god didn't put me here and nobody knows who did

i'm intersex because my hormones are imbalanced, they did tests and found out my endocrine system produces too much swag. i gotta get s-blockers to make sure anybody else stands a chance

[catspores]

the spore incubation chrysalis system. our singlet names are caterpillar/reverence/hazard (only other systems are allowed to shorten caterpillar to cat, anybody can shorten hazard to haz and reverence to rev) | they/them because we are many, headmates use differing pronouns typically. it/its also acceptable | introject heavy DID system. doubles/sourcemates PLEASE interact, we love meeting doubles and sourcemates | aromantic acespec polyamorous lesbian. i love my wife @nnomsu !!! | bodily; 21 years old, white, TME, intersex and transneutral, chronically ill and physically/mentally disabled | incest/pedophilia/loli/shota defenders, zionists, monogender trans man "lesbians", users of the term transandrophobia/transmisandry, proship/darkship/whatever DNI. antis on thin ice, just be respectful | insurrectionary social anarchist | anti-capitalist, anti-statist, anti-USA/anti-imperalism, anti-war, anti-sysmed/transmed, anti-psych. pro-racialized, Black and trans women's rights, pro-prison abolition, pro-addict advocacy. human rights applies to all humans not just the ones you agree with | NYC dweller | agnostic buddhist | therian + furry | main fandoms are hlvrai/half-life/freeman's mind. early into reading homestuck | artist, writer, musician. author of blue revision and doordash dilemna, creator of half-life: blue shift but the AI is off the rails | sharing selfshipper of many fictional lesbian wives. assume we headcanon any man you see on this blog that is not explicitly transmasc as transfem | comms open (0/1 slots taken) | anons off, you can request to be anonymous and i well censor your URL before posting, askbox open. hate asks will be deleted on sight so don't waste your time | will contain sexual content, gore (not irl), and sensitive topics related to trauma. if you're a minor please don't interact with our sexual posts. mutuals can ask for anything but NSFW to be tagged. any tags will be tagged with "cw: (insert thing)"

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[plumberrypudding]

another Black trans woman was found murdered, louisiana this time, and the news is consistently misgendering her in all the reporting. her name was marlow trottie and she was only 35 and she was a woman. don’t let them erase her womanhood.

[prescription-cactus]

what is your eye color. what is your favorite color. what is the color that appears most frequently in your wardrobe. what color is your favorite blanket. what color is your water bottle.

[creatingblackcharacters]

on the topic of “stop constantly looking for microagressions”- as I’ve educated myself and tried to be more vocal online and irl about being anti-racist, I see it more and more and more. And it’s like damn. it sucks. if you don’t see it ur not looking idk

Focusing my answer on antiblackness:

No one wants to take off the rose colored glasses and realize just what their "normal" is built on!

And to an extent, it's understandable. This shit will drive you insane, it's like a daily dying by a thousand cuts. It's HARD, to a point where you might choose to numb yourself against it when you're Black. But we can't fight what we don't acknowledge. We can't excise a cancer that we refuse to admit is there. And so, I might not be able to excise the cancer by myself, but I feel like it's my responsibility to speak on its existence. As painful as it is, maybe if we all spoke on it more, if we addressed it, the pain could stop.

or, to quote Malcolm X:

"I will never say that progress is being made.

If you stick a knife in my back nine inches and pull it out six inches, there's no progress. If you pull it all the way out that's not progress. The progress is healing the wound that's below, that the blow made. And they haven't even begun to pull the knife out, much less pull, heal the wound...

They won't even admit the knife is there."

[yellowyani]

yet another @color-palettes monthly palette challenge! This time with Leyf! She usually only has green locs cause y'know... Leaf, but I thought she would look cute with a bunch of colors! I usually only allow myself to use black and white with the palettes, but I thought it needed something with heavy contrast, and used brown for her skin :)

[marticular]

i think about this a lot

[halondrus]

[bunnygirljesus]

ppl looooooove acting stupidly ignorant when it comes to antiblackness that they start arguing with niggas on why it wasnt racist for a white man to put of a costume whit the face on a black man in the backrooms movie(the only black man credited in the movie) or how it wasn't racist for the white writers and dictator to make the only black character be the antiblack stereotype that villanizes black men by claiming/portraying them as predatory and dangerous towards white women

[bunnygirljesus]

ppl looooooove acting stupidly ignorant when it comes to antiblackness that they start arguing with niggas on why it wasnt racist for a white man to put of a costume whit the face on a black man in the backrooms movie(the only black man credited in the movie) or how it wasn't racist for the white writers and dictator to make the only black character be the antiblack stereotype that villanizes black men by claiming/portraying them as predatory and dangerous towards white women

[lowhitpointspuppyplagueharpylady]

People don't get that non passing trans women are not seen as men, they are seen as non passing trans women and are treated the way they are according to the social script for trans women, which is transmisogyny.

[cat-mermaid]

[certified-silly-guy]

I have no tail and I must wag

[vyvilha]

i think i don't really vibe with most other fans of my favorite male characters is because they usually depict them too much of a man, and i am not interested in men, i am interested in The Character. and i am not saying that they should depict them as women, or nonbinary, or should depict them as feminine, no, not at all. but there's like, you know, you can depict a male character as The Character, and you can depict them as The Man. do you get me? like, i go to the fandom looking for art and fics, and it's just, regardless of his actual characterization, it's all just fantasizing about some kind of an abstract dominant patriarch, wearing my favorite character's face. it may be the most totally-wouldnt-have-normal-relationships (and sometimes even would-literally-abuse-you) kind of guy, and you join a dedicated space for his fans, and all they talk about is how they want to marry and start a tradcore 50s style nuclear family with him. it can be a guy who's arrogance and attempts of domination are explicitly shown to be a facade that hide the fact that he's actually kind of a massive pathetic wet loser, and you go to his fics, and they're all depicting him as a caricaturish daddy dom. at this point it's like, do you even like the character at all, or do you just like The Man, and project this man onto whatever character you find visually attractive? and these people kind of, really really poison actual discussion of the character, who is kind of a fucked up evil person (i only like *those* types, so im talking about them) because they see analysis of the actual character as an attack on their fantasized daddy dom husband, who is actually isn't The Character at all, and is simply a face of the day for The Man

[librarycards]

people on here who have been on 10-15+ years like myself...i don't know how they claim that there were never any Black bloggers on here, or that it was always such a white website. trudy gradientlair was on here. thisiswhiteprivilege was on here. there was a feminist citation project sara ahmed was involved in on here. there was someone on here whose username was wretchedoftheearth and that was how i learned who fanon was when i was 12, by googling those words. tumblr was the only place i knew i could go to get accurate & compassionate info about what happened to trayvon martin, when everyone around me irl was rabidly racist. the amount of reportage and scholarship that happened on here before the first big wave of bans was so huge and so much has been lost. where were you when it was happening??? why weren't you paying attention??

[neshatriumphs]

Every time people speak about how all the "problematic" people left the site and went to Twitter, I simply presume whoever says it is racist. Everyone who wanted to try to discourage people from returning here when Twitter was overrun, I presume was antiblack. Twitter became unsafe and Black people STILL kept at it, because it was literally still more productive for them to do work there than it was to try doing it here.

There were folks here that I know elsewhere now who literally help save lives in their communities and have online safe spaces in other places that they were able to build and cultivate. Seeing Black people who became huge when they left here will always be my perception of Tumblr. It is a place that Black people started great work and were put out because the work wasn't valued by the white Tumblr population or was straight up sabotaged by them.

I FINALLY got back in touch with Cashawn, who was the first person who got "Black Girls are Magic" poppin. I hadn't been in touch with her for nearly a decade! Because she fucking left here. And there are a few, very few who tap in and see what's up over here every now and then. But a lot of them simply let Tumblr kick rocks and they were correct to do so.

And it was the central place, not just for Trayvon's story, but everyone's. When other sites were not giving information or giving construed information, there were so many boots on the ground activists who used THIS SITE to communicate their situations and tell you what was real. In fact, one of the main points of the purges were getting rid of activists who were using the site to keep others informed.

This WAS the site people came to for things, and then it had to become Twitter and there are still ignoramuses on here who chuckle "Twitter is having old convos from Tumblr lol" Twitter is having PRESENT convos that many of the same people who were having them on Tumblr had to go have them on Twitter instead, because Tumblr became unsafe for the work that they started here. Twitter is STILL having conversations that Black people have had to have in every space we occupy and are often run out of.

But, because Tumblr IS full of white people, their arrogance makes them think they are special and smart and revolutionary. They don't even know how much of the shit they say has been picked from the bones of something that Black people originally grew on Tumblr before they were deactivated or jumped ship.

[vague-humanoid]

Transgender woman faces two felony charges after drawing a firearm during an altercation.

A Wyoming transgender woman is facing two felony charges after drawing a firearm during an altercation she says began with anti-LGBTQ+ and a

Ríhanna Kelver, a bartender and trans rights advocate in Laramie, has been charged with aggravated assault and possession of a deadly weapon with unlawful intent after a 13 September 2025 confrontation outside the Crowbar & Grill, whereshe worked. Kelver could be sentenced to up to 15 years in prison if convicted on both charges.

Kelver says one man in a group of men across the street from her started shouting homophobic and transphobic insults at her before the man allegedly shoved her to the ground in a downtown crosswalk, as reported by The Laramie Reporter.

[el-shab-hussein]

There's more, as it pertains to Black trans people's right to self-defence:

Despite Wyoming’s “Stand Your Ground” statute, which allows people to use reasonable force in moments of self defense, Kelver faces up to 15 years in prison for both charges, as well as up to $11,000 in fines, per Cowboy State Daily. Kelver faces an additional year and $1,000 fine for a charge of interference with a peace officer. [...]

As pointed out by Slate, self-defense laws are often put into question when people from marginalized communities, especially trans people, use them, including Cece McDonald, a Black trans woman who served time in a men’s prison for defending her friends during a racist and transphobic attack. Ky Peterson, a Black trans man from Georgia, was also arrested and imprisoned for killing his rapist in self-defense.

[t4t4t]

[onepieceof-stardust]

ID: sticker that says “the world needs trans women more than it needs another unhappy good man. Be soft, be a girl, we’re waiting for you.” End ID

[cherrysnax]

I’m tired of “gooners” I’m tired of 4chan terms I’m tired of casual racism I’m tired of all this shit we have to pretend is normal so we don’t upset like the few people who conflate their identities with being edgy, racist and insufferable