but don’t know how? also how’d you get into fanfic?

i’d honestly just say to write what you want to read. write for yourself. don’t be pressured by prompts or other people wanting you to write certain things. you still get to decide what to write. and don’t do it if it starts to feel like a chore. take a break, write other things, come back later. ALSO READ. you can’t write anything without reading it first. but also write how you write. don’t seek for others’ processes. have your own and just go with it. also i remember i used to write harry potter fanfic back in the day omg. bleak times. 

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@shadowhunters writers can i please have a writing credit for the magnus and maryse thank you/apology scene? thanks